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original: detonatedlove♥
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28.08.2008
Marks my last day in Starbucks MW. Trust me, i thot i can get over tht job easily, but its hard.. serious.. feelings do welled up in me. Damn shit ar!
Haha thank God, i din like teared or been too sentimental during my last shift. But while i was talking abt wrk to Sha, i felt ya.. i do like wrking there.. gosh!!!
No more free drinks guys.. =(
i noe soo sad ryte? But i still hve my partner's card = discount.. hahah!
Soo my journey had ended.. i'm no longer the Store Coffee Master, not even a Part-Time Barista, well maybe.. just maybe i'll b back aftr NS, jus like how my bro came bck to RC. In other wrds.. i hope my plan goess well aftr NS.. =)

Without work.. im literally a lil poor (dats if u takeaway the money i gt frm my dad).
Dance, i took dance away frm me prior to NS..
School.. i skipped dat..
soo actually now, im totally a boring bored nothing to do plain stupid Ayul. Haha!!! NS soon, im kinda looking forward to it.. haha!! i jus dunnoe why.. tapi mcm a lil sedih.. god!! wun be seeing those loved ones alot.. n thnk god im single, coz if im atachd, i think ill cry like baby sia..

Soo where was i recently? hanging out with ma fwen till late nites.. n sleeping over at Popo's place. haha!! Yes, i decided to kol Alep, as Popo now.. hahaha!!!
Guess Sat nite i'll go slp over Popo's place again.. hohoho!!!

Niwae, fasting mth coming, and i hve thots of quitting smoking.. hmm.. i wonder~

For I Am Glad That I Met You

it wouldnt be the same if youre not here..
for you changed the meaning of lights n rainbows..

Now sometimes, i just wish people wld wake me up frm my fairytales n dreams, for tehy dun bcme reality.. nuff said..

let me hibernate for now..
lets just put those thots n hopes behind fr nw..
NS here i come...

NS = escape from harsh reality to a harsh training ground.. its good mind exercise.. =)


Sometimes, i gt a feeling, ive learn to see things dat arent dat farfetched..
like i said, youre becoming my addiction, n no im not crazy..
When Gila boy meets a kinda-Gila girl = sumpah aku tak tau

jigsaw:
hey.. nak bwobfbdebdfd




Sumpah i dunnoe wads the title about.. had been listening n re-dancing to music for love dat i bcme stupid i think.. haha!!!

niwae, im soo getting this with D next mth.. lalala!!!



off to dance prac.. wee~

jigsaw:
i got it all sorted out now, and all thanks to you.. =)


So i was wrking one Friday morning. Its an ohk day.. but u noe, wrking with Shimmy n Idi will obviously go well.. yes, 3 of us enough to mke the day go crazy.. n blearghx! stupid crowd.. no stop still ok.. haha!! shld i add, we PCD-ed an entry to wrk.. lol!!!
Imagine 2 "forever 18 kids", strutting to PCD's "When I Grow Up" in Millenia Walk at 6.30am in the morning!!!

HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

and soo we ended shift.. lepak here n dere.. n i got to go to the store BBQ outing..
hehe!! i stick to my idea of not cooking!!! yesssa!! i came alongside Nazzie in his Liyana.. yes 2 guys n a car n smoking all the way.. and yeah, gt there sat down.. n makan mcm babi!
i guess i really did eat alot.. coz the chix wing i damn blahdy nice!! the marination dat is.. the satay okok ar but ya..
popped in marshmallows, sme coke.. some green tea, a lil dash of Jolly Shandy and sipped a few Tigers. lol!

Arnd 11pm, left the place to meet Kimmie.. Omg!! ure gonna leave like later?? shit sia!!! i fcuking gonna miss u while ure away!
kk, im now waiting for the pics of the outing frm all those cameras.. yes we're talking pics frm 2 DSLRs and 2 RED digicams.

Crashed over at Alepo's place and str8 to dreamland.. yes yes.. i was dat beat.
till den mofos, im off...

to self:
i like you, and you, n you, n you.. and also you.. but i nvr mentioned the word love to any of u. hahaha!!!! k shut up.

Thank god national day is over.. sentosa session over..
well im left with a few days in Starbucks MW.. Kimmie Knowles leaving for India soon.. ='(..
wad else.. ohh ya.. Risha Cole has left MW before i leave..
be strong sista!!! u'll be the best manager ever!!! trust me..
Rachelle Carpio Bengala is coming back soon!!!
Dance is gonna stop soon for me..
After all these events have occured, i'll be the plain old Ayul..

Ok, work was okla..
recently been msg-ing someone, i oso dunnoe y.. dun ask me..
Darl popped by wrkplace just now, and whats the ferst thing tht was told..
"Look at my legs!!!"
and i go.. "nono, look at mine"...

Wrking mid/late morning shifts the whole of these week, but its ok.. i've gt my Shimmy to accompany my nonsense..
Was wrking with some people.. time is running out in Starbucks.. and i need to gt things done before i leave, left a 2 page essay, (its a negative one).. coz im pissed with how things go with the new Starbuckians..
1. messy store room.
2. messy back-cupboards.
3. stocks not done well.
4. slow
and the list can go on!!!
i'll deal with these people personally if i dun see a change by next week.. grrr!!!

reachd home..
NO FOOD!!!
thnk god, Alfie bro ordered mackiez!!!
yes, i gt my Mc Spicy meal.. gobbled down in less den 8mins flat.. hahaha!!!

i'm using a downright stupid moto flip fone now..
hahaha!!! feeling cosmopolitan kid lahh.. flippie fone mahx!!!!

okok.. i wanna watch my anime.. uhu uhu hu!!!
will be online till quite late ar!!!
wrking at 11am tmrw!!!

yessa!!!
Store Outing this friday..
am soo looking forward to it!!!

to self:
falling out from you. undecided. open options.
let's GO DISCO!!!


I'll save my Sentosa posts later.
I'm just gonna talk about a special, in fact the most treasured fren ive ever met.
BEWARE: Its a tad emotional, soo if u wanna like critique, i suggest ure such a pussy. since ive oready put up dis disclaimer, u can jolly well click the close button if u dun wanna read mushy stuff.

Arif Muzzain Mugiono
I've known him since 2001. Dis year mark our 7years of frenship. But how i wish things were like "yesterday". For those shit heads dat think all i have is dancers n more dancers n my starbucks colleague, dis guy here is someone who u may nt hear frm me since the past 1 year. But if u were to read earlier posts (datedin 2006), u'll maybe see his name somewhre.

Anyway, i cant stop thinking recently abt this shit due to recent events. Anyway, he's dis bestfren.. my bestfren, whom we grew up since sec school. We went same CCA, shop together, study together, lepak together.. plans for our merepek SYF stuff together, entered poly together..etc etc. In fact he's more den a bestfren. He's like my brother. A twin brother i never had since birth, but i met him in the path of life.

We used to do things together.. in fact i think he's the oni fren which birth dte i clearly remembered. 9 November..
now, ive been pretending its ok.. ive been pretending dat losing u is like nothing.. i thot there might b a replacement.. i was wrong.. all i had been was to have u listen to my crap shit nonsense recently. A listening ear like how u used to b. Someone to joke my sorrows away, but no. u weren't dere fr me.. u weren't dere for me wen i was having my deep shit life in poly last year. U met new frens.. u frgt all about me.

I cant blame u, i oso made new frens, but the thing is, we stopped talking out of a sudden.. we stopped meeting all of a sudden..
haiz.. i shldstop here for now.. too many things running thru my head..
bottomline is, Arep.. i fcukingly miss u.. i wanna talk to u abt wads e matter dat drift us apart. i gt lotsa of things to bitch with u. deres many things arep.
I never thot i'll lose my brother.. but i was proven wrong..
ur b'dae is coming quite soon..
but i might nt be dere to say happy bdae..
i seriously shld stop here..

ure the bestest fren dat God had sent from above..
all i wish now is at least u noe dat ure tht brother i missed..
oh no we're not talking abt gay-ism here.. im talking about a bond tht is soo close..
p/s: my mom still asks about u. but evrytime she asks, i lied to her.. saying ur bz with skool.


arep is the most left guy..
we're 18 then..
e other pics of me n him dunno where oready, coz reboot comp..

to self: i'll leave it to u to decipher..







click here for the entire album

Evrything went great, this is just a small update; im gonna update the details in the privacy n comfort of my home later on (im at qal's place now).
I love the drinks, yes, we're amateurs in mixing, but go ask the people who turnd up.. the cocktails are soo soo nice.. woots!!!

Choc Martini..
Fruit Punch Whiskey..
Peachy White Wine..
plus more..
yes we're tonggang terbaliking.. sme secrets revealed.. emotions pourd..
its one hell of a good night.. and i miss those fcuktards already
Thank you fr being dere Mas, Qal, Alep, Fa2, Ling, Sharul!!!!
plus dose hu left earlier, Eddy & Bella and Baqir..

gosh.. NS is soo soon.
I miss u my bestfriend.. God!!! some people might noe why.. Arep Muzzain, u better contact me someway or another.. entah, i jus feel stupid lately.. but nvm..
ok, i wanna slp n smoke.. chalo..

to self:
Baby D, i miss u sia.. can i not see u suffer? if u ever need someone, you noe i'll be here for u.. hugs b; lol!! funny thing is baby D oso dunnoe who is Baby D. lol!


I din go to fizah's wedding last Saturday, someone just kill me. someone just explain to her how i felt of not going. we used to be super close, time drifts us apart, and now ure married. if u happen to read my blog, lemmeb str8 forward, if i were to go to ur wedding, sumpah, i'll feel out of place. U noe, having the ex-bestie.. (sorry arep, we totally aint in-synch anymore, i tried to wrk things out, but nvm).. having ayeb and the other open ppl which i am totally lost with around, i'll feel super left out. And i really feel bad of not going.. God, please give them a sign that i still love them loads.. haiz..
Its just the dancers and the galfwens now.. where is the Fabulous 4 family???
Arep, Ayeb, Fizah.. i love you guys then, and i still love you guys now.. tmrw n the day aftr tmrw and so on..

fizah, i saw ur pics in arep's bloggie, u wore my fav color.. even ur deco is red.. mummy, i love you, i'm tearing as i type dis down.. i really really miss you n my bros.. i really do...

To kill my sadness, as usual.. retail therapy is the answer.. i'm not gonna go in details of what i shop today, jus soo you noe, today is my pay day n im left with 1/4 of my pay...

I dragged gf shimmy to shop with me, n she shopped as well.. both of us shopped for a top-to-bottom sets.. hahaha!! splurge like never before..
i got my Kenneth Cole Reaction perfume after soo long of fickle minded months..!!!!

I ate like a pig..
n now im home with a terrible migraine..
i cant stand cold weather (rain n aircon) to the switching of ciggies in the rain. I dun smoke wen its raining.. coz ya, i'll gt headache..
gosh.. mumsy asked hw much i spend today.. and i jus said $150+-... if she noes the real amnt.. call me screwed.. speaking abt scrwed..

Yesterday, i brought home 2 bots of wine, martini mixer n rimmer.. lazy me left the entire package in the living room, coz i thot i'll smuggle/hide it in my room later.. soo i played comp, play games.. n slept.. to my horror at nite mom woke me up n say, is those bottles beer n stuff.. of coz i said no.. i was panicking sia.. thnk god she dun ask my brother.. but i think she suspects la.. jus dat she kept an eye closed... god!! thats too close..!!!!!!!

arghh!!!ok...
Ayeb, Arep, Fizah.. i'll meet u guys soon.. i promise..

to self;
hey you, are you still oblivious?


A bottle of Belvedere Vodka..
A bottle of King Robert's Whiskey...
A bottle of Santa Luz Red Wine..
A bottle of Santa Luz White Wine..
A bottle of Chocolate Martini Mixer..
complete with Chocolate Martini Rimmer..
A few cans of beers..

Evening/Night Sentosa as backdrop...
put up some beach music.. and yeah!!!!


I SOOO CAN"T WAIT!!!

Hey, ferstly.. i've been kenal-kenaling ppl lately. But none seems to made the cut. Its either the qualities aint right or i jus gt fickle minded. Anyway; deres dis particular one, which i seem to care for, but that someon.. let's just say.. oblivious la. Actually, cant be blamed, i dun show my care and concern; and dun ask me why. I myself dun noe, but if given the chance of me to know dat person better, i will...

anyway.
I wanna post pics of my loved ones and why they are loved.
i'll start with my BBYY Girlfwens.

TAKING A BREAK


Telephone
Lady Gaga





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Arep Muzzain


Claudia BBYY
Ints BBYY
Shimmy BBYY


DYK/F'Up Crew
Daymie Ba'alwi
Haiqal
Mastura
Ryna
Wawan


Ad
Alif
Andreas
Arfy Bro
Asya
Ayis
Chad
Fawrahh
Ket
Miza
Niki
Rach
Ruzanna
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