Ah-Yul Blogspot; Serial Confessionist

holla holla.. was going thru my frenster frens' profles wen i cme accross comments posted at sme ppl's pics by yesh GIRLS saying so n so is cute. ok sme of u may think i'm jealous but does haggard ppl look cute? i dun wanna put the wrd matrep as ya sme matreps r cute. n dis CUTE applies to a small number of ppl soo u minah rep readers jgn nak perasaan tinking ur ang kong siao boyfren is CUTE .

wads in the world now man? whre has the time whre women seek a nice hubby gone to. issit influential attacks frm aliens dat drives girls nowadays looking for raunchy/haggardish guys? n ya, have sex. 9mths later complain to mummy wan gt married.

basically, a reason y i remain single. coz many a times, girl do mention abt baby face n the boyboy face i hve BUT many go for the uglier ones. Y? u ppl think haggard looking ppl are cool? dis happens esp to those mini minahs. those 18yr old wanna be 13yr olds.

If a guy is prim n proper, they call dem gays/himbos.. BUT the correct term is metrosex EXCUSE MUA! then they see those tatooed bengs a hot str8 hit! cibai la.. sme ah bengs oso gay la.. huahuahua! stop the gay issue, duwan to offend other sexual orientated ppl. soo bck to the main topic. wad do dese gerls see in those fierce looking guys? in fact they aren't fierce. 99.9% are damn right posers. As some are my frens, sad to say. dey follow the current trend of buy-a-guy on their trend. HipHop was once done and many ppl do it wif baggy shirts n pants till some look like stick man. British invasion came in, haha. many storm TOPMAN, girls go aaaawwwww.. BUT, they did gt the dressing right. cardigan wif cap? r u ppl insane? Next rocker/emo concept. i've seen real emo kids n follw-e-crwn-emoers. real emo ppl r well emo.. those follow trend jus like to over do it. haha.. n still girls find dem hot.

i jus dun gt it. sometimes i felt like taking a pair od scissors n style evry ugly haggardish guys out dere or jus shake my head at their fashion sense. being me, i chose the latter. haiz..

soo wen is trend dying out? can't ppl jus find their own dress sense n girls, PLEASE DUN encourage haggardish guys. soon u'll regret wen theres no longer a term called gentlemen.

bottom line is.. i find ugly ppl ugly!!
sorry la!!! I AM SUPERFICIAL

i'm not tht hndsme myself but at least i spoke for wad is right. those hu noe me will noe wad type of person i am. i diss ppl hu follow trends. c'mon, grab a pair of tanks, berm n sneakers n buuyaaa!!! extremely perfecto!

btw,
p.s: ever realised tht some concepts are ugly. n not really fashion staement. example: EMO. i find tht emo concept is bullshit as basically, its jus a guy. hu has sme personal issues, (maybe fucked by his dad) den cries out 24/7; left his house; sleep n live on the streets (which explains torn pants).. no $$$ to have a hair cut (thus emo ppl gt ugly hair n SMELLY); n most of the time in dark colored tees (coz outside no washing machine bahx).

soo sorry to emo readers. dun like me. den dun read ar. cibai!!!
i love giving out fashion statements so? n owh.. i hate under 17 girls. soo girls hu wanna noe me n ure 17 n below puhlease forgt it la ok. nect, conserve ur hi-class bitch look den perhaps i'll tke u in.

LASTLY;
YA I NOE I GT TORN PANTS, BUT ALEAST ITS FASHIONABLE DEN THT HOLE OF URS AT THE KNEE LEVEL.

dese entry not aimed at anyone, anyone feeling-feeling cn go jump down or rite dwn songs. i jus need to say it out. SG GUYS/TEENS fashion sense is based on influence. c'mon stick to ur style. 1 fren brit, the rest all follow. cibai.

Friday, February 23, 2007

a wrap up 11:03 PM

haha; hadn't been blogging coz deres nuting interesting to blog about. Its not that i'm lazy or wad ok. Hua hua hua..

my life revolves around school/wrk/play; till at times i'm sick of it. School is coming to an end. N here starts holiday; bt sme things r breaking apart which i cant mention in this public domain. I can feel its not gonna be great as "EXPECTED" but, nonetheless, try myself to enjoy it.

haha.. nwiae, im doing tht well in academic wise tho.
So i got nuthing to say abt my studies coz yet AGAIN, this is a public domain.
(some people kpo abt my results horx)

anyway, monday, done wif papers.. e wind dat blows from the clubs, beaches n sleepovers are brushing against my body. huahuahua! STILL.. i gt wrk work, but apart from dat; im gonna enjoy myself.

CHINGAY-ing l8r wif perhaps claud, fathul, candy, ket + +.. we nvr miss chingay since 04 hor.. (2004 we even perform ok).
sadly, sme of them cant mke it like damn loser ARIF MUZZAIN ANAK ONO.. wants to study. grrr...

nuthing much to blog now. neting get thru my phone. BTW;
I CHANGED MY NUMBER OREADY
ask around or get me thru frenster or msn aite..

Saturday, February 17, 2007

the wonders of time 3:31 AM

the wonders of time. thought about this idea aftr watching a certain Anime, whre the main character is now much older and matured. soo thus, i'm gonna talk about myself, n wad men my life bcme soo unforgetable. this is gonna b a long entry, but if you feel like knowing me more n much personally, this is the best and closest u can get to.

First, i'm gonna start with my primary school days.
Ever wondered wad Ayul Andika was? or perhaps lets use the term Khairul Azhar as Ayul was a mere family pet name.

He was a nerd, not really. but of a studious nature. Known to be mischievious in the siblings of four. He's greatest goal, to be someone who ppl look up to. someone like his second brother; whom mom, kept on praising, even to current date.

He's naive, he always gets wad he wants. Toys are his favourite. Not labels not even friends. His world revolve around the era of toys, his fantasies were how he wished that toys, could jus interact with him.

Smart, Intelectual.. n sometimes, mere stupidity and stubbornness.. that was wad he was. He gt an above average score for PSLE; which he knew himself that he could gt even higher if he stayed away form that thing that is called Digivice and GAMEBOY. Nonetheless, he was happy and satisfied.

In 2001, he was then posted to Bowen Secondary School. A school that has the most number of plants i guess. In his first year at BWSS, he was still good.

A year passed, he bcme wad he wants, he still longed to become someone who ppl look upon to. He threw away most of his toys, which may amoun to hundred over dollars. He had now found his circle of life. A term called "Friends". He treated them with respect, not knowing that not everyone in the world are friends.

He soon realise the bad things that some friends do. He felt betrayal for the ferst time. Then in Sec3/4, he found anthr circle of frens, but he jus din mix well with it. He felt awkward witing that group. He life revolved again, this time with another group of frens, they broguht him up from his deep dark hole, wiped away his tears and shown him what frens do. He put his life on the hook with this group. Soon, O' Levels are over. These frens met less. we hardly met.. whre have the moments whre we wentto each others place to slack? It all went down th drain. But i forgive u all, we cant jus stick to each other, yet at tht time again, wen i think bck, we're still kinda immature despite the age of 16. Ayul was commercialised and used outside family.

2005, he failed his O Level Maths. His greatest disaster yet. He din cry or wept away, he still hold the determination to outbeat his elder brother thus he str8away sign up for the private candidate without much thought. During this time, thegroup of frens i hadl seldom met. I was alone again. Then, this small group of frens emerger from nowhere. we bcme inseparable.

But all good things always came to an end. 06 result were out. I passed, my frens, some din gt tht good results, school were posted n we gt separated except for a minor few. This minor few.. some gt wif their own life. and i'm left with one inseparable one. Before tht we met dis couple, n since TP day, we bcm VERY close. Now, we are the closest 4. Don't ask me but i put my life with them, and i do noe dat each of them put their life wif me too. In TP, made lotsa new frens, but hu noes wad the future brings.

As i was saying, ever wonder the power of time. It brings back old memories. Part of me, wants to go back to my old neighbourhood, Potong Pasir, which i hve left 3 years ago. I guess, i 've even forgotten some of my frens dere. BUt there holds many childhood days n memories.

Punggol, bcme my next home. This is whre the new me is. From the stubborn, clumsy n pretty UGLY me.. changed to someone tht some people din really recognise.

Lets talk abou his physical features.
He ate subutex and grew super tall.. NOT.. he grew naturally (standing at 1.8m+)
He's still lean, but gaining weight rapidly
His hair is straight
His image is his greatest weakness, he love/hate himself depends on how he looks
He became his worst enemy (metrosexual)

Inside this body if his,
He sometimes forgt the meaning of love
He is afraid of love
His trust is to a minority group of people
He sees money as desire AND the coz of conflict

time changed me. But i'm lucky that God gave me a sane mind tht allow me to keep this memories.

people come and go, BUT, i don't want to separate with some people. U noe hu u r. My boyfren, girlfrens, "mom & dad", siblings.

time flew pass too quickly, n how i wish i cld pause it for an hour? a day? a year?
I'm 18 turning 19.. living the lifestyle tht he himself wonders why his cash pours like waterfall.. and i've learn to be superficial.

I'm still waiting for the time whre someone could really make me cry buy telling me hw special i am to them. And yes,now i cld feel i'm looked upon to. I had never craved attention as i was given plenty. Fame wasn't on my list, but sometimes i do joke about it. and YES, i'm still trying my best to outbeat others. esp, my siblings.

with this, i know i'm gonna suffer anthr failur with my results for this semster in TP; but i knew n prepared tht, i will push myself up. wad more wif my close buds; i hve thier support. did it too many times, this will not be a problem. all you need is..

DETERMINATION & PERSEVERENCE

Sunday, February 11, 2007

re-cap + enough of these shits; the last 2:10 AM

hihi, here i am back popular demand.. yeah right!!!
anyway, sorry for not blogging as i'm buy with my portfolios. Seriously i'm a busy kid, believe it or not.

anyway, lets talk about happening things dat happened ferst.
had quite a blast with SB-MW dinner outing. okok, not many turned up, but it still goes on well. hmm.. lemme see, all managers and only 2 + 1 partners. 1 of them joined for dinner l8r. soo hmm..

as EXPECTED, seafood is the main dish. god save me; i don't wanna order any other food as people will find it rude, even if they don't; i don't feel good doing so. anyway, they ordered BBQ wings, soo that pacifies me up. haha..

theres sotong in sambal, hmm.. these snail stuff, forgot the name oready, hmm.. stingray.. kangkong.. oyster omelette, BBQ wings, white carrot cake. i am soo luving it la. looking out for more of these eating frenzy things. anyway, i wanna be fat. next time, SIRLOIN STEAK PLEASE. hoho!

now the other part. buggers and hate people.
yesh! i was wad i was LAST TIME, i'ved moved on and wads wif u ppl hu barely knew me, n throw offesive words at me. it doesnt affect me u noe; jus pissed for the fact tht u ppl are soo narrow n shallow. and in MY terms, i consider u ppl as CHEAP. people dat are 2-faced dat even god wouldn't grace u permission to enter heaven! fuck it la! keep ur dimwitted comments n remarks to urself. and to the PEOPLE hu keep bitching about me, thx ehx.. coz its not affecting, in fact ure creating a bad name for urself over and over again. F.Y.I, u din remember tht i can bitch as well?

if u're still not happy wif me, c'mon i'm ok wif a fight! and i really mean it. ur gap can shut n will handle it fistfully! literally!

ppl like u are creating a bad name to others! my perception of u ppl chnged more bcoz of ppl like u. i'm not putting any names here, those hu noe will noe hu i'm talking about. and oh ya, stop bing 2 faced to me. get a life, i'm not ur momma's boobs to snuggle u. as i myself i someone u wished u neverdid underestimate.

i'm everyone's worst nightmare f.y.i.

anyway, most ppl noe about me oready, so stop bitching, its different now. anyway, i knew from the start ppl like u are not MY fren material coz all u seek is attention. me and my frens dun need attention, we r naturally the life of the crowd.

with that note, i'm here again blogging to say.
KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH FERST BEFORE JUMPING TO CONCLUSIONS!

Labels: oh well

Friday, February 02, 2007

great desires 2:40 PM

here i am sitting down on the pathetic plastic grey chair of blk 3 level 7 of stupid info tech school doing Java. PLS!!! save me from it. i seriously cant b botherd to program, my hp is charging next to me. i'm awaiting calls from my beloved frens. esp my "family".. lol.. its soo weird if a day i never recieve a call or msg from dem ok.

i was sittign down by this computer when it came to me dat i have much heavy desires. its sort of fetish n craving for sex but stronger den it; u noe, sex doesnt mke e world go round, it mke ur spouse go round; and if u're gay or lesbian dat does nothing. RETAIL THERAPY does make evrything go round. well.. as i'm typind dis dat crapy lec wanna let us go off early. she must had a nice round last night.

she hardly let us off early ok. haha.. thinking of it, can someone buy me a new tank top??? not those loose neck ones.. i wan those fittingones, and erm.. a beaded necklace of matching colors and a pair of Prada Shades (available at Millenia Walk).. lol.. its this shop called the Sunglass Hut or sth like dat.

muahaha! and also, f.y.i; today i looked fucking ugly ok. very.. haven put my foundation (oxy cover) on and my face isnt powdered yet.. lalala.. im such an ugly farker now.. should pay a visit to the mirror now. haha.. cya!

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