YEAY! BIG SMILES!

Now i'm just left with you; yeah! its ok, sometimes, idk why i'll go all out for a woman like you. LOVE? is that the word? huh? You know, i always don't want to think of you coz you know why? Coz thinking of you hurts me.. yesh! you read it right, thinking of you hurts me a hell lot. Sometimes i also wondr why am i being honest to you? why am i being dead damn honest to a person who doesn't appreciate sincerity, ok lemme take tht back, I DON'T NEED YOU TO APPRECIATE, coz you wouldn't even notice in the first place..

Lastly, i'm not a sore loser looking for love or wadsoever, i'm just a typical next-door-boy who want take on wonderful rides and enjoy those moments.. I just want to experience how is it like, to be with someone you care for, someone you're willing to sacrifice for.. i just wanna experience hw it feels to be in a relationship, call me a loser but well.. 2010.. 4 yrs was soo ancient.

This memories had becme soo faint that sometimes it just leaves me wondering..

theres a malay saying..

I'm really wondering on this line, what kinda impact have you left on my shattered heart?

i need those answers, or perhaps i need sme help with it..

i don't care already, hiding my feelings will only hurt me.. i just want you to know, to really know, that i know i had been a fucker, a sucker at relationship.. yes, i went berserk. made stupid decisions, astrayed frm the real path.. but soo just to tell you, when you left i was hurt.. did you know.. and as i think again, i made mistakes and was never given chance to explain or perhaps to prove you wrong.. i was left alone man.. alone..

I donno wad else am i to do to prove you wrong.. i donno...

for a record, babe, i'm not the typical guy hu can or easily find new girls.. im not tht kinda guy.. i remind you again, i am not...

i shall stop here now..

these faint memories.. well at times i shouldnt take the effort to remember. let memories be memories..

Qal, Mas, Fa2 and Mell.. theres reasons why i don't wanna think about her.. the reason is everytime i think of it.. it just hurt soo much.. it does.. i wanna be happy, i wanna be normal...

please don't dig up any topic about her again.. please, i wanna keep it as memories only; im putting effort only at one end of the line... i dun see an opening, i dun see a light, with this my hopes are dying.. i noe should not give up.. but let's just put that to fate..

i'd rather not rush in to a relationship with others or even you, coz things if handles 1 sided won last long.. n id rather not have a STR..

IMY..

*you shine brighter then the other stars*