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original: detonatedlove♥
pictures: owner's own

Woke up aftr a mere hour of sleep.
Din hve much mood to hve a breakfast, all i know is the special name thts continuously ringing in my ears. Geez~ i din noe i'm strting to lose it. grr..

niwae, was off to schl n felt abit bad for leaving Furbz alone to school. Sorry..
Even he cme to schl wif me, i guess i'll be a rotting log coz i gt nuting much to sae..

ouh, did i mention dat deres various ways to identify a freshie? look at their shoes, haha! 75% of dem will be wearing their new shoes, in effort to parade it around in school.. how -_-".
and omg!! i jus remembered, Yenny, eu called me a schoolboy.. at least im in tertiary.. haha!
i think my mind is accepting sme stuff oready.. i'm feeling better as seconds tick..

ouh i'm in sme database class now..
BLEARGHX~ IT stuff is soo not me!!!
why do we need to noe abt fucking computer tables dat search for stuff!!!

ok.. i'm seriously losing it..
i need the chill-pill!!! hoho!!!

bottomline... can i say i'm still missing u? =)

currently, in the most disastrous mood n in not-in-a-good physical shape.
All i can thinik is u.. u. and more of u.. u seemed to be evrywhre. Was trying to separate u n my normal life, but i can't. At work all i think is u. All i have now is dat folded heart u folded for me on 31st March.

The moments i treasure, i still do. Yea, it do hurts, n my heart cries at times, but i guess its hard to move on. Very hard. I can't jus walk out of this thing suddenly, fragments of eu still remains inside. why? Forgetting eu is like, trying to stop myself from breathing?

Was trying my best to luff my out at wrk jus now..
but i just can't.. i dun cry physically, but emotionally. every second.. its just eu.. eu and more of eu. I'm very gad our path crossed, but can i make a U-Turn?

Issit always hve to be dis ending?
Is dis karma like wad u said? am i dat bad wen i was eons ago? if i were, God, please do forgive me. My heart is lost.. i hate bein alone now, for evry second is filled wif emptiness. the happiness which i use to think about; hving eu filling evry inch of it is now just mere memories.

The heavy rain dat's pounding on my bedroom window, its jus like how my heart is crying out to u.

Worst of all.. the frens i had in school, for dunno wad reason, bcme strangers wen schl re-opens. wads all dis? I'm totally lost. I hve noone to be a support now. Wad i mean now, is sumone hu really undastands me.

I'm still hoping on and trying my best to prove to u n others dat i can mke it on my own.
But for now.. i jus wish eu were here.. by my side..
we're drifting apart.. and i sense it.. maybe.. just maybe.. soon u'll forget having an Ayul as a friend before. But for me, i'll forever remember having eu as a special sumone.

I guess, the thots of building a Kingdom wif eu as my princess, bcme mere castles in the air.
I will still continue, to watch, care n put my life jus for u. And hope dat maybe one day.. the future is bright between us. And i dun care wad readers think coz all i noe is dat..
my heart only longs for the one and only, Yenny Christina..

hey babe..
if i told u once, i told u twice,
eu can see it in my eyes..
i'm all cried out, wif nuting to say..

i will and still do.. for a change..
Loving eu like i never did before.. and never did i thought before dat letting go is easy..

Wif Love,
Ayul

Ferstly, Happy B'dae girl..
Finally u're long awaited 18 year old day arrived. Hmm.. Hope my gift was sth.. tho i think its dumb... Hmm.. so what did i do?? Met Furbz, Choco & Fariz at CP arnd 5+ before heading out to ECP. Frm school eu noe.. haiyo.. how pathetic.. nevetherless, the troubles is nothing.. jus for the b'dae girl mahx..

Reached the pit, saw her classmates? ad of coz Tante haha! and some of the D.U.A people.. hmm.. for sme unknown reason.. i jus wanna BBQ.. this is rare.. very rare.. normally my kinda person is sit down, do nothing.. stone den eat. tho i'm gifted in starting fires. But yesterday, my body told me to cook and cook and cook.. and cook.. lol! its was kinda fun.

More crowds came in. Den. the sabo-ing part. Miss Bacin a.k.a Yenny bcme Miss VTB, very-the-bacin. Things are soo fun.. i guess until a period of time which i dun wan to be menioned over at this blog.

That 5secs was like 5hours.. its jus threw me offguard.. i wasn't prepared.. i was lost..
Now, i jus wanna be me.. i'm too lost...

to princess..
i'm still having my upmost feelings towards eu.
Hurt me all eu hve to do in a second please.. dun drag me thru it if eu have to. Coz i dun wanna be stuck in a love mess thingy again.

my love for eu is like breathing..

woah! i din realise i'm hving quite a popularity in the blogging industry. Blimey, i'm such a noob in producing hot sizzling entries. C'mon people.. read my tagboard, people like Sera and Andrew jus wanna be noticed soo hmm.. guess they wan me to blog abt them.

You people are just cute can?
ferstly, words never did affect me, and will never be. I am what i am, and haha!! i got my damn very own right to type "you" as in "eu", coz dis is mah blog. Get it.. not urs, not ur lil pussies or grandpop's.

Secondly, eu think i'm soo free to upload all my gorgeous photos up ehx?
haiyo.. i am HOT.. haha! i'm not full of myself, i'm being myself. Well eu gotta love urself before expecting others to pay attention to eu. and btw, i dun need attention, i ooze dem.

Thirdly, if eu really despise ppl like me. dun read my blog.. as simple as that. Hate-taggers hold not even a grain of sand in my sweet life. Ouh how gorgeous..

I'm Beyond Vain I'm GORGEOUS!I Don't Like To Converse, I like to Talk!(and that means you listen!)
My voice is so loud, I Think Aloud.
There's 2 voices in my head, But they never agree..
I Fart to make room for ideas..
I'm not good with words, but better with Sentences..
I'm so outspoken, You wished you'd SHUT UP!
I Like My Friends, they Love Me..
I was told I'm fun to be with, but Not with you.

love me or hate me i dun care.. hoho!!
ouh, btw hate taggers i even dedicate dis song to eu.. kool ehx..
LOVES EU PEOPLE MUCH!



ok.. haha! sorry fer nt blogging..
Last saturday had a blast of a good time at Nan Chiao primary for the "Smack Dat Beat" dance competition. woohoo!!! damn nice. D.U.A did a gd performance.. tho a lil messy but can wrk on it. Btw, good job Freako Trinity, tho nvr win, its not abt the winning dat matters.
Other den dat, pretty nuthing much.. coz my mood now is down..

Ferst Day of school.. and im oready feeling like shit.. DAMN SHITTY!
ferstly, class was cancelled. But morning; went to school wif furbz.. at least sum1 to go schl wif me.

Niwae, e thing tt made me shitty was dat sme ppl.. yeah.. dunno if dey read my blog, dese ppl.. dey seem to outcast me. Is 1mth enough to outcast ppl? i just dun get it. If eu hate me, jus say str8 to my face, no need to cluster2 n leave me bhind. N e prob is, eu guys are "close" frens.. so i guess dat din exist in ur dictionary anymore ehx?

issit bcoz i never meet eu guys during the hols? huh? wen i ask eu ppl out, eu guys owaes lazy n wadsoever, den wen eu ask me out, im busy wrking. VALID reasons..

i jsu dun get it man!!!
i'm damn pissed.. now dun blame me if i never contact eu guys. N GUESS WAD! i wun!
wanna mit me, go msg me urself! n dun even gt the idea dat i will agree wif evrything..

i still hve those true frens.. hu dun seek wad nots..
mostly, e original members of PTK..
value ur frens la hor people!!!
their initials are below..
A.. A.. M.. & L..

tak suke boleh ckp! dah lain per skrg korang!!!
esp pissed wif the A yg kawat..
jgn ingat nak step besar la.. c'mon la.. eu can't outbeat me.. soo get alife.. n if eu think its super cool to like nak step matrep over old jokes.. c'mon la.. u're jus being sick!
if korg nak bitch about these entry, do soo.. i wun stop.. i'm jus stating my feelings..
deres a saying tht goes like "boleh bebual aper".. thnks ar dese 4 ppl for making my day!

now i'm jus super pissed..
if unhappy wif my achievements; can jus say!!!
FUCK OFF WIF ATTITUDE MAN!!

to dearest princess..
get well soon.. i'm worried abt eu smehow..

first of all; I JUST ACED MY TP test!!! hohoho!!! i'm like soo happy la. oh how many demerit points? i dunnoe, tmrw den i wanna collect the result slip. lazy to wait today, but hucares when u passed oready. HAHAHAHAH!!!

i wanna thank God, my loyal supporters and fans for their well wishes. lol!!!
prob now is; got to wait fo awhile for bike due to unforseen circmstances.

Ouh, should i add dat i'm hving a fucked up timetable??
like very fucked up??? Its ok coz some of the class i'll hve at least a crazy person dat i'm close with. hohoho!!! But sadly, alot separated. =(...

k i'm too happy n hungry now.. wanna hve my lunch!!
cya bloppers!!!

ouh and i still dream bout eu princess.. *winks*

gyaarrhhh!!!
i look back at my previous recent posts and its all about princess princess princess.. gosh!! I didn't even save a few lines for my always gorgeous life!!! And to think again; i've been dead with the cameras!!! OH-MY-GAWD!!!

my dedication for her today will be
Love is not meant to be seen; but to be felt. (told cha many a times)

niwae; had a boring day today. Its stupid. Wouldn't wanna talk about yesterday cause watever stays there; stays there. All i know is that i did a superbly slow-unimaginable closing!
Thanks for being there and understanding, my Blueberry Yummies & Mummy Ogre (Ina).

And owh people!!! Do check out my new pet (VIRTUAL); on the main page of this blog. huh? You don't know what's the main page?? Click refresh and you'll be there.

Anyways, new school term starting soon, So; resolution for blog will be, ermz.. using proper English? Well, guess proper English will only last for JUST THIS ENTRY. haha!

Lastly, i'm still loving her. Haha!
p.s: if theres a food at my pet page; feed it ok!!!

some of you might noe dat urs truly is now having ups n downs of flu n fever. Gosh! how i wish all these trouble are away. These sickness, i "merlioned" almost every night. It's damn scary ok. It's like i need at least a panadol a day for me to keep my temperatyre down. Which also means, i can't get angry or pissed or think abt anything intensive right now coz if i do, i'm prone to increasy my body temperature alot.

Wad happened at work?
shortage of $$$.. i wun release e figure here, but those kpo ppl hu wanna noe, can ask me kae. Wad more troubles lies ahead for me. How i wish sum1 special is beside me now to tell me all these things will pass real soon. Wanna book for a bike road revision, BUT.. too late, all booked already, leaving me no slots. Deres oni circuit revision, but hmm.. can a prac 8 qualifier book a circuit revision??? i really wonder. Nvm, i'm gonna head down to CDC tmrw morning to chck wif the instructors. If can't i'm like left wth luck. Either i pass, remember the do's n don'ts or forget about having the license A.S.A.P.

not to be wad, but sth tells me i'm gonna die soon..
(wad more wif a comment frm a fren in frenster; that says "dun cross the road")

OMG!!! wad am i thinking..
i'm not dying NO NO NO!! not now, deres many unaccomplished tings in my life.
enoguh abt sappy stuff!!!
i'm not superstitious and stuff!! and never will i be!

for 1 sure thing;
i'm still and will wait for the day i'm wif the special her..
princess; i do cherish eu alot.. lot more den anything in the world, i'll wait for the day dat eu'll see thru evrything..

my one desire, all i aspire.. You

for today, i'm not gonna talk anything about what happened in my life today. Instead, i'm gonna talk about what's currently going on in my life.

things happened a month ago; i met sum1 hu i guess mayb e rite one fer me. Yeah, we did talked on the ferst day dat we met. But dat day, i still consider eu as a stranger. *wink*. Time and days passed; i thot u were attached; was slightly shattered, but then again i told myself that i hvn fell fer this special person deeply yet. So i guess its fine.

Time flies yet again, u were put at the back of my head, never had i thot i'll go bananas over eu. I was wrong, wen i gt to noe dat u're single, and all tht "u're attached" thingy is jus some hoax; i tried to let eu see my heart. Instead of seeing it, eu folded me a heart; f.y.i i'm still keeping tht heart wif me all the time; i dare eu to ask me anytime to show dat heart and i can guarantee eu dat tht piece of folded heart is in my bag.
p.s: Well it nearly got thrown today thx to my mom clearing my bag, i got soo panic, i was like "why eu throw. mama asked me to chck the paper bin in my room and THANK GOD! it was dere!!".

Mama asked why a plastic straw folded heart i'm crazy for; and i said, well.. it's not the physial value of it tht matters, but well.. it jus hold sentimental value. N i added in by saying someone gave to me; and she jus shook her head.

Evrytime i tried to think, i'm good at reading ppl's mind and stuff, but i jus can't read the minds of those i love; or for the matter.. eu. Sorry fo the cause of ur sickness (well thts wad eu told me).. lol.. but its ok, sickness can be cured. i got a bad stretched tonsil due to sme gila gila b'dae bash. But its ok. Evry message from eu, is like a kiss in the cheek. Sometimes i wonder, i'm going to nutsy over eu,but well dats me.. but i noe for sure im not like kissing ur butt 24/7. lol!

If a message can mke me smile. (which at time i realise i may look like an idiot smiling alone on the way to wrk or wadsoever and ppl around me); i wonder wad i will be if our hands interlock with each other. Well; dese may all be jus a dream; a pisang goreng dream. But if given the chance, i would want to mke it a reality.

2004-2007.. 3 yrs of being lonely, not tht im desperate for a gf or anything; it's just hard to find sum1 tht is plainly nice.

now i'm telling myself tht;
i will not give up on eu, but if eu feel tht things will NEVER work out
or eu DUN WISH to wrk things out..
by all means, jus tell me..
seriously i'm glad to be shattered all at once den being cracked from time to time..

a broken glass can jus be replaced and bought off the shelf within mere seconds,
but a cracked glass takes time to glue the pieces together.

NO MATTER WAD IT IS..
for now; i believe in wad eu told me, let's jus follow to where our life takes us to..
i jus wish tht, my life will merge wif urs,.. i treasure eu alot Princess..

Lots of <3
Putera Ayul Andika

Shimmy's b'dae was a blast minus the part at work stuff!!! and those ppl will noe wad i mean. haha!!! nonetheless, mummy ogre a.k.a Ina was dere wif Ain n it jus mkes life aftr work soo much fun.

Shimmy, hope eu enjoyed ur 19th B'dae party. Euu still want chocolate cake? on ur face i mean.. lol.. n hows the Satay Sauce cream by VTB wrking on ur skin? lol!! i noe i went a lil crazy but nvm.. bck to normal oready ehx.. no more ke-kewatness drama.. hohoho!!
Blueberry yum yum re-unites aftr soo long and yours truly as the all-time pimp. Sensational!!! woohoo!!!

Thursday is anthr day wif the Dance ppl. Man the weather is soo inviting me to sleep la. haha! lemme recap hu were dere.. hmm.. Me, Yenny, Wawan, Hakim, Jojo, Nazmi, Cheryl, Anna, Saf, Sap, Wuwul, Shakira, Ayis, Shahrul, erm.. guess dats it.. haha..

went to pasar mlm aftr dat to get pisang gorengs.. haha!! pisang goreng ehx ppl!!! not goreng pisang! goreng pisang is the process ehx.. haha..

k lah!!! i'm down wif runny nose. soo i better be off to bed now..

Evry step i take alone,
it somehow feels as if im not alone..
coz knowing tht my heart is wif euu..
i feel safe..
~all i have now, is the folded straw heart eu folded for me =)

woke up early in the morning to message Yenny well-wishes for her SYF Drama comp. such a drama-mama larh u. Den bck to sleep before mummy kept waking me up by calling me her prefered name "Putera Khair".. yesh i ain't joking, she kept calling me dat frm i dunno wen. N its irritating wen u're trying to sleep; but thx to her also, i woke up in time to get ready for OUTING/SHOPPING-with-D.U.A.. hohoho!

met Furbz & Choco somewhre near rivervale mall to make our way to Geylang (yesh geylang!) to buy cloth for the Dance crew. haha! budget dok! got wad we wanted aftr walking for ages. Ouh ya, we meet up wif Shak & Ryli at Paya Lebar MRT.

Shop, Eat, Walk.. tiring man.. den off to City Hall for ARTFREN.
SORRY SB-MW, BUSY LARH.. soo can't meet eu guys.. SHIMMY B'DAE EHX!!! wooo!
soo bought sme stuff dere, and also bought my stuff for Mr Teddy Bear, all those felt cloth for eyes and stuff.. soo cute..
furbz!! i dun care, furbee's if made into a bag, my Mr Bunny still is cuter!!! grr~

den by 6.30pm, bck to dome for lil practise. Tired man.. like totally..
evryone seem slpy, thx mr clouds.. the weather is soo nice to sleep.. yarh i doze-off while watching Jojo, Shak, Wuwul, Wawan & Kim tarian. haha!

den off to Furbz voidy arnd 9+ to do the cloth stuff.. haha!! and and.. dunno.. my Mr Bunny teeth dropping!!! ehx. i soo tired to type la.. Furbz, ur mom kool la!! hoho!

kk.. i'm damn tired, niwae..
i really ate alot today!!! hohoho!!! fat fat fat!!! i loike.

and to the one and only..
i'm missing eu oready.. like really.. hve a good rest kae..
eu noe hu u r if u're reading dis.. the one and only P..rincess..

here are some snap shots taken.. and ok bye!! i soo tired la.. got headache and runny nose!!grr!
plans for tml..
1pm - 7pm kopi kopi latte (work)
nite time.. (shimmy's b'dae party at Esplanade (tentative venue)..



Sunday; the most dreadful day for most ppl as the next day (Monday), is bck to school/work. Niwaes, nuting much happen today. the weather is HOT with lots of passing clouds, sudden heavy rain which stops abruptly jus as how it started.

earlier on the day was busy re-photoshopping D.U.A stuff, followed by a good sleep coz having a major headache due to not having proper meal on Saturday as well as thinking to much of sme issue. Hmm.. soo sunday woke up arnd 9+am to do final touch ups on the photoshop stuf and head to Dome to meet the domies. ermz.. ya..

i dun know why, but the atmospehere seeems different, issit the weather or issit bcuz of "dat" issue. i just dun noe, but for wad i noe, we're totally fine, i guess.. i hope.. mayb jus sme surprised n shocked. haha! niwaes, should be ok la.. ryte?

arnd 3.30pm left to Bugis to do some shopping for my Teddy-Bag!!! and i got it!!! like finally!!!
$30!! woohooo.. i bargained of coz..

went to work but am soo tired, perhaps im jus not myself today.
have a HEAVY... like damn damn HEAVY dinner. 2 LJS meals!! try to beat dat!
smoke like train, and ermz.. passed by NIKE boutique and i saw tht Green tankie dat i've always wanted!!! $34++ omg!!! gotmy size summore!!! and wad else!! mall tenants got discount = ME!!!
20% off man!!!
thus i got it for $29.40? kool kool!!! i'm a shopaholic.. n to think again, my TP test is next week!!
and i hadn't book any revisions yet. GOD! its time to book ayuL.. at least 2.. dun be lazy!!
Bike can wait, but license is a must.

working tml at 6pm.. haha! i loike!! but wif ermz.. ermz.. god!
save me!

princess, i'm glad/hope dat things are better now.
hahz.. i noe hw euu feel oso, coz i guess i feel the same.. i'm psychic..
okok!! eu win i tyco.
lets follow e flow ryte..
i dunno how to explain this but..
remember the trip to Cheers 1mth ago?
the feelings grows wif evry step, evry second & evry day.. euuget wad i mean ryte..

and to the REST!!
it's my life.. dun kpo kpo!! if euu dun understand click the play button below



This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

[Chorus:]
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

[Chorus:]

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life
Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down

[Chorus:]
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive

[Chorus:]It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive'Cause IT'S MY LIFE!

had an actual plan; but someone is busy. . soo.. as i was jus thinking of spending anthr boring Saturday; Yiwen a.k.a Mozzie called me up in the midst of early noon, (12pm) and askd me n sme others to go out. And minutes ago Syamsul a.k.a SyamCnator frm LUSH ( a leading dance crew) msgd me to support dem in the Finals of "Stomp The Floor" dance comp held at Cineleisure. Soo i told dem; why not we head to town n see sme moves in action. Well, being me.. (passion for fashion/dance/muic a& all things nice).. and soo are my frens, we agreedon tht idea in less den 1 second.

so we reached orchard area arnd 3pm wif the exception of Arif a.k.a Pisang; went to shop for my school bag, but can'tfind "Lil' Boy Black".
IT'S A CUTE N UNIQUE BAG!! CLAUDIA N YIWEN N RIF! SHUT UP!

as i was saying, the whole orchard seemed to ran out of it. soo let's save e $$$ for tml before heading to wrk. ( i wanna try to chck out bugis area).

anyways!!
as expected/predicted wadsoever by me;
LUSH won and are the overall champion for the competition.
Good job syam n filzah & also the other Lush-ians.
i shout n shout wen the results cme out till sore throat eu noe syam, eu owe me a treat! haha!

head out to MW to see my fellow colleagues at wrk and also kpo2 for a while. well, sme of dem going MOS tonite n i really wonder, "aren't euu guys tired???".

haha!!
soo plans for tml..
sorry lah, i wanna keep this entry short n simple..

tml will be wif the Domies in the late mornin.. (god help me in waking up)
followed by a rush to Bugis to get my school bag (Addy/Shimmy; hopefully dey sell it dere ok!)
working frm 6pm onwards..

hmm.. i guess i need to be at bugis latest by 4pm.. haha.. dun worry, if i'm buying a bag i can shop alone, coz i already noe wad i want. unless the case of tops n bottoms, i seriously need my shopping elves to tag along; soo tml.. sorry ppl.. moreover i'm rushy rushy.. haha.. duwanna leave euu guys stranded in Bugis.. haha!!

on a side note..
things have been cleared up.
we'll do as wad we say ok.. eu noe hu eu ar..

and those hu dunno!!! DUN KPO!!! MY LIFE DUN INTERFERE!!!
if euu do, u're jus making a nuisanceto urself, me/us! get a life!

I HATE RUMOURS X INFINITY

soo wad if its true? does it mean people should go arnd like pissing here n dere? i jus dun get it; its my life. if euu guys think its funny, it seriously isn't. Its hurting not jus me, but the other party as well. i dun wan unwanted thots and feelings to erupt from all of these actions.

i just bck frm work and i gt to noe all of dese. y? y?
c'mo people, give me a chance to have time before i express my feelings to her..
even if she's uneasy about it/rejects me or wadsoever, i seriously dun care..
its her decision, not mine and not euu guys to psycho us. evryone is entitled to their very own opinions.

hurt is the answer to rumours..
and i'm not gud at expressing my feelings but tht doesn't necessarily mean tht i'm A-OK. Happy, Anger, Sadness, LOVE.. its all the matter of the heart. This blog is created for me to share my thots/opinions/feelings and not for people to scrutinize, create unwated stories/rumours.

yesh, i do hve strong feelings for her; BUT.. i repeat that BUT
if she's not having the same towards me; i'm perfectly fine wif it. having feelings for someone doesn't necessarily means tht the other party MUST hve feelings for me.
SO STOP ASSUMING AND STUFF..

i'm oready worried and feeling all twisted now..
thx people for making me/her/our day & night wadsoever!! thx ar.. ALOT
and to euu princess; euu noe hu the princess i'm refering to. follow ur heart, and if if euu think its euu, its euu. coz for a part of me, i dun express great concern for people i dun treasure.

and lastly;
my last words will be; princess... the only princess in my eyes.. i wanna work things out wif euu.. serious relationship/frenship and perhaps we'll last.. and also
i'm leaving euu to listen to ur heart.. and .. i jus dunno; the decision frm u i'll respect. no matter wad, frens remain frens..

ku ingin belai rambut mu
ku inginkan mu di sisiku
ku pasrah tanpa mu dihidupku
ku akan dan tetap mencintaimu..

on a side note, i jus love the lyrics to this song.
"Don't Matter by Akon"

hmm.. Thursday, wad did i do?
basically, i was out arnd 5+ to meet up wif e ever-lovable-crazy-whacky-dance crew D.U.A. haha! Practising for the SMACK THAT/ETHNIC Dance comp at Nan Chiao School on the 21st April. Hoho! and news is that some other "rival" groups are joining.. OMG OMG OMG!. lol.. haha! NAHX! I AIN'T DANCING.. well perhaps for now.. i dunno wad my future holds..

destiny changes, but fate remains unchanged.

Soo who was at Anchorvale C.C just now. hmmm~
Yenny, Nazmi, Ayis, Jojo, Shahrul (Ardfiez), Cheryl, Shilla, Fariz, Wawan, Wuwul, Saf, Nat, Hakim, Shakira & yours truly.. ouh; den for a moment.. we also have Kid & Elf.. haha!

soo hmm.. nuthing much then.
arnd 10pm went to the carnival at SK, near Compass Point and saw Idil (Enzo). Hmm.. slack behind 7-11 dere while Cheryl n Yenny went hme.. den do the designs for stuffs, dance2 for Wawan n Jojo; (me & hakim asal boleh masuk jer). haha!

den ton over at the usual playgrnd wif Hakim, Ard, Ace, Jojo & Naz.
hmm.. okla.. the night is super cold, n since i'm usually a hot person, the body temperature jus went way down.. brrr~

ok time check.. 6.40am
haha! i better be sleepin.. working tml at 6pm buat kopi..
see euu guys around ehx..

and ya.. i will forever think about you permaisuri mahligai ku..
euu are the bautiful; i'm the liar..
together, we are beautiful liar..
haha.. macam paham; mish euu many many lah princess.. *wink*

kaez, i'm soo in the pinkish mode for the past few daes. It's like as if i'm putting on blusher now and den.. awww~. haha.. the truth is; well; the truth is.. deres no truth. lol! NO LA. some thing are just meant to be kept personal euu see.. *wink*

soo the last tuesday was spent wif D.U.A frm 5.45pm onwards.. den in TP wif e PTK+ late at nite, did sme ghost hunting also; hahx! kool shiet.. dere ARE paranormal things in TP. I wldn't wanna elaborate on it, "she" might not like it euu see..

argh!!! haha.. i jus really blush evry now and den.. *paiseh seyy*
soo wednesday, hmm.. dn really go out the whole day.. came home at 11am.. den ermz.. SLEEP like a pig. woke up to chat wif princess; she's e sweetest candy coated human ever ok!!

i promised myself
that wif euu by my side; u'll NEVER be my everything coz euu are my ONLY thing.
precious gem stones worth millions; but euu are priceless..

i met a princess...
p.s: eu, i malu larh.. hoho!!!

niwae crap.. for all eu guys may noe, dat princess is just an imaginary character.. hahaha!!! euu noe i love imaginary frens n ermz, moreover its e mnth of April. So dun get ur hopes too high ok.. n strictly no assumptions..

omg! guess wad, i'm soo damn happy! lol! and apart from that the title says it all. i bumped into alot of ppl today ohk!! very alot!!

let's talk, the day started out wif me msging ppl.. thx princess.. haha.. den ppl msging me asking me out to lepak.. "Miza, they dun love us anymore, dats y dey mking demselves not free for us"; n ermx.. soo if according to plan, supposed to meet mah poly mates arnd 3pm at Tampines park, near to stadium n Century Square. Soo well. people all busy soo me n Miza screwed dat idea. soo she left for EC to play bowling wif her fren wen!!!! arep & daya wan to lepak arnd.. hang arnd like monkey.. hoho!!

soo i suggested the Tamp park, dey ok but euu noe; chnge again.. they wanna meet at Woodlands.. like wadde!!.. soo while all dis sms-es was being sent n recieved, i was online n Kidd0 is meeting Wawan at Wdlands. (this time i dunno its to be confirm Tamp or Wdlands). soo ok.. 5.45pm at wdlands.. end up arnd 6pm, i thot i'm l8, but as usual.. evrytime i try to be l8, confirm oso the ferst.. haiz!! pathetic sia.

soo msg kidd0 if he's in the vicinity. (bored sia alone2). soo ya he's at LJS, den Wawan kold up or shld i say missed called me.. (eh i use bill expensive euu noe). soo meet up wif dem while waiting for the other 2 cibai-ers. haha!

Daya came and Wawan wanna go smoke.. so do me.. but haha.. accompany him la ehx go carpark since.. ermx.. UNDERAGE??? lol!!! dere Arep cme den wawan n kidd0 go prt to Jalan2. soo e 3 gundus smoke n smoke n took den decide to eat at LJS.. pathetic? jus cme bck frm dere sia. haha! took the lift, step out, and saw shakira n gang..

come on people!!! tell me!!!
ISSIT D.U.A DAY OR WAD???

lol!!
soo okok.. hi hi bye bye.. dun really noe her dat much la hor.. soo jus walk walk.. buy ciggs n went off to arif's sis' plce to collect sme stuff before heading to meet fizah buntot. lol!!! and along the way, we pick up Ira hu cme bck frm wrk looking soo lethargic.. den along the way pick up Wawan TP.. really pick up sia.. soo gt 5 oready.. den go meet fizah +1.. den wif her fren Mas + 1 more.. total 7. smoke2 lepak2 for awhile den go bck hme. as usual.. me rif n ira.. den left wif the DoubleA batteries.. haha.. he took 168 bck hme while i took 161 bck..

niwae side story is, while me, rf n ira at McD to hve dinner, a daylight robbery took plce jus bhind me. someone snatch a hp frm a table n 3 panicking ladies went frantic. hoho!!! n evryone jus look dumb. haha! oopx!! din mean to luff but sialah.. its soo daylight robbery.. scary sia.

niwae i think i type alot oready..
haha.. tml wil lbe quite a busy day..
meet D.U.A at 6 at Dome.. den at Nite meet PTK-ians at TP to slack..

cya ppl..
bottomline..
to ppl, please respect my decision of my life. i cntrl my life ant not eu guys. i really hate it wen ppl say no to this n dat wen it concerns me!!! me! my life!! soo pls dun interfere coz if eu do n if the reason for any wrng doings is euu.. u'll mke sure eu find a nice place to hide before i find euu..

I LOVE EUU LA.. SERIOUS
the feeling grows stronger day by day.. its been a mth i guess since we ferst met..
hope euu feel the same way too.. *wink*

hmm.. 31st march!
end of the month! thnk god i'm not working soo i will not do the stock taking and stuff!! hhaha!! niwae, if euu people think i'm resting, i'm not.. WOKE UP EARLY TO GO SENTOSA!!! wooo!!!
D.U.A hving a performance for AMKsian family day or sth liddat. n e sun is melting me.. panas ok! ~

i'm gonna split up parts as per usual.
ferst; about my love life, things ALWAYS tke a turn in the end, and it did dis tyme. Nahx.. its not gonna be the case of Y & B.. but someone else. this time, the feeling is stronger.. i can feel she's the one. she the crowned princess for ermx.. the crown prince a.k.a yours truly. princess, if euu read dis entry, of coz i'm gonna be paiseh.. we'll see how things wrk out kae.. i promise..

niwae;
next will be aftr performance at Sentosa, went to ViVo to support Hakim wif his cheerleading grp; meet Yiwen (an accidentally met A9 Maja).. n erms dance prac at ViVo? lol!!! nvm someone say dancers are thick skinned.. haha! AND I MET DERRICK!! lol!! soo coincident, din noe Adastra was cheering as well.. n got a wonderful cone of choc-full ice cream from B&J. thx ya!! =)

arnd night time, many left.. soo basically left wif YuL (me), Yenny, Anna, Nazmi, Hakim, Raudha, Lylin, Fit, Wawan and fren Ain.. guess dats dem? haha! sorry if i miss anyone out kaes.. soo lepak outside ViVo, dey hve dinner i slp.. tired la..

arnd 10+ part our ways to head home..
I'm soo missing her oready la.. niwae, did have a camwhore session..
MAJOR camwhore session wif me n Yenny.. hahakz!
n we're sizzling hot stuffs! pics ehx? wen i feel wanna upload i upload, its all in my hp n comp la hor.. suhhweeetaa!!!

niwae, wanna be off to slp.. n of coz i lurve my special princess..
for a clue, she's someone dat eu guys noe, or mayb she noe herself, or mayb she thot its another girls but its not ok! follow ur heart, if euu think its euu, it IS eu..

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