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the rest of the day jus suck. skipped dikir coz i was kinda sick, n body was too tired. dun belive as ket, as soon as i gt int othe bus.. i'm in lala land.

well, chatted wif sum1 jus nw.. ask me abt my pm.. soo for the asnwer of her qn, she needs to read my blog. n i think she noes the asnwer oready. but i duno her reaction. will she or will she not? i hope for nothing mre, but the BEST only.
i tell myself dat i wun put my hopes hi, i haven gt any answer frm her, msgd her hp oso no reply. well mayb she'll reply me tml.. mayb, we'll nvr tok to me again. i oni hope.. a hope like waiting fer the day the moon bcme square.

well.. nuting else happend i guess. dne my assignments.. soo wads left in my head is are u the ryt one? r u my match? r u the one dat will restore the lost love? all.. i wan is answers..

i promise, if we're ever together.. i'll make sure its gonna be a long n memorable one. no one will cme in btwn us or try to separate us. NO ONE.
well,, this is wad i will think about. i dunno abt u.. peace.. =(


AFTERNOON POST
freaky shit.. now i'm in PRSP class. the worst subject ever.. i mean look the teacher is mr KANG KONG.. i jus can stand him la.. den now doing sme stupid Java stuff. the HORROR. hw i wish dis class will end very soon.. coz aftr dis.. i'm free like a bird!!! i dun have maths today!!! YIPPEEE!!! but still having my dikir l8r on. so far, my day is ok. except dat now i'm kinda sleepy & headache.. due to Surya ciggs.

well in the morning, supposed to have lecture but since i haven do my assignment.. as in complete it. i wen to mit my frens to complete n print sme stuff. Morning "going-to-school" routine nw has changed. hmm.. gone to school in the morning wif dil. n i'm like 15mins earlier!!! THE HORROR again. damn.. lucky i got my cigg. soo ya, he met me arnd 8.45am.. i think la.. haha!!! we're late la. n he's freaking out coz he's gonan miss his project briefing. n a series of unfortunate events begin..

1. WE MISSED 34
2. THE WAITING TIME IS SOO LONG
3. BUS CME AT 8.52AM
4. REACHED TAMP N WE MISS 69

soo sad ryt.. well, nt fer me at least. ya.. so i gav him 1 cigg n we parted wen reach skool. den ya!! do my assignments. i panicked lor.. like wtf!!! gt alot of ppl in the morning lab n all chiong-ing to complete and print it. haha.. well. wen i passed it up. i felt a super sense of relief.. I HATE ASSIGNMENTS. I PREFER SEC SCHL ESSAYS WHRE I CAN SHIT N TOK CRAP ABOUT STUFF LIKE WAD I DO ALWAES AT MY BLOG.

ERM..after dat, well gt NMM class.. dis wan ok.. miss cherry is gd.. haha.. we nvr do tut paper. haha.. 99% of the class nvr do.. hahah.. i gt a B for my proposal. mainly bcoz evrything abt my proposal is gud, jus dat.. my critic on the 2 websites suck.

after dat, i went to mit wani to go smoke n the usual milo peng. haha.. n wen we smoking at the bedok reservoir, i gt dis spider web on my face.. n at ferst i thot its nuting.

den hor, wahlao.. while i happily smoking.. wani told me deres a spider at my collar!!! soo big la!!! freaky big!!! i jumped frantically n smashed it to the floor n it creepily creeped away.

surya cigg farking take a long time to finish.. fucking tiring. den erm.. ya.. its damn hot la.. my throat hurts n soon i gt a headache. den i thot to myself, "if i myself cant take Surya, wad abt my fren Dil? i mean, he tke menthol oready he siao.. haha.. Surya? erm.. better not think"
LOL!!!

soo aftr dat, wen bck to ITAS, den mit "boyfren".. kns la.. lol.. arif is soo like slow la.. demanding bitch.. smoke at staircase n he say is " issit the Surya frm yesterdae?" i'm like duhh.. i dun smoke surya as much as my SKL pink wad.. erm soo.. ya.. den aftr dat, gt myself sme egg sandwhich n here i am at this stupid farking LAB.. PRSP is soo wahkao!!! hen MAH FAN LA!!! duno wtf dat lecturer toking now.

*erm, my day started out well wen i chat wif Nad, im soo missing her n ya, shes ok now.. soo relieved.. haiz.. she's going shopping l8r, hw i wish i could follow.. niwae, should i go dikir er not??? very lazy n sick la... cant stand it man.. i need my pills.. PILLS PILLS.. where are u????

p.s: happy shopping Nad, u chocolate mudpie dat is soo creamy and ohh soo delicious. feel like wanting mre of it.. the sweetness.. hahaha!

HI!!! was jus thinking abt close frens i had in the past. soo decided to tok abt dem. these particular grp of frens, well.. dey are a crazy bunch.. VERY THE CRAZY.. well.. due to sme reasons.. nw, we're on separate ways.. well.. cant blame dem.. mayb i dun even fit to be dere.. well, miss dem.. but ya.. i think.. i'm better off wif the frens i have now.

nw.. i have close frens such as Arif, Min, Sala n Dot... well.. we may look like rowdy bunch of guys. but du u noe us well? NO! soo dun u dare sae bad stuff abt me n my frens.. well.. sme of my frens.. kinda disappear frm me.. or mayb.. i drifted away frm dem? sorry if i did.. coz i nvr meant to..

now in poly.. having great frens.. frens such as ket whre in sec schl.. i hrdky noe her.. nw we r wad? kinda close frens ryt ket? *muackz*.. sala is stil wif me.. arif is still wif me.. im soo glad sme frens do stick to each other.. made new frens too.. n i sense dat dese frens, are the ones im gonna graduate wif in years to cme.. our smiley faces.. cam whoring n stuff.. well.. mayb i think to far oready... but y not? dis guys owaes make my day in schl.. nvr did once.. dey make me angry.. smetyms i think.. i chnged alot frm last time. ever since dat day.. it returns my life back to its original position. dat mistake is sort of a blessing in disguise.. im glad u entered my life, n left it.. as quick as hw u entered it.. coz u noe wad.. without u, i wun learn more abt myself..

well.. basically.. i need to move on n hmm.. i think.. no one is reading my blog animre.. my tag board no longer flooding.. haiz.. issit my stories getting lame? or issit jus sth u ppl nt interested in?

nad's in hosp.. according to niki.. i want to pay her a visit.. but i'm like very busy.. feel soo guilty.. n yes dil.. i'll tke cre of her.. i will.. though we're nt attached yet.. u make my day wenever i see u online n chat wif u. ur hi means alot to me. i'll visit u asap, if u're still in hosp.

u r my light
my sunshine
my shadow...

u will bring back the love i lost fer years.. love that i lost due to sme incidents, love that i thot i will nvr believe in again. u showed me the way. its ok if u dun hav feelings fer me.. coz, wad i jus need frm u is the love u brought to me.. for dis, i'm thankful enuff..

hope u'll get well soon... LOVE is something dat cant be forced, nor can it be created.. it jus cmes by, wen u least notice it.. n deres no such thing as giving in, in LOVE..

ITS ABOUT RESPECT
AND TRUST FOR EACH OTHER..
no matter if it isnt a normal love..

** AzruL misses u badly.. n he is worried fer u..

well.. ferstly.. todae.. im lazy to use big n small letters to giv the reader's impact thingy.. soo i'll jus bold everything up.

my dae started me waking up early to register fer CDS.. ya.. mine as well as arif's.. i'm like his secreatary.. but dun bother.. he's a great fren of mine. actually he's suppose to mit me at my hse. but i guess he overslept. soo mit him at Kallang MRT arnd 11.45am to go to national stadium fer the SYF rehearsal. all was well.. but he made me wait.. but he make it up by giving me a stick of ciggy. well.. the thing i hate abt waiting fer ppl at Kallang MRT is dat.. i find the ppl ovah dere very weird..

example.. dey stare at me like an alien frm anthr planet. serys.. gt dis bangla guy going dwn the steps look at me.. walk dwn a few steps n look at me again. i was sitting at the steps u see. n i noe deres nuting wrng wif my face, coz i chckd my reflection earlier.. so i gav him the "oohh-get-outta-my face" look.. serys man..

soo ya, walked wif arif to stadium, n call ourselves s'poreans but we dunno the path to stadium.. so we end up asking sme construction wrkers... NOT BANGLAS! .. i think sme malaysian tribe.. sarawak kind of ppl..

soo ya.. at stadium... we cant find BMB.. we end up in deyi n tk side.. haha.. n ya.. chatted wif CT on msn.. n she said she saw me. lol.. i din see her.. sorry gerl.. guess i was bz entertaining arif hu kinda said "whre is bowen" abit too loud till i need to drag him out.. haha..

sooo, bowen was at the other side.. n as usual.. i jus entertain my members.. i dun cntrl dem. soo ya.. dey rehearsed..

bck in schl.. Mr Jamal (the instructor) treat me n arif n sapuan lunch.. thx sir.. lol.. sum1 spotted u loaded.. no wonder u oso very healthy wif the stomach of urs.. can i nd the fats? niwae.. smeone was doing sme band gimmicks. which i find soo sissy, n mamasan like.. haha.. very mamasan..

soo me n aref was like using sme cloth walking arnd shouting 1 nite $50.. lol.. haha... like sme pros.. n arif dsturb dat other guy.. i dun dsturb ppl.. basically cant b bothered wif tt guy.

soo dis is band.. nuting much.. went hme wif jing yuan.. if oni deres mre chi gerls like her... serysly.. i find her very sweet.. to sweet n cuddly.. nt my type.. haha..

soo now.. abt MUD PIE

msgd mud pie while at stadium.. but she replied quite minutes later.. she gt sme appendicitis n may nd go fer op. PAIN ryt? was kinda emo n worried.. n nad, if u read dis.. yes im worried.. like u're in pain n stuff.. soo i told arif abt nad.. n he was like "ohh ok"... like wtf?? jus ok? u very noo feeling la.. soo i jus retire myself bck to one crner n read the msg again n again.. felt soo emo.. i rather let her go thru the op, soo she can cure.. but leave the pain to me.. i rather be the one suffering.. even a mosquito bite on u, i'll rather be the one being bitten. serys..

soo ya.. hope u're ok.. cant msg her coz her hp wif her dad now..

well.. dats my entry fer todae. its raining cats n dogs nw.. n daddy n mummy nw doing sme Indonesian Kuehs.. at this time fer tml family chalet/bbq at ECP.. n i dun think im able to mke it. i kinda hav assignments to complete..













serysly.. hope u're ok..
miss u loads.. n if u're a mudpie.. u'll bethe best choco mudpie ever wif the warm chocolate dat is pure, sweet n oohh soo tasty making me drooling fer more..
*muackz*



ayuL is crap.. wad ayull.. dun be soo emo
(evil twin toking)

hello.. dear readers.. ya.. i noe.. kinda recieve complains on the why no updates.. well the serious n most obvious reasons is, deres nuting in my life nw dat is fit fer blogging.. having a boring life ryt nw. as u can see.. no skool yet going bck to TP fer cca n gr discussions.. n fuck wif the holidays.. y issit called a term BREAK wen u still nd to rush fer deadlines.. yesh DEADlines.. its like.. ferst.. we're suppose to cool ourself after term tests.. n here it goes.. piles n piles of assignments. n if its like old sec schl daes such as essays i wun mind.. but wad?!!!!

Alice Programming...
IISO craps...
Computer Systems Interim SHIT report..

ppl!!! i wanna rest over here.. can i? freakk.. niwae.. yea!!! i jus realise.. MY COUNTER HITS 1000 VIEWS OREADY.. ok big deal.. 1000.. haha.. ok.. i dun mind as long as i'm happy wif myself..

anyhoos.. tml is sme CDS selection dae.. haha.. choosing 4/6 design subs.. the other 2.. crappy stuff la.. haha. as u can see.. i serysly gt nuting to write.. well mayb i did buy kinda alot of hair products recently.. haha.. ya.. stop calling me vain.. it jus keeps me getting better at it.

im totally missing my SECONDARY SCHOOL DAES NOW! TOK ABT LUVLY ESSAY.. ok ok.. i agree its a chore back den, but try compare it wif stupid IT stuff? which one u prefer? hw i wish i cld turn back time.. wanna be a sec1 kid again.. like 5 yrs ago? did quite a LOT of wrong decisions in life back den..

1. nt concentrating on my lessons
2. took dnt as elective
3. hating maths (the tcher was an ass)

soo u see, sec schl life is better.. ok crap abt it.. currently.. ya.. i'm still single.. YESH i noe.. nahh.. nt wad u thinking.. haha.. but kinda unavailable.. luving my choco mudpie mre den ath in the wrld.. shes my present.. my future.. my everything.. hope she sees dis... wad mre can i ask fer..

soo.. b4 dis entry gets too lame.. jus going to end it wif.. as soon as theres nice bloggable events.. im sure to blog.. so nxt tym if no updates.. oni gt few reasons..
1. Yul is sick
2. a series of UNBLOGGABLE events..

soo ya, adios my fellow readers n thx fer making dis blog quite a hit.. =)


well.. woke up todae frm the noisy ringtone frm my hp. syafiq was complaining to me abt hw he cannot enter Bowen. serysly, was kinda pissed.. haha.. sorry la fiq, i was.. coz im having my beauty slp. n i hate it wen ppl dsturb my beauty slp. u'll NEVER noe abt the dreams i'm having. n wen u dsturb me.. dey jus went *poof*.

soo. i was discussing wif my lil sis whether to use my $ to buy hair dye or str8ning gel. den she say gel. den ok lor.. soo i carry myself up. dragged myself into the toilet. den hve a luvly shower. dis part i like.. i like playing wif bubbles. wee~..

hmm.. soo as soon as i re-step back into my rm.. gt a fone call frm Dil. asked me if i'm bored or wad. soo i say ya!!! n we made our way to plaza to buy my str8ning gel. well, if u dunno hu Dil is.. well, he's my nehbour.. n he oso hav 2 younger sis.. 1 is afiqa n the othr wan smething-zan.. ryt? well.. me, dil n fiqa kinda neborhood frens.. lol..

soo.. aftr dat, at Watson.. i was tempted to buy chocs, but erm.. at hme gt.. soo no nd la. den aftr dat went to Dil's place to slack n watch VCD. hmm.. actually our plans of going to Anugerah Skrin at ferst was cancelled coz we cant gt the tix. den last minute.. while i'm at Dil's plce, his fren called up. sae gt tix. soo haha.. u dunno hw happy i am.. haha.. i at ppl house, soo cannot scream n shout.. lol.. i think oni my family noes abt my "BABY-ISH" attitude at hme.. lol.. i'm one of the youngest!!! soo dats the reason.. lol..

soo.. erm kinda rush hme arnd 4.30pm to chnge n bathe n eat. oni gt 1hr before meeting at 5.30pm to make our way to caldecott ok.. hmm.. soo i showered.. hehe.. bubbles!! den ya.. gt ready.. str8n my stupid hair.. den eat sme hotdogs n *poof*.. out of the hse wif a can of root beer n tronka chocolate.. hehe.. n wait fer the sibs at the void deck..

oh ya.. b4 dat.. min called me up sae he cant get thru arif soo.. ya.. i tried to contact him oso. but cant. soo, while waiting fer dil n fiqa. decided to giv bestie a call. n he picked up.. haiyo! whre u disappear?! u gt min angry la. hah.. u fone siao.. go repair.. no $? dun ask me.. lol.. coz i oso broke.. lol! den.. he ask me if still gt xtra tix to AS.. sorry la rep. as much as me n u close frens.. sad thing is.. the power of the tix is nt wif me, nor my nehbours.. its wf HUDA.. lol.. serys ly.. if gt mre tix i'll ask u tag along oso.. coz u brought me to S'pore idol the other day ryt? really thank u fer dat. if u think i lokek nvr think of u.. u wrong lor.. =)..

5.45pm.. met up wif the sibs.. den haha.. to me.. we look weird.. i think i kinda blushed... 3 ppl wearing bright pink in the middle of Punggol Town. i think ppl are wondering why oso la.

soo we took 2 busses to reach caldecott.. haha.. in the bus, we cam-whored.. lol.. 3 narcissist equals to heavy foto takings!!! aiyah.. dil n fiqa sick.. haha.. n dey say im gonna be next.. DUWAN LAR.. WEN I SICK I TEND TO VOMIT ALOT!!! SOO I DUWAN!!!

HAHHA.. den wen the bus was passing my sec sch.. sme juniors (band) gt into the bus. wen dey saw me.. dey giv this "erm.. wah he here.. soo scared" face. dats wad i think. coz dey gt dis face on dem. lol.. haha..

reached Mediacorp at 6.45pm.. mind u.. dis is the tyme wen we suppose to already mit up. haha.. lol.. n soo.. erm.. oni gt me n dil n fiqa.. the othrs haven cme.. still at sme far place.. lol.. soo i rushed to the loo ferst. haha.. the air-con in the bus no mercy ok. me n the sibs gt problem wif it.. soo cold.. den ryt.. we decided to gt ourselves sme munchies.. hehe.. soo hungry.. me? erm.. chocolate bar as usual!!! hehe.. n a chocolate muffin!! yippee~

den.. dil's fren still haven cme.. n ryt.. erm.. u see hor.. the Mediacorp sign very nice la.. haha.. soo erm.. u noe the rest. CAM-WHORING SESSION BEGINS AGAIN.
1. Fiqa trying to pose on the railing (she did balanced)
2. Yul n Dil acting cute (the HORROR)
3. Yul n Dil posing like spiderman..

quite smetym later den we mit up wif the rest. gt into the studio n watch la.. haha.. soo fun..
dose ppl hu watch AS at Suria.. u shld noe la.. same as we watch on studio.. liv mahx..
anyway..
HUDA WON! SHA-KALAH!
HUDA WON! SHA-KALAH!
HUDA WON! SHA-KALAH!
HUDA WON! SHA-KALAH!
HUDA WON! SHA-KALAH!

HAHA.. soo fun.. haha.. we jumped like siao.. like planned liddat.. but ryt.. i dun think we can be as crazy as the S'pore Idol la.. the ushers kinda strict no fun!!! our american counterparts can scream deir balls out while we can shout oni at certain time.. SUCKA!!! S-U-C-K-A!!!!

ERMM.. soo aftr dat went out.. we go hme str8 la.. kinda late.. den happen to mi up wif dis gay guy.. i think la.. coz he walks like kumar.. lol.. den dil's fren tok to him..stranger lehx.. haha.. den u noe hw much i like to impersonate dis kinda ppl.. soo i did.. n erm.. dat guy kinda noticed.. soo paisehx la.. i scare he cme to me go SEPAK me.. ha.. soo, erm.. den dil covered our paisehxness by cam-whoring again.. hahaha.. lol.. pardon us.. i think Punggol-ians tend to cam-whore quite alot..

den in the bus, we were shagged.. dat guy oso took the same bus as us, but he dropped at AMK. soo.. ok la.. i scare he fellow the 3 of us hme.. haha.. soo we slept in bus. hmm.tired la.. the Sibs are sick.. n im jus tired.. haiz.. den wen we reach hme.. we walk slow slow.. den we parted..

well.. i stay diff block mahx.. 1 block away oni.. lol.. niwae.. u were thinking wers e pics? u wan see? wait la!!!
dil!!! i need the pics..
ya.. the pics i haven gt frm dil yet. wen i gt. i'll post k.. den u can go menyampah all u wan.. haha.. cam whores rule.. n i noe im being a beyotch dis few daes.. haha.. labeled by bapak, sala, arep n mak. haha..

lolita fenita!!! haha...

HAHAHA!!! i really enjoyed dis dae man.. i finally shopped, fer 1 clothe but ryt.. i feel soo good la.. haha.. the day started bad wif me losing 1 of my contact lenses.. hehe.. den i went to gt one to replace it.. den mit Sala at Sengkang NEL at arnd 2.50pm..
dis is only the beginning..

arrived at orchard arnd 3.30pm.. mind u, dis was the exact time we suppose to meet the rest of the crew. well.. sad to sae, arif is still at hme.. n i dunno the others go where.. min fetching his gf.. soo dats understandable.. but arif n the gerls? damn.. soo i accompany sala to his ex-wrkplace n tok to his staff. well. gt one of his ex-colleague.. a SEXY HOT girl la!!! haha.. but sala said she's too old fer me.. sadx.. =(..

hmm.. aftr dat, we called arif, he said he STILL AT HME!!! den ryt.. we mde our way to heeren to shop fer my clothes since gt alot of free time. haha.. we took our really OOOWWWWNNN time to walk. stopped buy a countless number of shops long the way. den wen reaching Heeren. rif called.. he said he reached oready n asked we'll to wait fer him. STILL GOT THE GUTS TO QNS US! LIKE IN AN ANGRY TONE ON WHERE EXACTLY WE STAND!!! NB!

SOO THE GRP GREW TO 3 GUYS.. n we made our way to NUM.. lol.. soo happy to see the shop.. haha.. den i took such a freaking long time to decide on wad to buy.. like usual.. haha.. i took such a long time till the gerls cme la.. dats wen dey rush me to gt the items.. haha.. soo i was confused to get tanks or ringers.. hhaa.. den finally decided on ringer.. well, the prob is.. i dunno my OWN size.. soo i asked the sales guy.. n he said either S or M.. soo i took both to the chnging rm..

thngs are getting hot.. lol.. i dragged yiwen into the chnging room oso.. i nd a gerl's opinion. soo ya.. the S was nice.. but a bit tight.. soo i gt the M instead.. n yeay! i look soo sexay.. hahaha..!!!!!!!

so i grabbed the shirt n pay to the cashier. n grabbed the new catalog magazine oso! my fashion guru mag! hahaha.. ya.. i bought a purple ringer tee.. no pink man.. soo sad la.. the pink dey have is ugly!


*it says "i will not get into bed for less then 200 bucks".. LOL! i cost more den dat la*

ya.. aftr dat.. we window-shopped b4 going fer late lunch at LJS cineleisure.. along the way meet up wif hot models giving out gatsby facial scrubs.. haha.. dey look soo bimbotic la.. haha!!! sme gt the fats spewing out frm the tight skirts.. lol!



soo.. we ate.. and ate.. n puffed.. till ya.. dey wan go watch movie.. haha.. at ferst i wan watch, but aftr much consideration i duwn.. soo well, sala, min, arep n lina went to watch it.. while me n the othr 3 gerls go to Mc Cafe to chill.
-i bought choc milkshake
-n gt a free drink frm Id..

erm.. ya, before we part.. we took loads of neoprints.. haha.. soo cute of us.. ferst is the grp foto.. lina nt in pic coz she duwan tke pics.. lol..
*CAUTION: PLS DUN PUKE AT OUR PURE NATURAL BEAUTY






den the gerls decided to tke deir own mini grp shots.. soo, the guys well.. we followed suit.. hahahaa..!!!!







lol!!! hahaha.. okok.. so we waited fer dem to finish movie b4 joining bck.. well.. me alone actually.. the gerls went hme.. soo erm ya.. den min send his gf hme while me n arep n sala.. go PS to mit mak n pap.. lol! yeay! smoked abit.. was scared of HSA ppl actually.. n den headed hme.. in the train.. evry1 was kinda shagged.. sooo dats my day fer todae.. n i'm still feeling in a good mood! luv u readers truckloads!!!! woohoo!

*p.s: the netball gerls outside PS jus nw is soo hot la.. i mean most of dem

haha.. i woke up arnd 6.45 am.. well.. prtly to mit my frens n the othr is too see n perhaps coach my oh-soo-lovable ex-military band.. yeap, yeap.. BMB.. wad else.. TK? lol..

soo ya.. basically mit the siblings, well dey my nehbours.. at the void deck.. den went off to plaza to go n buy CHOCOLATES fer me, GROCERIES fer dil n PAPERS fer fiqa.. haha.. papers at 8.15 am? of coz dun hv.. haha.. so wi kinda spent arnd dere fr 20 mins b4me n fiqa made our way to hougang. she go aunt hse while i continue my journey to YCK stadium..

REMEMBER MY HAIR WAS NICE WEN I STEP INTO THE BUS..
THE HORROR.. wen i step out of 72.. it RAINED!! heavily... wtf.. my hair cannot me in soo moist condition or hi-humdity level.. it will WAVE BACK!!! n it did la.. soo sad ok.. n i nvr bring my bag.. so basically, i dun hav all my stuff..

yah.. soo at YCK dere.. i nv go field, duwan dirty my shoes n pants.. soo ya.. met sapuan.. we toked and chill la...n e band ONLY run thru at the field ONCE! serysly, waste of $$$ la.. better giv me soo i can go shopping ryt.. lol..

aftr dat, wen back to Bowen.. have lunch.. n slack away at band rm, i din noe i can teach mallets oso.. lol.. n snaredrum.. haha.. nvm la.. i jus ding a simple favour for the current leaders.. out of my own free-will.. den ya.. dey practised la..

soo aftr datm wen to slack at Hougang Point.. n the playgrnd till arnd 8+ den made my way back hme. i was friggin bored la.. soo i decided to msg dil n ask him go lepak wif me. haha.. n he was at dhoby ghaut.. so wait fer him at intrchnge. den go lepak.. hahaa.. LOL.. really man.. i was soo bored, rotting to b exact,, soo arnd 9.45pm den go hme.. lol..

ferst thing is FOOD.. heheh.. soo i eat la.. cooked myself again.. haha.. den chatted on msn wif my current band members.. dey soo cute la.. i mean like duhh.. dey gt such cute senior, of coz oso dey must be cute..haha..

n ryt.. b4 i end dis crappy lame entry.. SIEW LING SAY I EAT MRE BUT I LOOK CHUBBY.. N I GT THE NICE 'V' FIGURE LIAO.. HEHE.. THX DARLING.. LUV U LOADS.. *MUACKS*... HAHA.. finally sum1 soo gud to me.. haha..

oh ya.. i noe dis entry is "wadeve ayul".. soo hu cres.. u cme here to read abt my life.. ME soo.. jus read la.. my blog! my prob! adios!!

another of "ayuL stop-it wif the cam" entry.. lol.. hmm.. ya after much consideration i decided to giv curly wurly friends of mine a good cut.. lol.. yeay.. dey are lying dead, frozen n cold on the floors of the salon. well.. i've been thinking of whether to continue keeping it long or cut it off.. den todae, i woke up n i told myself CUTTING IT WILL MAKE ME MORE ME.. n soo i did.. haha..

well.. my old hair kinda suck.. n to dear TP-ians.. i noe i've been hiding my hair wif the cap since day 1 of skool n oni exposing my fringe. well.. now.. its different!!! YIPPEEE!!!! now having a short hair wif layered top n a fringe.. dat i str8nd of coz.. wad u expect? leave it waving down? NO WAY!

ok.. so it was a 50minute haircut.. lol.. n the stylist was like, boy u're hair soo curly, esp the sides.. LIKE DUHH!! dats y i cme dwn n askd u to cut it off ryt? din i mention "cld u shorten the sides and the back?" duhh.. well.. kudos to her for giving my nice hair.. lol.. serious.. at ferst, i tot its gonna be awful.. but den.. wen she started layering the top.. i'm like WOW!!! a super star is born. haha.. crap.. ya.. i like it la.. n i went out of the salon feeling like a new person n HELL YEAH! I DUMP MY CAP INTO MY BAG!

haha.. den aftr dat, made my way to mit niki n gang + ayu at wdlands point. WHERE THE FUCK ISD AT PLACE? I GT LOST OTW DERE.. SOO I CALLED DEM UP TO MIT AT CAUSEWAY POINT INSTEAD.. *I HATE BEING LOST*
(IN SINGAPORE SUMMORE)

soo.. ya, we met up.. n chilled.. very boring la.. but i like chilling la.. although its boring coz gt nuting to do. haha.. we tok n tok.. haha.. den aftr dat, made ou way to tamp whre Niki went hme n i send Ayu to work.. a puff before dat la.. lol.. n ya.. we gt ourselves each a CHEESECAKE & CURRY 'O'.. LOL.. those hu wans dis food items.. well.. jus wait fer me to pass it out frm my arsehole.. lol.. sorry sorry.. delicious la.. haha..

well.. aftr sending Ayu off, i lost my bearings la.. like gudness.. i dunno y la.. coz i'm sleepy i guess.. slept in the bus frm Wdlands to Tamp ok.. soo ya. . FINALLY found the bus stop to take my bus hme.. haha.. reachd hme.. stole a bubblegum frm 1 of my sibs.. hahaha.. i found it on the coffetable wif no name written on it mahx.. but ryt.. i dun think dey noe la.. coz noone ask abt missing bubblegum.. hehe.. den wen i open the fridge, i realise mama oso bought for me a pack la.. lol.. n i'm the oni 1 having the grape flavor.. how lucky.. haha.. wished she bought me chocolates... haa.. frgt to mention, mama n daddy went shopping across the causeway.. lol..

WELL, CAN'T THINK MUCH.. ALL I NOE NOW IS MY HAIR.. SOO.. HERE ITIS..
appreciate it k.. not happy, find me.. tok to me.. lol..





haiz.. sorry eh.. yesterday i din post ath coz i was kinda sick.. vomitting n stuff.. MUS UNDERSTAND k? lol.. ok.. yesterdae was having dikir arnd evening like dat.. den before dat i was painting sme container.. paint a few oni la.. duwan get my hands full wif paint.. coz i hate the process of cleaning it n the thinner smell.. EERRGGHHH!

u shld noe the smell of thinner ryt? soo i went to lepak wif ket at reservoir until dikir tym.. dikir was fun! MUNSHI ABDULLAH RULE! lol..

ok.. so todae, hmm.. actually decided to lepak wif Dil in the evening but he called me up earlier in the morning say he nd to go orchard wif his younger bro n asked me to tag along.. soo, since i gt nuting to do.. den followed him la.. he nd buy fathers' day gift..

so we talked n talked tillreach orchard.. den wen otw to Taka.. the horror.. Dil suddenly grinned a wide grin.. den he told me dat the pretty lady dat jus walked passed me was a trans.. LOL! i din realise la.. lol.. serys man.. haha.. he said, dat woman toked in a guy's voice.. lol.. i missed it man.. haha..

n so we went to taka, to harley davidson shop to get the cologne his mom ask him to buy.. haha. den aftr dat, we went to mc D to gt our lunch coz his younger bro want it. fer me.. i jus want sth CHOCKY .. kinda wanna head dwn to the brownies shop, but decided nt to. the Mc D dun hav CHOC MILKSHAKE LA! the horror.. den Dil say outside gt.. so i jus sat dere n watch dem eat.. duwan eat la.. coz my stomach still full.. haha.. den aftr dat meet his fren.. dis girl.. cute la.. lol.. but obviously way older den me..

"ayul, u oready eye-ing sum1" n soo i thot to myself..

den aftr dat, gt my milkshake n off to window shop!!! hehe.. i noe wad to gt frm NUM oready. hehe.. i think so la.. haha.. n my budget running dwn low.. soo cant gt 2 items.. basically a tee i guess.. haha..

den we walk back to dhoby ghaut.. haha.. his younger bro is soo whacky.. hyper-active kid.. wad can i sae.. kid wad.. lol.. den walked arnd PS n stuff before taking e train at arnd 5pm.. lol..

den reachd back punggol.. send his younger bro up.. n we continue to lepak.. tok abt hw we related la.. lol.. his mom kinda noe my mom.. haha.. n he noes me n my elder bro.. n his younger sis oso noe me.. hahaha.. lol!!! coincidence..

den went to plaza to get mints (sum1 nd to cover e smell), n for me!!! CHOCOLATES!!! hehehe.. den aftr dat, continue lepaking.. n we call it a day.. haha.. i call e day wel spent coz..

I GOT TO WINDOW SHOP!!! I NOE WAD TO GT LIAO.. HEHE..

guess dats it.. lol.. im beying a sick beyotch.. lol.. nniwae.. hu cares, dis is my blog.. lol.. luv me or hate me i dun cre.. MY blog, MY my talk..

numero uno.. well.. a friend of mine said that my english is getting poorer for an A2 Litstudent. well skin.. jus for you. this entry is going to be in upmost proper english.

hmm.. but skin, pardon me.. i'll try my best to type without the "hors" n "lahs" but sms-english allowed ok.. WELL, today is the most BORING sunday ever.. like serysly, i gt nuting to do.. no frens to chill around with.. n no calls frm anyone.. rotting at hme coz basically deres nuting much i can do, wad more.. droplets of rain sumhw entered into my room & onto my "oh-so-handsome" through the wide open window, courtesy of my other siblings..

n i dun get peace on sunday.. my siblings will be "ticky-tacking" the keyboard away.. n gudness i sleep infrnt of the computer.. ohh the horror! can u imagine hw i'm feeling?? ARGH!!!

well.. n mama cooked a splendid meal of pasta in tomato concase' n fried pasta.. (yeah.. its all pasta for today) before she left for some wedding invitation. as usual, it took me quite a while to wake up on sundays, coz practically.. i'm supposed to treat sunday as the day of rejuvenation!!!

well nuting much really happened.. jus eat n slp.. haiz... kinda boring.. soo, i planned to go to schl tml but b4 dat i nd to buy my ciggs... hmm.. n ya

I'M PROUD TO ANNOUNCE DAT I'M KINDA GAINING WHT.. N MY ARMS ARE MUCH BIGGER EN USUAL THX TO THE 150 PUSH-UPS PER DAY..

N DIS PIC, I ACTUALLY DUN REALISE DAT I GT BIG ARMS TILL I SEE PROPERLY.. HEHEHE...



*p.s: SkiN, soo is my english any better? if its still crappy, i'm gonna ride down to ur place in my trusty-rusty bike.. hehehe..

hmm.. SATURDAY.. but a BORING one? lol...
practically ayuL darling here, lol? darling? wtf.. (i luv myself).. well.. he slept till arnd 1 pm.. eat n sleep again.. hmm.. ya.. n bathe la.. lol.. n sleepp...

ZzzZZzZZzZzZzZzZZZZz...

5.30pm
wake up again.. go bathe again.. n well.. gt sme family BBQ at ECP.. long time nv go mahx.. soo i go lor.. soo i bathe again, eat again.. dress like n idiot wif pink tee.. jeans.. n SLIPPERS!!! wadde.. lol.. haha.. went dere wif stupid cab.. actually fun la.. the uncle joke all the way dere..

well..
the BBQ very the boring la.. well.. my grandmama was kissing me n hugging n stuff.. i'm like.. hold it lady.. i'm oready like thin n shes squeezing.. me.. *lemas* well.. evry1's asking me whre n wad i'm doing now. studying or working..lol.. dey dunnoe dat i started skooling la.. get it.. i dun really bother to tell my makciks.. u noe hw i hate old aunties..

ok.. dun tok abt the BBQ.. lets tok abt ME!
snap a few pics wif baby sarah...
shes so hyper-active la.. n she luvs me.. n ryt.. she can talk lots of cute stuff... lol..

soo heres a few pics of us.. yeah.. cutey US.. lol





n dis is the nicest pic.. lol



aiyah! she duno hw to cam whore la.. she aiya.. dunno whre the camera oso.. but bottom line, we're cute.. lol.. luv the pics.. n ya.. aftr dat go hme wif cab again.. my mama n elder bro lazy tke bus.. n ya.. she replied to my msg, but 3 hrs later.. but niwaes.. i'm still happy she did.. it blew me away wen she msgd.. u meant alot to me starlight.. =)

LONG ENTRY..
2 DAYS WRITE-UP.. AGAIN.. LOL!

9.6.2006 TODAY
yeay!!! finish all my papers oready.. but guilty conscience says.. i'm gonna flunk it.. damn.. hopefully i din.. GOD HELP ME!!!! .. hmm.. so aftr paper was hectic.. smoking in the staircase like noone cares, den meet up wif frens.. smoke again.. lol.. smokalic.. lol!

aftr dat, n mths, me arep decided to go back to Bowen for the band.. hmm.. lots of music changes.. sme ppl getting big headed n stuff.. new members hu kinda tok back to my fren Arif, dey dun tok back to me coz i nv tok to dem.. like hello.. can't dey learn frm the other band members dat joke is joke, band is band.. n from the way we dressed.. like hell yeah we x-members! but nvm la.. cant blame dis ppl.. dey new members, so dey dun noe us.. nvm.. den decided to help the percussionists.. coz dis section is the best to roll arnd wif.. haha.. n ya, dsturb the DM whre dat bapok jus stare at us.. lol.. i noe dat bapok big headed wen the other ex members nt arnd.. but todae quite alot cme, soo i guess dats y he kept his farking mouth shut.. oh ya, sapuan was OSO dere.. well.. aftr band.. we went to HP to gt a drink n smoke of coz.. thx sapuan for the CIGGS.. hmm.. aftr dat we splitted our way..

i waiting for 43 at the bus stop near HP, wen JY msgd me.. she want go hme oso.. so i waited for her n we took 156 to sengkang instead coz she stay dere.. i gentleman wad, soo mus send girl hme ferst.. summore cute girl.. me n her cute wad.. lol...

oh ya.. otw hme, i bought chocs n puffs.. haha.. JY on diet, me on be-fat-program.. soo ya.. ate the choc while waiting for bus.. n JY sae "dun eat infrnt of me leh.. dun temp me" .. lol.. she on diet mahx.. haha.. ok den bus cme.. den reach hme lor.. den erm.. ya.. fried myself a big plate of fried rice n eat.. den my eezad bro giv me a half-bag of ruffles chips coz he cant finish eat.. chips? i luv eat.. soo eat until siao.. nw v slpy.. lol.. dats all for today lor.. i noe boring.. bcoz it IS BORING... ZZzzZZzZZz..

8.6.2006 Thursday
lol.. dis is fark man.. having my 2nd last paper.. well.. lets jus nt tok abt papers coz i SUCK at papers.. like totally! i cant recall wad happen on the earlier paert of th dae, but i can recall the evening.. lol.. coz gt alot of fun happenings.. guess wad.. i went to Singapore Idol results show!!! wanna thank my fren arep for sharing the extra ticket wif me. u rock, but u suck! coz i rock more.. ok wadever.. soo, hmm.. yeay.. went dere wif arep, niki & ket n over dere we met up wif verm n younger brother.. frgt his name.. i'm BAD at remembering guys name.. lol.. unless dey made strong impressions such as a classmate of mine, Daniel.. remembered his name coz he *YAWNS* like 1nce evry 10 seconds? serys.. i aint joking..

ok.. soo, hmm ya.. we took a bus frm school -> tamp interchnge -> hougang -> bishan -> caldecott.. lol.. farking lotsa busses.. if i can remember.. its is 23, 72, 55, 156.. lol.. heres sme pics of US before we gt in..

the 3 beyotches!


another pic of me wif the others.. minus arep n verms brother..


hhmm.. PINK evrything i pink.. i jus realise dat the carpark is pink also!! lol... ppl, pls vote for me.. ayuL.. send ur sms to IDOLS.. by tml.. lol! lol.. ENUFF ABT ME.. the shw starts.. lol.. b4 dat gt alot of things happen la.. i lazy type.. pls click on NikI's link to noe mre.. she wrote in detail. in brief wld be, we waited quite long, the gerls went toilet, me n rep went toilet, do our hair, sit outside, wait again, go in, sit bhind hirzi (eew).. ya..

woohoo!!!! Rahimah Rahim JUNIOR


the show was great.. serys.. all i can sae, i shouted like crazy.. evry1 is mad.. lol.. hahahaha.. den ya.. shw finish n we took pic wif e singapore cowboy.. i think he's slightly retard la.. makes banners frm cardboards stolen from the old aunties in ang mo kio (i owaes find aot of dese aunties dere).. n guess wad.. use pen to write e letterings which is SOOO small... n ryt.. if u support RR, y e heck u put a picture of Agnes Monica (indonesian celebrity).. dat cowboy say's RR look like agnes.. wtf?

heres us.. n cowboy.. *smooch on niki*


erm ya.. den otw out we were given drinks sponsored by JJ.. woohoo!!! juice!!!
APPLE JUICE N ORANGE JUICE!!!
I LOVE JUICES ESP APPLE + BLACKCURRANT



ok... den aftr dat we took a bus back to AMK to have our dinner at S-11, big mac centre.. eat n smoke till arnd 10pm n we made our way hme.. soo dats for thursday..

damn.. i nvr tot stupid CMSY lectures notes is alot. evrytime i nv go for it.. lol... but ryt.. the wrst is dat, tutorials, dey dun cover all of it. i mean like only 20% of it? serys.. n here i am stool-warming infrnt of this bloody black box gazing at the wrds on the screen n making stupid notes out of it. and write.. i notice.. LECTURERS ARE DUMB.. THEY REPEAT A PARTICULAR SECTION OF A LECTURE OVER N OVER AGAIN. DUN BELIEVE, CHCK UR LECTURE NOTES DEAR TP-IANS.

DAMMIT.. tml is CMSY but i'm thinking abt maths! shytes!!! wads bcming of me man.. ah.. to crap wif tests.. ryt nw, i cant squeexe anymore cmsy into my head.. mayb tml morning... ok lets crap abt stupid teebee shows..

Singapore Idol is way cool la.. the ladies are HOT HOT.. damn hot.. lol.. wanna noe hu i'm supporting? well, if it isnt Rahimah Rahim.. she can sing man.. for gudness.. but she needs to do sumting abt her floating frizzy hair though.. wan me to str8n it for ya? LOLOLOL!

den it was project runway.. making shirts for BARBIE? lol.. i like. y is dere no show in s'pore sumting like dat.. dey copied american idol.. temptaion island (eye for a guy)... but whres project runway??? project superstar is soo noo la! i wan project runway.. haha.. n now, gt dis new contest to design a NECKLACE???? gudnss.. can design other stuff anot? necklace like so om mah fan liddat.. lol.. $20 budget? 21 June dateline? whre does ayuL have the tym.. aniwae, its oni a neclace.. nt many things to do bout it.. i gt ideas though, n i luv the digicam.. but, haiz.. no time to do la.. lol.. if design a cap or hat, haha! i like dat.. actually the one i like most is design a handbag. handbag very wide choice la.. lol.. nv did it coz i gt o level's last yr.. n now, gt term test.. fark.. lol..

kk.. gt nuting much to blog niwae.. mind filled wif CMSY n CMATHS2.. haiz.. n ya, i cant wait to catch s'pore idol tml live at caldecott.. lol.. gt tix mahx.. will blog abt it tml. yeah.. i will tke pics.. luv u ppl.. i wanna slp man.. niwae.. i sketched "Eve" todae.. shes hot.. was bored before test so i drew her..

look at her stare at her.. drool over her.. wadeve over here..
p.s: i noe her legs are too small, thighs fat like beyonce n hands cacat n boobs funny.. soo no nd to tell me. aftr all.. its a fast sketch..



*COPYRIGHTED IMAGE. "EVE" BY UH-YUL

well, enuf wif my daily craps.. dis entry is for all lovebirds out dere.. its still ayuL, but jus a serys entry dis time round.

hw do some one define LOVE? issit an act of eternal friendship, bond? or issit jus an act of lust to fulfill a man's desire? well.. i myself, may look like the guy hu shld/wld have many exciting luv storis to tell, exciting luv life and all.. but the truth is, i'm none of the abve. hw many exciting luv life did i ever had.. NONE.. hw many failed relationships? alot.. well.. things happen for a reason. i'm heartbroken til the point of me frgtting the feel of being heartbroken. soo does dat mean dat i'm now nt str8 coz of failed relationships? well. NO.. my heart still longs for my dream girl. n i found her.. but are we an item? dat i'm still unsure of.

homosexuals.. are dey born like dat? NOPE.. sme of dis ppl suffered thru failed relationships.. sme perhaps.. jus happen to be misguided into the wrong direction. dey are nt to be blamed. well.. homo-relationship, sad tosay doesnt end well.. coz mayb, its jus against god's wishes. n i STRONGLY BELIEVE dat mos homos, haven found their mr/ms right. n once dey do.. dey'll gt married n hav kids.. dey are nt to be blamed..

singlehood.. issit a mask to hide ur inner feelings?yes.. currently, i'm in this situation. even if "she" has feelings for me. i'm still unsure. wad is love actually.. its a process whre ppl are blinded by it dat dey dun see any flaw in the person dey love. be it, tt person have stinky breath or tt guy has big tummy.. its an inside feeling. nobody can explain it. well, i'm now refreshing my past memories.. the 4yrs chase, which ends up to nuting. but i'm happy to stand by tt ex-crush of mine. i'm willing to be her box of 'kleenex' tissues. coz.. luv cant b forced. those hu failed in relationships, move on.. u wanna be homo or wad.. jus go for it.. but u will soon noe dat u will find the right person to mke u str8 again n be ur wife/husband. u wanna b single? well.. hide all u want under tt mask but soon, u will sure see the light of true love..

wif dis line and pic.. dis is ayuL signing out..
love noes no boundaries, those hu believe in it.. u wil find it...



p.s: based on true accnt by me, n ya.. feeling the tears i kept years ago collecting below my eyelid. but i will move on... sooner or later.. i will..

wad do u do, wen u're bored aftr sme schl papers?
Ans: grab a fren(s) n let dem boogey wif u.. hur hur hur.. lol

hahah.. yeah, todae gt sme lame stupid PRSP term test.. nt gonna tok abt it.. lol. i dun hv book n stuff.. soo ok. the day started wif me meeting niki n sala at the bus stop. morning smoke at PTK area, ciggs sponsored by nearest niki.. luv u dear.. if oni u gt SKL pink.. haha.. Sampoerna pon Sampoerna la.. ok.. den farking test..

aftr test, well.. the IT ppl meet up.. but fiza nd to watch movie.. sala go hme.. soo, left me n niki.. was abt to tke e 23 bus to TM wen.. my fone rang. brother pisang wants me to mit him.. but damn.. haha.. me n niki tke our swt time goin to toilet, gt milo peng frm the canteen b4 heading to PTK.. haha.. along the way clash wif mas n gang.. mas; u look like a tai-tai.. lol! ok, soo i chilled wif arif n ket n niki.. haha.. till ket n arif nd to go off fr test, den ayu cme bck.. so we sang our dikir songs n it rained.. HEAVILY.. nt our fault ok.. it jus turnd foggy out of a sudden n rain.. so the 3 of us endured the freaging cold.. haha.. till arnd 4.30pm lidat.. arep called me again,coz he finish test n we went to have dinner at e design canteen like usual.
I ATE FISH & CHIPS AGAIN! LOL!

so we were like eating till arnd 5.40pm.. we made our way to TM to window shop.. 1st stop.. The Body Shop.. hur hur.. sniff lotsa fragrance.. i'm like recommending arif stuffs, while niki n ayu looking at dunno wad stuff, n did i mention.. along the way, arif nearly fucked an old AH SOH...

hehe.. ok.. so aftr dat, arif wan go SMK.. SMK? wads dat? ok wad he meant is S&K.. lol.. haha.. we like twisted ourtimes alot todae.. let me list dem down..
S&K = SMK
APAD = APOD
Ebase = Ibase
Pony = Puny

hur hur.. n we went to toys 'R' us to satisfy our kid in us.. lol.. heres a pic.. of me.. being deprived of childhood toys..



n arif was skate-scootering all over the shop on a pink scooter.. lol.. lucky i nv wear pink todae, if yes, i'm sure to pose wif it.. haha.. n ya.. the robotic arm dat Min gt for his b'dae present was found like evrywhre in the toy shop.. lol! HOT ITEM I GUESS.. i used dat to pinch niki, pinch ayu.. n of coz oso pinch arep.. lol..

den aftr dat we went to the music store, YAMAHA... whre we're treated BADLY.. THE SALESPERSON SUCK! ASK WE ALL NT ALLOWED TO PLAY THE PIANO. YES THE SIGN SAYS NO PRACTISING ON THE PIANO, BUT HELLO.. DERES DIS 2 PPL PLAYING 1 CRNER N HE NVR STOP DEM! LIKE EXCUSE ME? JUS BCOZ DAT OTHR 2 PPL LOOKS INTERESTED IN THE PIANOS. I NOE LA, THE 4 OF US LOOK VERY SLACK KIND OF PPL BUT FOR UR INFO MISTER, THE 4 OF US ARE X-BAND MEMBERS! KNN CCB! #%^#@!!!
AYU - TROMBONE
NIKI - TRUMPET
AYUL - TRUMPET/TROMBONE
ARIF - PERCUSSION

SERYSLY MISTER, U'RE SUCH A BAD SALESPERSON! BAD DOGGY!

the nex time i cme dere, i make sure i make ur pianos spoil! bastard!

crap man.. den the day ends wif me n e rest smoking b4 splitting our way.. n lucky on my way hme.. i'm bored so i msgd my nehbour afiqa.. well, u accompany me all the way hme gerl.. like electronically.. lol.. adios amigos ppl..

btw, did i mention dat i luv my body to the MAX!!!! end July = shld have my ideal figure.. woo hoo! sexay!!!


Yes I am!!! lol, i noe dis sounds weird but yesh.. ayul is mugging for his term tests.. but ya, do have the occasional side tracks of shopping.. i need a few tops if possible, but having oni a small budget, i think i can oni afford 1 tee.. and 1 slipper.. serys.. aint joking.. im like dead broke.. n here am i wanting to shop like mad.. hopefully i'll find sme bundles of cash on the street. will lurv it man..

damn.. term tests are cming ryt up like.. very SOON..!!!! shites n i noe nuting.. ppl, pls.. stop saying dat i'm gud in my schl wrk..well, 90% of it is plain luck n common sense.. book sense? im none!!! god hlp me..

wel.. i woke up arnd 2pm todae, bathe.. eat.. den started mugging!! "the stress is on".. LOL. taken frm the Rahimah Rahim contestant in S'pore Idol.. hur hur hur.. well. aftr a few hrs.. decided to smoke.. haha.. took my elder bro's one, coz i hav none left.. he gave me aniwae.. soo dats dat.. n ya, i feel hungry again.. mama not at hme soo i need to cook on my own AGAIN! its like evry sunday mama disappear.. helping wif ppl weddings n stuff.. hiz. ok la.. she cook for ppl, she sure to bring hme sme nice food hme, which she did.. n i ate again.. lol.. i jus nd to stuff myself wif food la.. pardon me for being a glutton now.. aha. den erm.. ya, aftr dat.. back to the comp n continue studying... managed to complete studying for PRSP n IISO buy 11.40pm.. the probnow is, PRSP os open book test.. n i dun hav the book.. thx myself again for delaying stuff! fark.. hmm.. ya.. nuting much i did for the day.. mayb i designed a frenster skin for dear Fana, well girl.. its a 60% completed wrk.. given more time.. i'm sure to make it nicer, but nonetheless, its still useable now..

nuting much now.. wish me all the best in my term test ya! n hehe.. i cant wait to SHOP!!!
i wan a ringer-tee frm NUM (sum1 pls gt me dis)
i oso wan a pair of flip flops..
i oso wanna dye back my hair to frosted brwn (wif streaks of lighter brwn; i think)
i wanna gain lotsa wht.. (feed me ppl, treat me dinner or lunch)

n shit.. i frgt to mention dis.. my whole june is gonna be filled wif chalets.. mostly family chalets.. haha.. e part i like abt chalets, is the eerie night tracking n cam whoring sessions.. n i hav jus my best cousin "Ain: to cam whore together.. LOL!

n my final word.. y ppl sae i resemble gay boys/perfect for trans.. ?? i noe i gt defined eyebrows n stuff.. my whole family has it.. MASTURA.. ITS NATURAL, I DIN TRIM IT OR ANY SORT, N MY EYE LASHES IS OSO NATURAL.. DIAOX..

god save me from these looks.. i'm happy i have dem.. woo hoo!! but please ppl, stop relating me wif other stuff.. haha.. thx.. my elder bros oso look the same.. haiz..

adios ppl! luv me, hate me.. ur choice! beyotch!!! haha.. (quoted frm my elder bro's frenster)

wad do u gt, wen u mix a crazy bunch of ppl, crazy atmosphere n feet stomping music?
YOU WILL GET US.. the ppl from chalet Block D Rm 08 from Pasir Ris Costa Sands Resort; 02/06/06..

lets start wif my life b4 we gt to the exciting chalet part.. hmm.. ok its FRIDAY!!! hw i luv fridae wen i hav my Visual Lit class!!!.. dis lesson is simple.. draw sme stuff, hav mini-breaks in between n once ur sketch is dne, hand it up n go home.. woohoo.

lets start wif the morning. i cme to skewl early jus to finish my IISO assignment which is due at 12pm dat very day.. thank myself for delaying stuff! haha.. lol.. ok soo i mit fiza ferst in the morning at 'Flavours' b4 we head to the com labs to finish our stuff. well.. i totally look clumsy wif freaky big bag wif clothes insde.. kaoz..

den erm.. ya. as usual.. the morning smoke; n she made my day again by offering me SKL PINK .. hur hur hur.. so heres a pic of us cam-whoring.. we look damn photogenic aint we.. huhu..



HERES E PART THAT I MISSED OUT EARLIER. I MET WANI, WE WENT D-SIGN SKOOL AS USUAL TO BUY MILO N CHOCS N YA.. WENT TO PTK LIKE USUAL. N SHE HELPED ME PACK MY BAG. PAISEHX MAN.. HAHA.. LOL.. SERYS.. THX ALOT WANI. AT LEAST MY BAG LOOKS FLATTER DEN USUAL. IF NT VERY UGLY.. THX.. N DID U REALISE DAT U SUMHW OSO TOUCHD MY BOXERS N PACKED IT IN TOO? E DARK BLUE "RENOMA" ONE.. HAHA.. LOL!

haha.. lol.. so aftr dat, we nd to split up n go for our classes.. class? wads dat? e whole day ive been think abt chalet.. chalet.. chalet.. chalet.. chalet.. chalet.. haha.. serys man.. i cant concentrate on drwing bloody geometric sketches.. hard to concentrate man.. soo as usual.. my HP is jus in frnt of me n judy is bside me.. soo..
TAA DAAA!!!



haha.. well i take mre pics wif sum others also.. haha.. but i decided dat i look best in dis pic la.. haha.. ok den i left early frm dat class n went to the loo b4 waiting for my "mom".. n oh god, the toilet have MIRROR. haha.. n e toilet is empty, soo time to practise my cam whoring skills again..





haha.. i noe! im soo full of myself! these is my blog wad, soo dun complain/tag to me dat i'm soo e into myself coz duhh! MY BLOG.. soo jus accept it or fcuk off! haha.. den i went to meet mom n dad n made our way to the chalet.
*mom wore pink too, soo happy.. yul luvs mak!

in the bus, we all jus keep quiet coz we r like soo tired, conserving energy for the chalet.. haha.. well b4 we went dere.. we mit the rest at Pasir Ris MRT. waited for Brother Pisang, Mia & Ato.. haha.. hur hur hur.. den we made our way to cheers whre dey bought the drinks.. actually dese nt the only drinks dat dey bought. dun gt me wrong.. i aint a drinker.. maybe jus a sipper..

reached the chalet n wow! soo many ppl oready.. but the food nt served!!!! wadde.. soo, ket brought digicam.. soo hehe.. u noe the rest..



me & mia.. sumhw related to each other.. hmm.. we look ubber dashing in this pic ryt.. i noe.. hi 5 Mia! we rule!!! hahaha.. sick man.. well.. den me n mom oso tke pic..



n ya.. erm i hi-lited the plants at the bck coz dey match wif mum's shirt.. huhu.. yeay! arnd dis time.. the sun is going down.....

ITS TIME TO PARTY N BOOGEY!!!!
the music is blasting like crazy.. heineken bottles are opened.. n soo we played dare n nuting else but dare..
the dares include..
1. botak climb a stupid tree
2. mas osim-ing on arif's crotch
3. mas n mia kissing
4. arif sniffing ato's arm pit
5. min being put into stinky garbage bin
6. mom osim-ing on mas breast
7. ayuL kissing ayeb (no tongues bebeh! we clever)
8. n finally ayuL cat walking like a farking trans

n soo u read.. for evry dare, mus gulp dwn a bit of heineken.. i dun really gulp, coz i dun drink.. get it? ok.. so kissing ayeb was disgusting.. err!!! den fark.. cat walking.. shit man.. deres like alot of ppl la.. bloody dem still can video cam all e dares.. well.. wad happen dere ends dere.. n i cat walked.. yesh.. ayuL did it.. haha..

n in the middle gt cake cutting ceremony.. so me n mas took pic.. lucky mas hp the flash is strong.. jus dat mayb over bling.. n thx Yen for taking the pic.. but u press it too slow.. soo to say my brain cells are killed man..



den we made a movie called "sampok" possesed la.. haha., gt bckgrnd soun n evrything.. min is the possesed idiot, fathul is the exorcist n me, the wif of min (or issit tt farking screaming trans).. haha.. lol.. crap man.. we did i think more den 10 takes la.. the possesed min snds like constipated idiot.. the priest dressed like 50 CENT n me.. supposedly to be the wife of min, wore short pants.. seck ar!!! haha.. dun ask me on "do i hav the vid?".. coz i dun.. oni sala n ayeb hav e full-version.. ahaha.. lol. soo FUN!

den wen went into a room.. whre we CLUBBED.. lol.. serys man.. grinding and all.. mom was going wild, dancing wif me but step-dad gt angry n pushed mom 1 side.. haha.. sorry mom.. u go dance wif daddy.. haha.. rach owaes dance wif me.. but RACH.. u TOO SHORT.. i'm like 180cm and u are like 150+cm.. gt e diff? haha.. i cant "enjoy" dat much if dance wif u u noe.. if u gt wad i mean.. haha... lol.. mre dancing mre boozing.. mre bbq-ing of chicken! fried pasta! fried rice!!! woohoo! i luv food! n did i mention fruit cocktails? haha..
den erm, ya.. i strtd to notice e diff type of "drinks available".. i jus tke note of it.. i hardly drink ok..
- Absolute Vodka
- Jim Beam
- Breda
- Heineken
- Tiger
- Black Cat
- Amsterdam
- Vanilla Mudshake (dis is mine!!! almost alcoholess.. so the most halal of the non-halal)
- Coke (the halal one)
- Sprite (it tastes weird though)

*p.s: drinking is bad, soo dun drink!

soo.. erm arnd 1am liddat.. we made our way to the RED HOUSE.. quite a walk actually, but we dun mind.. e gerls are scared esp claudia.. haha.. lol.. grabbing my hand.. woohoo.. wen we reach dere.. i oready gt my eyes n skin feeling weird. well.. the ferst tym we went dere.. i swore i saw sumting at the corner of my eye wen fathul shone the torch anyhw.. but then we re-treated coz sum bloody jokers scare the shit out of the ppl.. wen we went dwn dere.. the thing dat is dere.. is no longer dere.. well.. i tot my eyes is playing tricks.. soo i jus keot quiet the whole day dere.. well.. the place is small, dere's a bee's hive.. farking BIG one man.. deres nuting la..
n soo we tot.. soo 3/4 of the group including me went back to the chalet.. leaving 3 or 4 of dem inside..

ppl at the chalet was bz dancing wen dis trio cme back.. n ferst thing day say was " u ppl left too early"... well.. ya.. dey saw it.. i think a few of dem.. 1 touched black's neck.. black tot its mosquito or sth but min n charles saw tht woman.. den min say he saw dat woman like circling dem.. e lights went on by itself wif the meter nt moving.. n one of the woman perch on the roof, n ya.. 1 gerl gt shocked, she screamed.. cried n ran out.. wow! i miss the hot action.. i jus wanna catch a glimpse of it.. which i think i saw in the starting n i was right.

wen we were discussing.. ayeb brought out the topic of the thing at the corner.. den i was like " i saw dat too".. so ya.. my eyes aint playing tricks on me..

well.. dat nyte.. i slpet early coz tired.. den i dunnoe arnd wad tym.. the drunkards cme into the bedroom.. squeezing me into 1 crner.. fark.. n rach keep wanting to vomit, dsturbing my peaceful slp.. well drunkards!!!! if u cant take it dun drink la.. duhh.. i want to slp ok..

soo dats e nyt of fun n luffter.. its a re-union gathering.. the morning was hectic.. almost evry1 is having a hangover.. but not me! yeay! drinking is bad! haha.. soo evryone gt a quick shower b4 checking out.. i str8 away went hme.. coz in my mindi wanna continue slping..

reachd hme.. mama.. opened the door for me n ferst thing she offered me bread, my strawberry oatmeal thing n apple+blackcurrent juice.. haha.. love u mama! haha.. well.. i ate the bread wif peanut butter.. haha.. all dese stuff is part of the be-fat-programme.. haha.. i need to eat double of wad i usually take to gain fat. n currently, i'm gaining wht.. serysly.. n i'm luving it.. well.. aftr drinking the juice.. well.. i head dwn to the bed.. n doze off.. its tiring ppl.. n dis chalet rock!!!

the ppl dat rocked wif me tt i remembered.. (dose dat i had fun wif)
- fiza - mas - kaplok
- ayeb - yen - fathul
- arep - mia - botak
- min - ato
- rach - ket
- claud - nonoi

cant remember la.. basically, THOSE DAT PLAYED DARE & DARE, THE THOSE TT "CLUBBED" AT THE 2ND STOREY & CREW FROM MOVIE "SAMPOK"..

elo elo.. well, im back frm D-08 the chalet tt i spent the night of 2nd June.. crappy place + crappy ppl + crappy food = crappy atmosphere.. crappy to me = fun!!!! woo hoo! ppl tt we last met like mths ago like hari raya liddat was dere too.. its more of a gathering but we do have SOME monetary probs at ferst hmm.. lucky i bring summore $ but evrything ok la.. the chalet turns into a club by 10pm? aftr the cake cutting ceremony? yeah think soo.. evrything was ubber fun.. u ppl shld hav went dere..

oh wells.. cant blog much for now.. i'll be updating tonite. i nd to study for my term test nw.. adios ppl..

*to ppl hu is at the chalet of D-08 on 02/06/06, u guys/gals are the best. to min, yana, iqa & fathul.. happy 17th and 18th b'dae to u ppl. and to the pontianaks in "Red Hse" y the hell u nv cme out wen i went dere? n u cme out oni wen i went out oready? damn..

well.. my hair is messy for 2 days in a row.. haha.. lol.. basically i haden had e time to str8n it properly.. well, todae (fridae) will be a diffrent day. i will die2 wake up early to give it a thorough str8ning coz aftrall, i'm having a chalet to celebrate mini min's 18th b'dae! wow! he's 18 but still.. neh mind.. those hu noe him may noe y. jus compare me n him.. haha.. LOL!

todae, i jus cant wake my butt up.. its like friggin 2hr class.. n i went dere to oni slp.. purposely nvr bring my NMM book coz dun feel like it.. n i look clumsy wen holding bloody skool bag wif anthr dunno paper bag.. serys.. haiz.. in class i slept.. i jus hate it wen i cantwake up. bloody hell.. den aftr dat, i went out to mit wani. n ya, the usual buying of drinks n chocs before headin to PTK whre todae, erm.. we jus sit dere.. like dunno y.. while wani studies.. i jus chill.. was too slpy.. till it rained.. RAIN.. RAIN.. RAIN HEAVILY.. HAIYO.. the rain made me even mre slpy, erm.. soo by 3pm.. i went to make my way hme.. oh shit ya.. i drew sumting on PTK again.. e eye of ayul is spotted dere, n evrywhre.. woots..



oh ya.. the bus captain of 34 is a friggin idiot!!!! its damn bloody cold la. on the air con like no mercy.. like hello.. i ran frm PTK to sch wen its raining n i'm drippin wet. sitting in a cold bus jus makes things wrse n hw e fuck i hate cold places.. i prefer heat la! angry man... well.. den i do wad ayuL will do wen he senses extreme cold, he shuts his eyes n hibernate away.. till he drop his hp to the floor.. damn.. lucky my fone still OK.. if not.. i wil BLAME the bloody bus driver coz he on the air con like -4 liddat.. aahaha..

reached hme n slept like a pig.. oh ya.. b4 dat i stripped off of coz.. wun b slpingwif wet clothes n pants ryt.. so i jus strip till left my boxers n slp lor.. haha.. woke up arnd 9pm liddat.. go msn n chatted wif her. i'm soo glad i found sum1 dats soo nice n kind.. hmm.. well.. basically dat.. n ya.. i jus realise i haven do my HW!!!! freak man.. n e deadline is todae at 12pm!!!! gtg skool earlier den usual.. but ok la.. cme to skool arnd 11am lor.. hmm.. n having chalet ltr.. i haven pack my bag man.. things to put inside for todae will be

1. My art pieces for visual lit lesson l8r
2. hair moisturiser
3. hair comb
4. contact lenses
5. hair str8ner (optional)
6. sme clothes
7. sme shorts
8. $$$

alot of stuff but bg kinda small n flimsy.. i scare i tore off the seems.. haha.. lOL.. eeba ppl! nxt post might be on saturday.,. aftr i cme hme from chalet.

ANYTHING ELSE, PLS CALL ME ON MY HP OR FIND ME AT COSTA SANDS RESORT (PASIR RIS)..

I'M SOO FREAKING HAPPY!!! SO OF U MAY NOE Y!!! finally i see things the way it should be mths or perhaps years ago. i'm now soo freaking happy la.. "U" made my day.. thank u fer dat.. well lets tok.. due to miss bontotz asking me to post dis.. post i shall.. well.. erm ya.. mus PROMOTE her..

1. bcoz she giv me lotsa PINK SKL ciggs
2. bcoz she treat me and ayu dinner
3. bcoz she i dunnoe la.. crap!!!

sorry ar fiza, i serysly frgt wad to write coz my heart is thumping like mad dogs. well.. lets think wad i did todae.. well oh ya.. ferst thing in da morning i met fiza to hav morning smoke. morning smoking is a usual routine.. if nt, i'll b dead in class.. haha.. serys.. n guess wad.. i smoke SKL pink in the morning.. dats like my FAV la.. thx fiza.. i owe u one.. LOL! soo happy but fiza sad coz she's L-O-N-E-L-Y coz her peeps haven cme or still sleeping.. damn APEL la.. nobody in TP cres abt APEL.. its freaking 8am in the morning and all u do is CME al over again. APEL = Applied Principles For Effective Living.. arta fuck! i'm oready living an effective life now la.. damn man.. n ya.. todae.. the ITAS is dead.. noone is arnd.. even my class seemed to be reduced in number.. hahaha.. alot nv cme for tht bloody APEL class. well.. i left fiza and purposely went to the class abit late.. abit oni..

boOoOOooOOrING!!! i was soo bored soo aftr dis APEL class, me n wani went to bedo reservoir to study, but b4 dat.. a trip to design canteen to gt a drink.. i wanted teh peng but wen i look at my hp; its oni 9am.. soo its MILO PENG! hur hur hu.. wani bought alot of chocolate stuff.. huhuhu! hw she dunnoe hw much i luv chocs.. haha.. den we made our way to PTK which is in bedok reservoir. ferstly we saw dis aunty dunnoe practising sme "DANCE" exercise which i find kinda cool. issit called ta chi? my mama did dat wen i ferst moved to Punggol. She n the aunties.. my mama is an aunty la.. she soo old oready, pear-shaped bums and all and still gt the cheeks to ask me to get her the OSIM zap zap thing.. wadde.. exercise mama.. nt zapping.. u owaes slp like a log, hw to lose wht? niwae.. nt important.. u old oready, noone wanna see u too.. haha LOL..! pardon me.. dis my blog soo jus accept me ranting.. haha..

hmm.. ya.. den wani taught me CMATHS2.. like THANK GOD! i was like gonna die la.. evrything i dunno abt maths.. y poly oso mus learn maths??? damn... hw i wished i in design skool soo noo need maths (i think).. LOL! freaky shit.. she teach me using sex methods! like warta! din expect tt kinda language to cme out frm a girls mouth, but nehmind.. i find it funny though n yesh! it makes maths super fun.. well.. den aftr sumtym.. both of us sleep at the pondok.. like really slp till a bunch of skool kids dunno hav reservoir excursion?! freaky NOISY! LUCKY I CANT SEE DEM COZ MY EYES ARE SLEEPY.. THE NEXT TYM I'M GONNA WHACK U KIDS N UR FREAGING TCHERS! N YA GUDNESS!! STILL CAN TOK TO EACH OTHER N SAE "EH GT PPL SLPING!" DUHH!!! OF COURSE PPL LAH! DEN WAD GHOST?! PPL CANNOT SLEEP IN THE MORNING ISSIT?!!!!! arnd 12pm liddat, me send wani back to her class while i wait for Ayu, Fiza n sala.. but sala todae like mr emo.. dunno y.. n i cant find brother pisamg for 2 daes.. he disappeared. well.. sala is emo.. so we jus drank sme stuff... n ya i ATE FISH & CHIPS!!! FISH & CHIPS!!!! lol! i jus dared yself to eat.. conquer my stupid allergy to seafood. hmm.. den aftr dat, made our way to PTK n dis tym, bloody thailand foreign wrker slping on MY seat. den we purposely made noise n he woke up n scram off.. soo we sat dere n smoke like god noes till wen.. den i strted to rain, n i gt class.. soo i dashed off ferst.. hmm.. sad..

IISO is boring.. CMSY is slping session.. coz i dun giv a damn.. was too slpy.. btw, my etyes r half-dead while writing dis entry.. hmm.. ya, aftr skool.. met ayu n fiza n eat again.. den made my way hme ALONE.. supposed to meet arep at coffee bean but was shagged.. its WEDNESDAY.. haha...

den at hme.. switchon my comp n edit pictures till i saw sum1 log in.. well she normally said hi to me ferst, but todae, i quickly grab th emouse.. click her nick n said the ferst hi. well nadya.. we dun really tok tt often u noe. n u stil can sae we do? mayb recently yeah we tok crap alot but nt in the past wks. n thx for giving me ur number which i've been waiting for a NOOOOOOOONG NOOOONNG tyme.. she was hyped todae.. very hyped.. even i myself find it abit weird.. lol! hahah.. hw her mama bashed intoher room n stuck cod liver oil inside her mouth... hhahah LOL! i drink cod liver oil only in PRIMARY SCHOOL darling.. haha.. the orange flavored wan.. haha.. LOL.. the way u described it is soo cute la. n ya, u look fine.. dun follow my appetite, if nt u'll get ubber fat n den complain to ppl on hw 2 slim dwn.. haha.. ur wrds are ubber funny u noe.. u made my day, serys.. hadnt been really luffing since my 2nd last class coz i'm sleepy.. lol! well.. i will design u a grad nite dress... haha.. wif the frills n stuff, DESIGN oni ya.. u send to tailor k.. haha.. make u nice-nice one and unique also..

see ppl! at least sum1 trusts me on my apparel skills n even offered to be my model..

LOL! okok.. so i was bored. n ya, decided to edit a pink pic of me.. hw the hell i like pink is funny.. coz pink jus simply suits my skin color.. hahah.. LOL! oh ya! did i mention todae i smoke pink cigg, wear pink shir, use oink lighter, use pink pencil all pink! PINK-ANATIC man.. LOL.. soo funny..

heres the PINK pic of me.. which i find to be 5.4/10.. haha... its a bored job.. testing new brushes to be exact.. haha.. lurv em..



well, tt girl still irritating me.. sorry la! i gt sum1 in mind to think abt all day, n e person is obviously nt u! but "her".. yea.. its still "U".. we go shopping together k like wad u suggested.. i'll carry the shopping bags while u shop.. n remember oso.. i oso wanna shop..
hehe.. till then readers.. yeah, guess most ppl noe hu i am into.. to othr gerls, sorry la.. still can make frens wif me, but perhaps nt mre den dat for now.. cheers!

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