Ah-Yul Blogspot; Serial Confessionist

Its painful to see ur loved ones go away..
it was hard to stop the emotion sway..

pretendin was never easy..
i was never trying to be sleazy..

wen frens are made enemies..
towers are toppled..
we knew it was never meant to end like this..
yet it leaves us troubled..

Well, thts nothing to do with me and Amerie, but to a friend. Its hard to let go, its hard to swallow, but sometimes we do need to reflect on ourselves. As much as we love someone, we need to mirror oursleves, what wrong had we done dat cause the situation. Evry decison, evry answer every action comes with reasons. You just need to sit and think, its no use blabbering how much u love someone without thinking..

For if she loved you trul, it'll be back i swear. it was never a matter of how long. it was never a matter of love, it was never a matter of thousand apologies. Trust is the answer my friend. For with trust comes love, with love comes comfort.

So dear friend, take a break for nw. Give it time.. give it space.. and leave the rest to God's will.
Yes, i feel you.. I still love Amerie. I'll be lying if i said no, but you need to learn to respect, to accept things the way it is. Its not wrong to continue on loving tht someone, but we need to know our limits. If its out of bounds, let it be. It hurts to see them happy with other ppl, but have you thought the other way round? why need to be hurt, wen we can be happy for them?

Learn to be happy.. for true happiness does not come from others..
it comes from within....

p/s: to Amerie, yes i still do love you, But its ok, i love you as a friend. No matter what i'll b dere for you, in the mean time, we'll pray for this fren of mine aite?

3months left to go babe..
you know where im going.. hohoho!

Labels: Amerie

Monday, May 19, 2008

Why Do "U" Out of ABCs Matter 1:28 AM

Last Saturday was DX3 comp. Yeah, it was a blast. Evryone did great. I don't give a fruck wad the judges say, or anyone else say. We did great honestly it was nice. Finals or not, i dun care, i had fun during pracs. Lots of love guys!!!
Thx D.Y.K, Thx R.A.G.E and Thx Ling & Daen.
Pics are up at Mas blog.
( i cant b botherd to re-upload the pics la.. lol!! muke hodoh sia!! i miss my fringe)

Work was soo last minute jus nw, i was told tht im supposed to wrk at?? 12am!!!!
crazy or wad?! i was out with my fren go night riding sia!!!
buang/kacau/spoil steam jer.. Niwae, night riding with singlet and shorts is a nono!!! Thx Fad for ur nonsense.. lol!! last minute sia!

Niwae, dah.. i wanna play my pokemon.. hahaha!!!

Lastly,
ANYONE WITH A SPARE/XTRA/NOT USED/NEVER USE/SECOND HAND/UGLY BUT WORKABLE MAC LAPPIE CHARGER, PLS TAGG ME OK?
I HAVE A FRIEND THAT LOST HER CHARGER, AND IT'LL BE A GREAT HELP IF YOU GUYS CAN HELP HER.. THX BIRDIES

p/s: i noe its been long since i have dis small section. wad should i say eh... err.. macam, ure missed lah. n im glad we sme sort gt to see each other at DX3, and, i dun feel awkward.. i mean nt tht much wen i see u nowadays.. u take care now.. lol!!
Oh NS.. biler la nak sampai!!! lol...

I guess im leaving civilian life soon.
bye, Starbucks.. bye, Dance..
i'm nt leaving permanently, i'll be back!!!
and definitely NO bye to u.. selengs.. lol!

Labels: Amerie, Dance

Monday, May 12, 2008

Stressed Up, and Tired 2:48 AM

Fuuhy..
Long since i last update, sometimes i think i just lost some inspiration and fresh air whenevr i woke up. I mean, i just dun noe. As much as i pushing the thoughts away, reality bites hard. Niwae, dance practices had been very tiring, im trying my very best to dance "properly". Comp's this coming saturday.. Competing against 28 crews.. Tough comp? DUHHH!!! i'll b killin myself if i said its a no. omg!

Niwae, had overnite dance prac the other day, i love my crew.. i love F.Up too. and i love you.. haha!! mcm paham.. saper jer.. dier lagi? dier lagi ker? ahhhahaha!! wtf?! k sometimes i jus nd to release my dreams to reality.. lol!!! but nvm, feeling feeling jer.. hahaha! overnite prac was hilarious, + tiring plus all the games!!! hahaha!!! and stuff..

next morning rushd home to gt the mix for J8 performance done..
siak arh!! soo last minute, and when i gt bck to meet the dancers, i gt to noe dat Daymie's and Aimm's phone was lost. Soo dat explains the sudden dash u guys gt into wen i was in the cab, wanna call u guys to ask but si cibai hp was dead. see.. i told u guys, these foreign talents always suck up to opportunities.. ccb!

Next, performance.. was great.. seriously.. to Masm, i noe we din give all out.. but heyy.. on the bigger picture, we did great.. last minute mix, last minute positioning, n last minute recapping.. lol!!! after dat, headed to town to have a wave of fresh air! and den to bugis..
haha.. i was soo tired, i din noe hw i ended up sleepin while sheeshaing with the dancers..

Den esplanade, sit arnd chit chat.. and.. den went home.. and as much as i said im nt tied.. i was literally slp walking home.. i was soo tired.. n gd morning all, i jus wke up!!! hahahahaha!!!

wrking later at 7am.. n i have like 2 hours to get ready fr work.. lol!! kalau lambat i dunno wad to say.. hahaha!!!

n well.. how long issit tht ive not seen you.. since ur bdae i guess.. haiz... *slaps myself, n dun think abt it*

Monday, May 05, 2008

Move On Love to Bikes 3:25 AM

Fuck, i don't care. I'm fucking aiming this bike sia... kinda ex tho. $100 more den sparkz135. Hhahahaha!!! ok i cldnt be bother less.. soo chio sia.. omfg!!!
I knew it, i saved money in time for the nicest bike.

I used to like X-1.. but Nooo...
X1R is soo much cooler..

I'll look more like a super hero.. (fills in masked rider)
ok, seriously.. im saving up for real dis time. Its now or never.. im smelling its petrol from here..
gonna drag my bestest Uncle to gt this with me.. hohoho!!! problem is, he doesn't know i oready quit school. Im sure to b nagged if he noes dat. Den again, he's always supportive of me. Even mama sometimes said, its useless for her to scold me or bad mouth me with her elder bro, coz uncle will jus turn the tables arnd her. hahahahahah!!!

ok now, im feeling guilty.. i need to go Bedok house soon..
he kept coming over to Punggol time and time, and i'm always out either dancing, lepaking or wrking.. but he noes, im wrking my ass.. good good.. hehehe!!!

soo ya, where was i? ohh dance comp coming up soo soo fast...
and am i ready?? n we closed tht chapter..
for i need to concentrate in getting this bike.. omg... omg!!!!

p/s: fcuk u arif muzzain, ure fcuking missed bitch.. now izan, u dun need to remind me of this bestie of mine.. which i pretend nothing happend btwn him n me.. grrrr~

Labels: X1R