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original: detonatedlove♥
pictures: owner's own

before i start anything.. OMG OMG OMG!!!

ok bck to the entries..

things are spinning damn blahdy fast around me n my life and emotions are taking a ride on the hot wheels of the roller coaster. oh gawd!!! help!

for a start, i din went/do any of my supp papers, n people are labeling me as crazy!!!
hoho!! bck it up boy!! haha! ok my new academic year resolution is to be on time n study hard. no more slacking till the slacks went slack.

its time to tke e photoshop and other relations of it seriously once skool commence. other stuff? next priority.

work? we have a new manager called Ina..
hu is my elder bro's ex-partner.. hoho!!! n we name her Fiona coz Shrek (Sharm) left.. =(
ok Fiona's damn blahdy good as a manager; coz she just understands how someone feels. The other day i was all tensed up, n was given a calming Mint/Chamomile Blend of tea. Dat helps alot!! and btw, thx for the night of supper/get-to-noe-session/party haha!!! i or should i say we love it!!! i think the Blueberry Twins (Me & Shimmy) love it loads man!! The food!! the Dance!! the whole atmosphere (minus e sap berberds!).. hoho!! And today eu bought for us a whole bag of sweets n candies as well as the hawaiian chicken pizza!!! hoho!!!

e bottomline is.. I LOVE EUU FIONA!!!
and also.. forgot to add; I"M SOO IN LOVE WITH DOME URBAN AURA TOO!!! (D.U.A)
lets get crunk!!!

haha.. D.U.A peeps.. i've put on the logo at top right hand corner!!! hoho!!

next stop.. is dead stop..
nanyway.. me, kinda slowing dwn wif my lovey dovey stuff, lets keep it low n ermx perhaps remain single if things r just soo haywire den it oready is..

this entry is dedicated to my one and only love for the moment. My feelings for euu is over e roof!!! omg!!! this is soo not me.. anyways, for those hu noe u noe.. and for those hu dun. JUS IMAGINE EU DUNNO! cibai!

jus to tell eu that wad i told eu is nothing but the truth, this song says evrything; (especially Keisha Cole's part).

Y loves B soo much.. muahaha!


I Need You And You Need Me
This Is So Plain To See
And I Would Never Let You Go
And I Will Always Love You So...I Will
If You Could Only See
Your Heart Belongs To Me
I Love You So Much
I'm Hurting For Your Touch
Come And Set Me Free
Forever Yours I'll Be Baby Won't You Come And Take My Pain Away

i noe i'm crapping or issit real?
haha.. those hu noe noe la horx.. i'm jus wishing things are different. maybe hu noes.. oh well.. niwae i'm bck from my C143G chalet. quite a bang.. all i remember is we ate ALOT. coz i remembered keep teliing my mum wenever she called dat i'm eating, and come to think of it.. i really WAS EATING!!!

but the most sucky point was the dinner at Fishermen's Village. 8 person's meal.. cost $90+? ccb la!!! the food portions are soo little. taste wise is just satisfactory. c'mon lah, i think the east coast one is damn damn much nicer lor. such a waste and i think the other 7 oso agreed.

Wet Towel dey charge, peanuts they charge, rice they charge.. hmm stingray soo small.. the cereal chicken damn pathetic.. the tofu look soo PLAIN!!! the kangkong okok oni!!! the lime juice is nice.. the coconut oso BUT!!!!!

$3 bucks for a cup of lime juice???!!!
$3.50 for a coconut? ouh emm geee!!! they cheat our feelings.!!!

ohkk.. l8r going out to mit up wif the FABs.. n perhaps also the PTK-ians..

chao chao macau!!
p.s: dammit dad not in SG thus im forbid to stay overnight without valid reasons and and.. I GOT NO BANK LIAO!!!
p.s.s: my dad is my walking bank.. *sobx* *sobx*

hmm.. wondering about myself. Why i never take the one that comes to me? answer will be simple. i wun mke e person happy. no joke. those hu noes me well enuff tht i wld nt take in ppl without the X factor. wanna noe wads e X factor?

i myself dunno, if u hve it; u have it lor.. dun hab den dun hab lor..

ahakz!
wif the recent fast-moving/revolving things around me; i'm more den ever confused. but its ok. this feeling is a deja vu of 2002 - 2005. For many of u have heard the legend of the Trumpet section in BMB. ahaha!!! nvm, dis is another story, almost the same but wif a twist. soo; ermx.. u noe u noe la.. dunno dun kpo2 kaes..

i'm seriously fine wif everything, oh c'mon la.. i AM LIKE THIS;
i rather be happy for euu.. really..

hurt? aiyah.. dat wan can heal de la. u happy can liao..
but a promise is a promise.
i'm re-modeled jus for euu. n it will not change its course. i oready saw it coming anyway.

and to the people whom i've hurted along the way, seriously.. im truly sorry.. very sorry. I'm blinded by all else coz of this special person; and will forever be.

niwae, side story will be...
I'M FUCKINGLY OFF TO ENJOY A FUCKING CHALET WIF MY FUCKING CRAZY CLASS AT FUCKING CHALET.. FOR 2 OR 3 FUCKING NIGHTS. SO IF U CAN'T FUCKING CONTACT ME, DO ME A FAVOUR BY FUCKINGLY CONTACT ME THRU MY HP.

p.s: ur dis-attention makes me patient even more.. true love will conquer all kaes.. remember tat.. woohoo!!!
i'll believe in euu, only wen i see u believing in love..

till den, hve a great time wif ur current BF kae..
wooo!!!

i'm soo lost n confused.
please ppl try to understand me. i can only have feelings for one person at a time n i'm not easily fall in love kinda person. Its soo hard for me to manage not hurting myself n hurting u ppl. :'(

its oni 1 person for nw.. tml.. next wk n hu noes..

loves.ayul
*kisses*

i have the answer to my own question.
LOVE..

it feels awkward, weird n strange to me cause i've nt been feeling it. I've even forgotten it. all i noe is the feeling of hatred, diss and denial. It comes to me unexpected; and as unexpected as it cmes, it leaves me alone again the next.

why that the person i have feelings for always never ed up wif me. Its those tht i dun hve feelings or tht cme to me; and ya.. of coz i'l leave dem. I dun wan to lie to myself and such. I'm not sme bastard tht comes down the way, grab a girl.. fuck it and the next leave her pregnant to die alone. N f.y.i; i'm a fucking virgin. luff if u wan oso.. coz i dun give a shit.

recently; hve feeling for a special someone. reminds me soo much of someone hu is soo dear to me. the voice; and qualities..including the constant hmm-ing at almost evry thing.

but
but.. as many predicted.. noe-it-all..
i'm tht cibai fucking loser mat hu will forever sit one corner and fly the kite alone. I'm nt meant for relationships. u cme into my dream, cme into mylife. stole my already shattered heart; den u smash it further. omg! wad hve u done. its ok la. i'm used to this feeling more then the feeling of love. soo i wun blame u for tht. i'm destined la. destined to be wad i am. fucking loner.

issit a curse or wad?
my elder brother oso have been the pillow and shoulder to cry on wen other ppl are facing probs. bt wad about us?? read my bro's blog n he oso mentioned dat its time for him to stop thinking for others. for once, it our turn to help OURSELVES.

as much as i hve feelings for u, u left me.. alone..
u went wif him.. its ur choice. i can't do anythng. all i can do is sit n watch at the sidelines. and i'm soo gonna hate love mre den i already hated it.


side story, i've been tagged by niki to do dis dumb thingy.
6 weird things i do ehx?

- I do wear slight foundation.. slight oni ar; at times!!!
- I wear sme slight shimmery lip balm
- Hve fetish for things in pink
- I easily get hi n horny at the slightest touch of any human beings
- I rather stay awake den cry to slp
- I get all goo goo gaa gaa if smeone is soo unique

name 6 person to do it?
anyone.. u wan do do la.. i prefer vlounteery wrk.

okok!!
soo a typical day for me nowadaes would be wrk, hme.. n lepak..
haha! nuthing much of my typical lifestyle.. until i met Furbz..
n of coz meet the rest of D.U.A. K, honestly, looking at them dance jus reminds me of how i like/love to dance. i dunno la; i noe.. i'm like kinda not into dancing nanymore, but i dunno.. but wait AyuL!!! U SAID U WUN DANCE ANYMORE!!!

duhh, i mean..
i dun really have the time.
look wad happend to me in PST; i kinda stop clap-clap-sing-sing.

oh well.. i believe dat at least u hve it in u, the next time u're tested/provoked by sum1. u can jus burn his/her eyes wif ur experience.

hoho.. i met syida or issit shilla?.. she looks like my manager
Ayis.. hoho!! he's damn funny
Wawan.. haha! he looks kiddy
Yenny?? or wadever it is.. i think shes hot.. lol!
Irwan.. he's unique in a way
Jojo.. mak oi!! jambu siols!
Hakim.. he looks damn decent, bt i think he's not la..

and of coz Furbz.. k i realise he can be quite crazy at times..

FAB4!!! whre r u ppl!!!
c'monla.. its like left wif me n pisang.. FAB2? soo incomplete..
PTK-ians.. u r greatly missed.. hoho!

BTW
dun ask me abt results k.. haha! its as predicted..
naniway.. gtg rest now..
hope my hols will b filled wif fucksome gd activities. hoho!

ok hello gorgeous readers of my blog. finally, i gt the xtra energy to go to photobucket.com; being me, u noe i gt things/pics to show up from my sleeves, in my briefs and wats not. SOO!!!

i did a hair cut!!!!
i lost 3cm of my gorgeous fringe coz my stylist say spoilt hair. She actually want to give me dis jap hairstyle wif super short fringe la!!! NOOO!!! i luv my fringe ok. dey are like curtains. haha!!!

BBOOOO-CCHHAAKK!!!

soo naniway, haha.. naniway.. n more of naniway..
pronunced as neh-nie-way
here are the pics of before n after.

before the ordeal



and ya.. after


credits to Hair Tech; hair salon
next to Kadaloor LRT stn (Punggol)
(they really are good stylist, my fav salon since i moved to Punggol)

ookok.. so before i blog dis entry, i jus cme bck from Mac; ALONE!
lol!!! hell yeah! im soo weird to go mac at Rivervale Plaza alone. naik cab plak tu
coz Furbz tired to follow, den me hungry like siao siao malau siols!

soo here's wad i eat ok.. very spastic



okok!!!
tired la now to type.. happy reading!!!

p.s: MOS tml anyone? (Saturday nite ya)

had a crazy day at Ira's place wf Yan, Fizah, Miza, Khai n den later Rif. haha! guess wad, most of them just came bck from zoo. yes! you guys read correctly. ZOO! haha! Soo basically we watch sme movies, smoke, drink ice kopi. lol!

den Ira need to go off, slack wif the rest; den Yan n Fizah need to go, den slack at Sembawang wif Miza n Guy n Rif. Lol! like budak bodoh ok! Funny munny memani. Den yesterday, was wrking.. nuting much happen at wrk, jus the typical day. Daya stop by my outlet to slack/smoke awhile with me. haha! she wif 2 of her frens, erm sorryy ehx.. i forgot their names.. haha! NIte comes. lol! or should i say morning, since reach hme normally arnd 12midnite. had a shower, chatting on MSN wen Nazmi a.k.a Furbee ask me out to lepak. since i better be out den at home; i agreed. Oh Well! Sengkangm jus mins walking distance. Sit around and smoke, and arnd 4 or 5 am we hve 2, 3 more people join us. SOME BANGLAS! eeeewwee! change our sitting area and continued lepak.

Bee is a dancer. lol! i noe, i too missed dance, but well.. dun really dance dat much now. Den talk about some common topics. haha! we're schoolmates bt never seen each other before in school la. haha! funny sia, for the fact tht most mly ppl in schl will hve connections wif at least 1 PTK-ian.

OK, soo i made the connection oready. haha!
Oh, i shld add oso that he's my fren's fren. My islamic schl's fren; and oso related to Syamsinator. muahahah! S'pore is toooo small a country. ahakz!

okok.. i shld stop ranting n go to Salon now to do sth wif my ever fugly hair.
Chao chao chin chao!

sometimes, u noe due to recent event, i feel sorry for the people arnd me and myself. coz at times, i realise im just plain dumb.

niwae, sorry that i still can't keep my promise of blogging evry single day. BLOGGING is soo dead when i dun even havenice juicy stories. Gosh! i'm not attached so i dun hve tht "i love walking bside her by the beach" entries. I'm not aiming on any particular person thus i also dun hav the "she PM-ed me on MSN 5mins ago" entries.

let's leave the topics at work and school outside coz dese topics are soo typical. "So n so see me in sch/wrk den tke a banana n fuck their chee byes".. hoho! i noe i'm gettin a lil bit vulgar; prolly due to the fact tht i'm like sian-ing 24/7. YESH! its not tht my life is soo borring. its jus at times, nothing nice to blog about or perhaps, its too lame or too personal. soo for KPO ppl out dere hu think i din g anywhre; hmm..

i did go t0 chalet (MOS last Friday)
lepak wif my fren(s) or arif for the matter on Sunday nite
before tht i have Miza n Ira at my crib wif my mum to Sentul Cres.

lotsa things n pics, but i jus duwan to load dem up. Tiring la. Many a times the pics r not net-worthy coz i dun look good in the poses. Soo typical me.

niwae, i am feeling great as perhaps my journey to get a license is ending soon. I hope i can pass the Traffic Police test once, get a bike a.s.a.p and perhaps lessen the burden i put on my parents.

while typing dis, i jus feel like saying
i'm leaving tht past for GOD DAMN SAKE!

hahaha! memories are nice but at times hurtful. nontheless.. i'm owaes and had been moving on. hhaha!

i'm missing my PTK-ians oready;
all their gelak gilerness!!!

ALL OF U OK!

hhaha! okok! i'm superficially dumb!

and and.. and.!!!
PAY IS COMING SOON!

i wanna shop shop shop!!!
anyone feel like sharing the joy of shopping wif me?? gimme a text or call aite. I love to have shopping partners. hohoho!!!

let's share the joy of X'Mas! mcm paham

niwae..
shhshhh.. dis wan very discreet entry..
i saw a cute guy, wif lesser pimples.. long str8 fringe.. and and.. he's soo damn cute!!! i'm turnng gay sia! and guess wad. tht guy is.. is schling in TP!!! woooo!!! IT schl oso!!!

that guy!!! ish ish ish!!! damn tall sia!!! i love him loads...
his name is.. Azhar!!! wooo!!

but i heard ryte, alot ppl noe him as Ayul Andika!!!

yes! i noe i'm typing crap!!! i need a lover/loved-one soon!!! jealous ar cibai!!!

girls!!! my number is jus a few clicks away!!!
huh? how sia?

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