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I'm fcukin bored ppl.. like seriously very bored. Phone had not been ringing.. in fact it kept jamming up. wtf??!!!! servicing it soo. or.. *smells that new phone*.
Ohh baby Ints gt a new phone.. well her luck she found it.. its a fcukin new model.. less den a week old.. biler aku nyer turn nie??? Can i have tht Giorgio or Prada phone??? wakakakakaka!!! Feeling eh. Soo it is set. 7th April will be, MASS SHOPPING DAY!!!!

Anyone wanna join?? Sounds like fun ryte?? ook.. ill mke it a perangai gmok day as well.. hahahahaha!!! k fuck im sleepy, gt back to bed ayul.. like NOW!

Woo~ just gt back home from supper with ShaSha Cole; Keisha's younger sister. Kwang3..
k and im sleepy, smoking alone.. fat tummy.. damn, prac tmrw, dunno cn wke up on time or not.. hahaha.. paham paham la.. dah mkn cam babi!!!

I'm fuckingly eye-d a nice matt-finish gold sneakers by River Island. I'm soo gonna get it!!! ferst things ferst sia!!! wootooos!!!
please have at least size 10.5 or 11... pleaassee pleeaasseee....
And anyone dat is rich enough to get me an LV Duffel bag dat cost $1,800 pls email me kaes.. hahahahahahahah!!! part ni ayul feeling giler..

Singapore Fashion Fest coming up.. pay coming up.. all i need is SALE, and my bitchbro before he goes NS.. and tra lalala... we'll b parading the shopping isles of Singapore like never before.. did i say dis line too many times?? hahaha!!!

i need shooessss...
baggsss... screammsss shoeoesss more important!!!!
ohh.. tht CK red undie?? oh tak leh eh??? kkk..
erm erm... bdae partys... Shimmy's bdae la.. sure grand2 coz its Blueberry Yummies clan. That other bdae, hmm.. tu one side... pikir one side.. ohh drinkin session.. er errrr.. wad more.. ohh ya.. tht fuckin nice Tanky frm NUM.. i shall drag bro wif me.. coz i saw one wif a kinky line dat suits him.. me? i'm getting the "I'm Mister Messy" one.. duhh,, im very messy.. and and.. dat red thongs frm NUM as well.. mampos.. hp bill lom pikir nie.. hahahahahahaha!!!

nie sumer feeling perangai kaye!!! wakakakakakkakakakak!

dah, im fuckin sleepy now.. apparently i am..
btw, closing was fun wif ShaSha Cole.

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UPDATED:
Fuck, ALfie bro just came home with a $358 Giorgio shades.. now i really needa shop

p/s: ... need i say more babe? You knew it..


Apart from it all.. huh? i've been tonning with the dancers at Titanic.. wrking my ass out and all.. ohh, my poly admission was unsuccessful. Most prolly im going NS soon. Haiz.. im not ready yet la..

Coffee presentation tmrw.. ohh damn.. shit.. k bye all!!!

p/s: Babe, will you b willing to listen if i were to talk? miss you.. i do. Trust me, click on me.. it will bring you to another story, my story.

Labels: Amerie, Dance, Starbucks

Woohooo~
i'm soo fcuking glad i have a bitchbro that just knows the right time to crack me up. Lol! Thanks Arfy, you best ar! lol! Soo, hiss idea was to have some drinkin' session, Aini cant join us coz its her ferst day at the rental flat she's renting in Punggol!!! woo!!! i'm soo hanging out with her once she gt all settled down with. Soo its down with Me, Arfy bro, Yana and Sures. hohoho!! crazy or wad.. i guess everyone has this level of tipsyness with the exception of Sures. Me and Yana, a lil tipsy but still able to maintai, Sures.. not drunk.. Arfy.. no comment. lol!!!

Soo we ended our drinkin session arnd 2.30as Yana needs to go home and stuff, so is Sures, soo me and Arfy supposedly is heading home till he wanna buy ciggs and chill-out. WHAT WAS I THINKIN?? i agreed to his plans. soon i realised, he's slping away like a log. lol!!! soo i accompanied this cute-only-when-sleeping bro of mine till 4am. Send him home and here I am.. reached home..

soo i better get my beauty sleep before i start having eyebags thus the need of small ice pouches.. hahaha!!! no ice pouches please.. Dance prac later.. ohh brother.. hope i can gt my mind str8 abt this dance thingy and not abt other things..

Ohh and should i add, im supposed to be wrking tmrw.. but nooo.. change of schedule.. okay.. soo how am i gonna earn my bucks now?? *sadistic cry*

Klah klah.. im off to bed now.. its 5.05am ready..
im oready missing my crew and the other dancers..
im oready missing my wrk place and the aroma of coffee (remind me to wash my apron pls)
im oready missing my brother and sister of diffrent parents.. (Arfy and Ryna)
im oready missing Amerie.

chalo beteh!





With every passing moment, this beat gets louder. It's so loud yet can't be heard. Even the thundering roar of the bustling city life is dimmed by it. Inferior as it seems, so mighty.. yet i am the only one that hears it.

It was once, a story.. perhaps a legend.. and some say a myth, to me it was evergreen. Why do we try, try so hard when its basically a necessity. It was once pure almond joy, filled with butter creams and drizzled with caramel; now it was all left to diamond dust. It wasn't misery for I'm still trying. Strong as the heart goes, weak as my body starts to feel.

Could all these while I'm breathing the air of emptiness, is it so cold, that standing in the hot sun feels no warmth without knowing, without having you by my side? Friends aplenty, but it was never the same when i used to know, i have someone to share this life with. Maybe it was stupid, maybe it wasn't for me to continue on loving.

I tried to forget, for then i realize, i was just lying to myself. How long can i lie, it barely last for a minute. This heart beats its own rhythm, it never changed since, and it beats just for you.

For why i still stand alone, is the fear; the fear that i myself don't understand. I'm missing you with each passing moment, the tears that i shield away with, just like how umbrella keeps us dry. It was just an act to the public, that i was never affected by this post-break syndrome. How only God knows.

Dear Diary,
Will she forgive me for my mistakes in the past? Had she forgiven me? Had i did my best? for i sure did not. I've yet to shower her rays of colors, just like the heavenly rainbows. I promised, i promised to make her happy, tears of sorrow or hatred will not be in our dictionary. I told myself, i will never go back on my words. For this is my first love; corny as it seemed, but truthfully told.

Maybe, i don't really understand these feeling, but I'm beginning to understand and learn from you. Yes, absence does make the heart grew fonder. I'm beginning how it is, to feel alone. Your presence, tho for awhile, made me a better man. You acknowledged me for who and what i am. You made me realize that, i don't need to be anybody, for i can just be myself.

Dear Diary, have i failed?

Dreams, they come; and they go. Can i wish for them to stay? just like how we wished our prophet will stay with us? You appear now and then, as vague shadows, playing in the unconscious mind. You played in my dreams, i felt it. But i still wished that time will make it real. I was foolish, i was stupid; i promised never to hurt you, but i did. Not that i hurt you, i hurt myself too.

Now babe, will you one day understand how much i need you? how much i missed you? and the only one who i can say how much i love you. It'll take days, months, years.. I'll wait. Give me a sign just like how lightning came before thunder.

I'll still hold on to my promise, i will never hurt you ever again.
For this heart still beats one rhythm, and the rhythm is you.


silenced cries will remain..
for only you i will stay..

p/s: this boy needs his comfort zone.

Labels: Amerie

Heylo guys.. its my off day again. yes! but instead of spending time wif my crew or brother n sista a.k.a Arfy and Jaja... I was like sleeping, den i was like thinking abt wad tod o fr the coffee presentation thingy. And soo i did my research part on it. I'm halfway done wif the core design for the invitation card for this wonderful event of the year of SB-MW, i'll be completng the design by Saturday, to be sent out to stores islandwide..

Anywae, since you guys are reading.. come down to SB-Millennia Walk; Friday the 28th and yeap.. time TBC. ouuh ouhh.. n since you guys are reading, Arfy's hving his very own coffee presntation on 25th March at SB-Compasspoint, Sengkang. Dun mix the dates up ryte?? his would be at 6.30pm i think.. SOo just come for both la.. lol!! it's his last presentation prior to serving the nation.

NIwae, im blogging dis for the sake of relieveing post-design stress. tired la.. ok!! im soo hoping to get into a school soon!!! i wanna study.. i seriously do.

ok chalo readers.. im off to smoke n smoke.. n ok.. Jaja.. i miss you, Arfy? asyik jumpe ko jer.. jelak la.. lol!! jkjk!! can't be jelak of the resident.himbo bitch bro of mine with whom i go crazy with!!! wakakakakaka!]

p/s: i pray all goes well.. i really am praying for us. i'll jus provide u with this thing called "love" which i've yet to understand. Nothing else but just love at its purest form. i shall still wait. my silence dun mean i dun care, it dun mean i dun feel.. it dun mean i dun see... i'm just shy.. and you know me better..

ok stupid ayul shut up.. and i see my bro getting ready to smack me the next second i type another emo sentence. lol!

Labels: Amerie

Its my freagin off day and it clashes with Arfy's off-day.. the usual.. haha!! shopping and window shopping with tht bitch. Haha! its always filled with laughters sia.. soo wh not.. tolerating each others' nonsensical antics. Soo since its my off day, we're like supposed to meet.. READ, supposed to meet at 11am fr breakfast, end up meeting at 12pm.. NOOOOO.. someone overslept soo end up miting at 1+. Ferst stop.. supposed destination was SB-EP.. end up we jump str8 to SB-RC. Den off to Bugis..

TOPMAN babey.. well not me, i can't be shopping wen im $$$-less ryte?? lol!! so basically accompany tht pendek around la n all the while talking abt is "imaginary love life". wakakaka!! Stop it sia br.. lol!! soo he bought a tee.. den off to House of Japan to find his faded jeans.. terrible terrible sia.. the jeans are either too big.. soo fugly or too faded and tattered but we found a pair tht matches perfectly..

from there.. took a cab to Hougang to meet wif our beloved sis Jaja.. whos recovering frm her fall.. and ohhsoo jahat.. lol!!! went to have minor drinking session alongside eating.. lapar seyy ayul!!!

and time jus flew soo fast wen im out wif dem.. frm dere, sent Jaja home, whos like now busy wif international calls.. lol!!!! and we're off to slack at SB-CM.. den went home at 12.15am feeling ohh soo tired.. and hungry.. hungry = me. lol!!!
i wanna gain 10kg!!! fuckingly yeah!!! i want 10 kg lurh!
upon reaching hme sweet home, took out Almond Croissant frm fridge and dig into cheesecake at the same time.. hungry!!! and den i realised im wrking tmrw morning.. ohh brother..

kk.. im tired and lazy now.. bbye fucktards..

p/s: you exactly know how i feel if u reach in deeper.

Labels: Amerie, Outing

Hi all, for those who read my blog earlier on today, i guessed u guys saw the tagg board being spammed. Ohh brother.. why has it always gt to be my blog. Very cibai larh! I dunno why people do dis kinda stuffs just to defame others with no particular reason. No. 2 if you guys ever wannadefame or pick any faults, please, have the balls n pussy to write your name? tak paham arh aku orang tkde kerje ni sumer..

Work was fun.. long time nvr see Risha!!! hahaha.. i loike to wrk with Risha ok.. best i tell you!!!
n i miss my regular wrking butties.. ckp jer satu hols abeh tk nk keje pgi.. babi korang.. lol!

ohh.. ayul is sick.. like hell yeah he is tho trying his best to say he's not. Cibai.. which idiot infect me sia?? angry you know.. very very angry..
okok.. im bored, perhaps tmrw meeting dat best bro of mine to lepak wif best sis at the same time see how shes doing aftr being bck frm hospital. haha..
1 ay nvr mit dem mcm rindu luhh..

kk.. crap.. dok, i still want my breakfast in bed im telling ya!
bye all..

p/s: i miss you to the extent tht how i wish i could hug you and cry for hours for all the time i had been missing you. haiz.. i know, i sound very crazy.. but i am.. the heart now is shaing soo much. its like anytime wanna explode luhh.. =) Niwae babe, ur b'dae is like soon. i soo can't wait.. n ure turning 18. soo fast.. n i think i should really stop talking to myself. dis is getting irritating lor.. selk talking.. sad lifestyle..


The day before was fuckingly hectic, with last minute purchases, sewing the pieces together and lastly, training till the wee hours of the morning.. argh!!! and den today, its the day of the comp. Gt to say its was D.Y.K ferst and best ever performances even to be compared with its Urbanites days. We din manage to clinch any awards but well some of us know why. Its a damn pathetic reason to minus points tht way since judging criteria doesnt mention it. And, even if its supposed o be deducted, i guess u need to weigh the dance performance itself. lol! but fuck, we're still winners.. lalala!

Make up and hair was fantabulous, Mas looks like some rock chikadook sia!! me? my face like fucking cibai drag... but i like the eye..
Dress wise, its e ferst comp/performance where everybody puts in real effort.. freaking goood la seyy..

Aftr dat was a crazy run fr me to the store chalet. Macam orang giler i tell you..
its nice too see the original team again, however, the chalet jus dun feel dat kecoh, maybe perhaps i cme oready too late at nite or perhaps i dunno.. i jus dun feel it. hmm.. k nvm shut up ayul.

Goin up against Naz's gf was funny.. lol!!! thx to pendek ar.. lol! I jus took a shot of chivas coz i dunno, i guess i only drink when the company arnd me drnk soo.. haha.. i guess dats y i jus took a shot.

And i guess the rest of the crew are slacking at the P.Ris Chalet. hahaha!
kk.. i very tired to blog oready, wen pics are up ill repost the link aite.. waiting fr the vids frm Wani larh.. ohh n pics oso!!! lol!!!
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updated, click on the pic below to bring you to the whole album.

chalo!!!



p/s: short conversations made the heart grw fonder babe. And i trust you to trust me. =)

Labels: Amerie, Dance

Ohh Belakang Padang~
Pulau Penawar Rindu~

I miss dis place.. i really do, please read from day one, i'm jus writing it up based on chronological order., and, i'm not putting evry single detaild shit, coz its gonna be soo long.. pics do justice and ive oready link dem up at the end of evry post..
I miss evryone dere... ryte Arfy.. ryte Jaja..??

For detaild accounts.. ask me personally i'll be glad to share wif you..
and dis song mean alot to the 3 of us, it will remind us of Belakang Padang and its people..
ALL of us have these in our phone, its a nice song.. i sukkerrr..




Day 3 and 4 combined together... coz dey 4 we did nothing den to go home.. soo here goes..

Day 3. I know.. we all know dat dis isnt the last day, but im starting to miss evryone... we did pretty nuting much as usual except to do our hair.. i rebonded my fringe for S$4.. i noe.. cheap ryte.. from this album onwards u can see my rebonded hair, before it is all str8ned..
YES... i brought my str8ner to Batam.. hehe!

after rebonding, i went back to sleep with Arfy.. Jaja.. still at saloon wif Surry, coz she do curls and all soo it takes hours.. Amer sleeping too coz he's drunk on booze since the day before..
Bck on the bed, i mentioned some things from my heart to Arfy .. and i made dat boy emo, damn stupid me... but i guess its from my heart soo its oklah.. coz wadever i told him is the facts of life.. and you know it bro.. =)
Adam Ariefy; he's a one hell of a good friend to have.. trust me..
Daing Zarina.. shes a gila girl since i met her in 2005.. haha..

Night came, Amer woke up.. Cik Mimi came nd wweeeee!!! off we went to Puja Sera to .. hahaa.. get some booze and KTV again. Life had never been better.. me n Arfy was like emo-ing larh.. i cant see my frens sad larh.. will affect me oso.. but cik Mimi made our day.. hahaha! Crazy.. sadness all gone n cam whore begins!!!

tins of booze went away.. time flies..
memories stay.. leaving only thumb n footprints like Arfy said..
not forgetting fart gases..
Night came.. tmrw we're going home..
we slept.. it had been tiring the whole few days..

The house is engulfed with sadness.. i mean i dun show it of coz, i hardly show my emotional side.. except those tht have seen before just shut up aite.. Arfy, haha.. he has his personal stuff larh i cant type it down here soo ya.. i feel you bro.. i know..

We left Batam at 4pm.. alongside Amer.. he waited for our departure and all.. i tell its crazy..
i'm holding my tears sia as we spoke and drink and smoke our last few ciggs in Batam as e 3 guys dat spend the days together in Batam.. ohh damn.. my tears are welling again... shit sia..
all the time i'm maintaining my cool.. Arfy, well.. he's tearing larh at the coffe shop.. all the while each one of us try to hide it.. soo emo kan.. i know.. argh!
Jaja din go home wif us.. coz she met wif a fall soo i guess she'll b back later.. having Amer waiting for us to depart bring me closer to tears.. its jus.. jus soo fast..
And trust me i kept quiet for the ferst time in Batam.. cz if i were to talk, i'm gonna burst..

1810HRS came,
we need to get to our vessel and leave Batam.. as i pass tht gate.. i seriously need to pass it fast..
till we meet again Amer, Surry, Cik Sal, Cik Mimi, Kak Ros, Yado.. and evryone dere..
i wanna meet them again.. i do.. 4 days isnt enough and kampong life isnt dat bad afterall..
ohh my, writing dis last entry bring all those fondest memories..

now its back in S'pore..
currently its just me and Arfy since Jaja still in Batam.
We did call dem up.. its nice to hear their voices and dat haiz.. we missed you guys..

click on the pic below to see the the picture album for day 3 & 4..

p/s: i miss Pulau Belakang Padang; its a hot topic between me and Arfy now, coz i guess only the 3 of us feel the feeling on how hard it is to leave aftr 4days breathing the same air..

p/s/s: i'm welling up as i post this last entry listening to the posted song above..

p/s/s/s: now im laden with work stress.. NS med chck stress.. and dance stress..
i miss carefree life..

super p/s: i miss you all the while there in Blakang Padang Amerie, if only you were with us..

Labels: Vacation

Woke up.. late as usual.. hahaha!!! with Cik Sal screaming for Kak Surry.. hehehe..
soo wad did we do.. ermz.. actually i cant remember much myself.. hmm.. ohhohh..
Amer went to Batam to do some sending offs.. soo its just the 4 of us..

the Trio and Surry, soo we went to hve breakfast at i dunnoe dis coffee shop.. wif a super-fugly tranny-tak-menjadi.. waitres... the tranny is soo beyond ugly. Imagine this, a guy wif a small pony tail in women's clothing.. urgh! s'pore trannys gt style..

haha.. soo there i was eating fried noodles.. sedap seyy.. i know.. lol!!!
drinking lychee.. and den, bck home.. i jus sleep.. the day part is soo boring, but we did discuss to go club.. a.k.a Pacific a.k.a Singapore Star Cruise cousin.. Its at the mainland a.k.a Batam, soo we think of a plan to be allowed to go there..

Night came, we went there.. i dress myself up in red v neck, suspenders.. ermz.. skinny jeans.. yeah.. and my signature Tsunami hairstyle.. Arfy bro was in a printed red top, tattered jeans n my Fedora which i now gave him, since he look better in it.. hehe! We tried our very best to dress Amer up, haha.. waxed up his hair n hair sprayed his hair for the very ferst time, put on foundation for him n voila.. we turn a kampung guy into a clubber for the night!!! wakakakakaka!!!

Ferst we went to this place out Pacific to eat n JD away..i love JD soo of coz.. its a yes!!! but taking the small cramp boat ride at nite is scary.. hahaha!!! squeezing 6 pax in a taxi i cool.. notincludin the driver i tell u.. n smoking is allowed..
i remember this line frm the driver..
translated as
"remember to lock the door, coz it may flung out if left unlocked"

lol!!! hahahaha!!!! soo unsafe.. hahahahah!

the club was super huge.. 3 levels if im not wrong.. hahaha! the dnce floor was big enuff fr me to do my side split.. haha! and and.. we have the VIP room, 2 jugs of booze, + more.. plus KTV.. plus the movie 300.. all for like only S$80. Bro Arfy paid for it all.. thx bro.. how i wish i wanna slide my master.. BUT, my bank left $5... hahahahahahahahhahaah!!!

i danced like crazy larh.. partied away till 5.30am before taking the boat ride back home.. have coffee n back to lala land..

click this pic to bring you to the album for the second day..

Labels: Vacation

Holla, soo i'll just start off with the posts from here on, separating into 3 parts to make it more enjoyable to read. Soo, hmm.. ya.. i left for Batam wif my aunt..and.. i dragged along 2 pumpkins as companions. The usual.. haha.. i dragged chucky chuck chuckles and baby gaj. hehehe!!! i know. Ohh the trip was kinda sickly.. wad u expect? we're travelling by vessel sia. Ohh, and i totally brought along like a whole big bag. wakakakaka! its better to be safe den sorry ryte?

Reachd dere arnd 1pm, okok.. from here on, i'm just gonna type down the time according to the Batam time. Niwae, i frgt to mention, i went to the island of Blakang Padang; in other words its a kampong side of Batam, with tht upon arrival.. i was like.. errr...errr.. 4days 3 nites??? are u kiddin me? Soo that was my mindset for the ferst few minutes, complainin to Arfy. wakakakaka!

Got the house, ferst things ferst.. typical malays.. makan time.. haha.. den all of us gt changed and head out to ride bikes. yesh!!! motorcycles.. wehre no helmets needed, no license needed, no age limit.. max cap can go up to 4.. erm.. no side mirrors.. spoilt seepdometers and fuel gauge.. but fuck.. i had fun!!! like seriously big time. From roads dat don seem like roads, for the record, dey dun have signs.. no t'lights... no directional arrows.. and and.. haha.. the wooden bridge with lotsa holes and no railings.. crazy sia!!!! Me and Arfy was like soo excited alongside Amer and e rest. haha.. crazy i tell u. moreover dat Arfy was like soo happy he usually sped off only to realise the rest is still way behind coz of some stuffs.. hahahahaha!! and he tried to rempit with me.. GOHS!! i'm not a boy rempit larh!!! hahahaha!

I seriously effing duno wad to type oread sia.. we did alot of walking, buying food.. eating.. shopping.. haha.. i love theayam penyet larh sial!!! freaking nice.. the sambal issit?? ya i think soo was soo spicy tht it gave me multiple orgasms.. ahakz!

Ohh ohh.. we went to this place called the Pasir Putih.. literally translated as White Sands.. haha! its like a small beach, with a coffee shop, and a performing area, apparently we went there at around noon, soo theres basically only us and one more table. Sipping away coconut was soo fun.. hahaha!!! i know, im very the jakunz larh!!!

Dat nite, we went to eat.. i know we cant stop eating.. at some shop by the road. Eating a superbly nice bowl of mee ayam a.k.a chicken noodle. Den head off to sleep.. haahhaa.. but well we kinda sleep very late. Talking with Arfy, Rina, Amer and Surry.. Amer and Surry are kinda like our tour guides.. hahaha!!! they're superbly nice.. and thinking bout tht, it mkes me miss dem alot..

p/s: my aunts' not the main story, shes with the oldies, its a story abt 2 SG dude, 1 SG girl, 1 Batam dude, and 1 Batam girl..

p/s/s: i dreamt about you this ferst night, i dreamnt you were with us..

niwae, i seriously dunno wad to type, well.. jus look into the pics la..
click on this pic to bring you to a page with the entire album of Day 1

Labels: Amerie, Vacation

Hi guys, i'm writing this up in advance. Soo where did i went just now, oohh.. i went to my workplace to pass tht pendek some stuff.. and niwae dude, tadi aku ngh berak i gt another idea fr the coffee presentation thingy.. I know, i gt ideas at the weird places ever..

Ohh, n i stopped by the IT fair too..
pukimak anjing!!! many people lar sey.. crazy crazy many people.. haha!
It was me, Arfy and Aini.. stoogers going around taking pics with the SLR cams.. hahahaha!!! it was on demo.. soo.. ohh, n one of the big people from Sony was dere..
he said something as "some-sing"... Japanese.. oh well..

Soo after the we paraded ourselves at heart of bustling Orchard Rd. Having our lunch-ner at Cahaya. Hmm.. sedappp.. and window shopped.. and soo i found Ms Love. lol!!! Love at first side, she was in red with white trimmings... lol! ITS A BAG FOR FUCK SAKE!!!!
$83.. woo.. im soo getting it..
too stuff alot of things dat is.. esp for 15th March.. dance comp and den off to chalet.. i need a bag that size!!! im getting it i swear..

on a side note.. i oready had more den half of my pay gone in less den 5mins.
11.30pm = $550
11.35pm = $260.. -_-"

alamakci!!! how eh to survive.. stupid HP bills.. stupid!!!!!
kklah.. i need to go pack my bag(s) oready.. hehehe!!! c'mon Batam.. here i come.. n ohh did i mention the taxi driver just now, thot i was chinese.. -_-" soo i just conversed with him in mandarin reluctantly tho.. mandarin is my 3rd language for freeaaakk sake.
naseb baik aku tau aper dier bobal n naseb baik aku tau jawab dier.. hehehehehe!!!

coz i find it rude to say..
"UNCLE I NOT CHINESE LA!!!!"
"Sorry, i'm not Chinese =)"
"Sorry, i don't get you"
"Uncle!!! wo pu sze hua ren, wo sze mahlai ren"

ok wadever..
n for days im gonna miss tht girl.. bt heck, our pics still in my phone.. issit??? =)
aiyah stupid one-sided love.. shut up ayul.. bye guys..
ILL BE BACK!!!!



bye Amerie.. =) (sukernah aku bobal sendiri, menyampau)

Labels: Amerie, Outing

Ohh well..
here i am sick again. Damn, im getting super sickly nowadaes lurrhh.. like wadde FUCK s wrong with my body. 1 answer to it, i had not been getting enough meals.. urgh!!! no money = no food to buy.. mom's working = noone to cook fer me. Haiz, if only tht someone will cook for me like how she used to promise me dat she would.. bt nvm.. store chalet coming up.. haiz.. it would be nice if dejavu would to happen.. store chalet.. SMS non-stop.. rush to top up.. paham paham la, mase tu boboy pakai pre-paid katekan..

soo where was I? oohh.. went to compass to pass Ayis the CD alongside see-ing tht Arfy tortured wif slam.. lol!!! den the rest cam down, slack for awhile den go home.. cannot tahan lurh, i'm having a bad headache spinning like roller coaster, and my visio nis getting blurrer.. very very.. its trokla!!! ... i need to get lenses quick.. $$$.. evrything all money eh!

I cant strain my eyes too much, wad more with Rina asking me n Arfy too look at a bird, which both of us cant see.. at 2am in the mornin.. -_-".

Tmrw.. i mean later.. Thursday.. IT fair.. should i go? even if im not going i still need to go to SB-MW to pass my proposal about the coffe presentation door gift idea, which I as the supposed leader of these presentation is still clueless on what fuck to do...!!!! i need help in this sia..
SB-RC has a nice invitation card, the hard copy is in this fcuking comp coz SB-RC is where my elder bro wrks at and he's done with the design of the invitation card.. i'm still 0% in doing anyhing.. i need to meet up with my other 2 SCMs to discuss about this shits sia.. Ohh Hadi n Shasha.. help me lurhh.. boboy stress ar...

K nonsense!!! @$#$%%^W!
Ayul is super sick.. his digimons are stupid.. asyik kalah jer..
and i'm missing her more and more..
Dear Ex-date.. ahh forget it.. like as if she reads this dumb blog of mine..

okok.. if you read ar... i wanna say.. erm.. the usual la.. ure fcukin missed..
Ok Mas/Jaja/Arfy and whoever who forbids me to miss her is gonna scream at me now.. argh!! nnoooo!!! BUt fuck.. i miss her not you all wad.. soo heck la..

ohh i gt to know i need to dance for Mass Dance. -__-".. tired can..
lemme seee...
7-12 March = Batam Trip
13-15 March = Prep and Dance Comp
15-16 March = Store Chalet
21 March = Coffee Presentation

DO I SEE REST DAYS FOR ME?? I'M TIRED LA.. AM REALLY AM..

p/s: haiz.. dis store chalet thingy brings me back to how we used to SMS non-stop, n i made u worried coz i fell aslp wen i gt drunk n din reply to ur msgs n how i was soo sorry the next day. sweet sweet memories.. which is just.. memories..

ohh, i heard frm ppl ure attachd/dating someone? hmm.. tkperla.. as long ure happy i'm happy.. i'm not the type who fights for this thing called love, coz i believe if we're meant to be.. we will.. one day dis half-piece of heart will merge wif yours again like how it used too..

dun tke any offence if i never talk, look at you.. or anything tht potrays i'm arrogant to u or anything, its just.. i dunno how to face u anymore.. its mixed feelings.. i'm just afraid girl.. afraid..
soo till i gt my courage to look at you in the eye again, we shall just be .. how we are..
Love, Sad, Anger.. its all mixed up..

I wanna feel again, how it is to be important to someone.. for all i noe, i was never important.. k im not emo lah readers, im jus saying u noe, the importance, the feeling of a loved one who.. cant slp without msn-ing to each other every nite in the wee hours of the mornin?? i miss all these..
i miss tht name appearing on my inbox. i miss tht msn window.. lastly, i miss your smile..


K DONE.. ckp lah aku bobal.. haha watching sappy love movies do touch my heart.. haha.. for the record i teared.. okok.. i cried watching "Love Is Cinta". diam ar.. .. shut up.. dun laugh.. im jus sensitive to love stuffs can.. caho turban go and die.. luff at me summore..

niwae.. nites readers.. nites Amerie..

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Damn, im missing tht girl.. again..
Ok i better stop myself from saying this to avoid being lectured by lotsa ppl, typically Mas n Arfy.. hahaha!!! okok!! soo final mix for the smack that comp is out. Wooo!!! i love the sound of it sia!!!
Fuck im fucking low on cash.. gotta submit this CD later to Ayis..

meeting tht bro of mine at his wrkplace.. n apparently tmrw i need to gt a hair cut and all.. cibia larh!!! IT fair tmrw, accompanying Arfy, but gt to find a way how to.. lol!
Ok this new skin is soo LOVE!!!

ok im tired larh.. dunno wad to type; just the WHY must we participate in the mass dance thing, im soo busy oready sia.. damn.. fuck chibai adios.. i wanna go bathe!

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Writing this entry as im smoking. I'm fcuking bed-ridden the whole day. My body reachd its limit. I thot i could handle the back to back shift. Infact i caan, but aftr it, i went into slumber str8 away in the storeroom. Trip to HQ was pointless.. CMC stuff canceled. Cibai, in other words, i'll get my black apron on 10March. However, i will b at Batam, thus Hadi will b taking for me. Haha!

Oohh.. changed my skin after sooo long. I guess its fresher looking.
Other den dat, im rushing datelines. Mr Howard Schultz, CEO of Starbucks make the entire Starbucks worldwide to re-undergo training. Wtf! originally mine was on 11th March, but i wun b in S'pore other dates available for me is 8March (wad mkes u think im in S'pore??) and 15th March, i got dance comp. Haiz.. skipped wrk jus now.. i know its simple job jus to clock in 5hours on coaching ppl; my ez-link no $$$ and im outta cash. Thus skipped dance too..

I'm fucking waiting for my pay. Pay my $250 HP bills, thnk of a way to pay my prev SingTel bills tht amounted to $530.. and haiz!!! SOO MANY THINGS LA!!!
ok dun talk to me about money.. i still gt my shopping list. damn it!!

I need a pay raise.. other den dat, chalo!! i'm off to play Digimon for now.. bye!

WARDEFUCK is fcuking wrong with Blogger, or issit my comp?
The font for my comp had become.. ... .. white.. AND UNREADABLE!!!

ok oo fuck with it.. i'm chnging the color of my entry.. MANUALLY.. for the time being.
WORK.. is great..
damn.. back to back shift.. i soo love it sia. Cause its been awhile since i did dis kinda shit.
Soo you guessed the purpose of me writing dis entry is to kill time while waiting 4.30am to come by.

Opening day for me followed by going to the HQ to get the ohh-soo-prestigious black apron. WHATEVA.. its jus a fuckin color.. soo ya.. going with pendek a.k.a Hadi.
damn.. im fuckin rotting.. other den dat.. im jus waiting for Batam trip..

lovelis.. byebye.. cibai.. bored.. KNNN!!!

and i miss tht person more n more as i dunno y.. cibai la..

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