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original: detonatedlove♥
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People, please,.. those riding on 2 wheels.. plase be very very careful.. its less den 7days.. and another fren of mine, Rauf, is in ICU, reason being, bike accident. Though it affects me, it affects my Claudie BBYY more, since shes more aquainted to him since BMC days.
Babe, prard for Rauf k, i'll do my part too...
Dear God,
Please save the lives of my fren, protect those especially on 2 wheels..
please, let Rauf recover.. please...
i'm still somehow shock over the past accident..
Claudia, dun cry k... he's in ICU, deres still hope..

for those who dunnoe,
i myself am a rider, just dat ive yet to own a bike of my own.
soo to those people, undergoing ur license.. please, get ur mind str8 up.. a motorbike is not an accessory, its not something cool.. its jus another mode of transport, jus like a bus or taxi. Treasure ur life, or maybe at least dun let people who care for u shed tears if u happen to not treasure ur life. To those that gt accident due to other reckless road users, u mother fcuker cibai idiots.. riders are oready open to danger, can fcukingly chck ur blindspots???!!!
Doesnt mean u drive a merc or sme big uncle fcuk lorry, u can overtake riders.. zoom past dem and all.. fyi, wen u zoom past, the wind force knocks us n affect our steering one way or another..

ive said my piece..
lets pray..

to self:
clueless as i am, oblivious to u. =)

For once perangai gemok does nt only refer to food, but to my blog posts as well.. fcuk, this s like my 3rd posting of the day. Aku ngah happy ni tak salah. hahaha! Haha, maybe lah, somewhre inside i'm happy.. maybe thats why larh kan.. weee~~~~

Ok, wen im happy i ate alot.. yea, i cant meet gfs later changed plans coz i need to mit my sec school fren.. sorry BBYYs.. i noe u guys confirm ckp babilah.. lol!!! no sisterhood eh??? hahahaha!!!! tkpe, part ni korng silap.. hahaha.. niwae, tmrw k.. i'll mit u guys.. promise shit..

Ohh, i jus ate nai lemak.. i noe, i ate oreo c.cake.. the 2nd piece of it.. jus now.. follow by an entire bottle of biscuits.. n den dis nasi lemak.. perangai babi sak.. i dunno la.. actually i okok la.. den i go bathe arnd 5+, den while shaving, looking at the mirror in the toilet.. i look at myself, my lil bro, my twin choc chips n i said.. eat more.. lol!!! siak ok the prev lines mcm tk perlu.. hahahaha!!!
Ya, datsy aftr i exited frm the toilet i rushd and eat the nasi lemak.. n now i feel like eating baulu or perhaps shld i fix myself a bowl of mushroom soup???

Orr orrr... hahahaha!! many wants la...
hungry sia.. hehehehe.. ohh i ate bananas oso just now.. one of the fruits i love to eat.. lol!!!
coz u noe y, bananas ryte, mcm ala instant.. peel and eat.. summore no seed then jus chew chew chew..
soft summore.. hehehehe!!!
oso peach oso la.. hahah, siak ar posts aku makin merepek.. sal last few days aku kerjekan pisangs kat rumah Alep jugak.. hohohohoh!!!!

Damn, i gt to buy a fren a belated bdae present ar.. like sungguh belated, but nvm.. i shall buy, but idk what to buy.. hahaha!!!
i hve some ideas up in my mind, but i need to wrk on a budget and all..

k i wanna go smoke now before eating baulu..
ohh btw baulu, the English form is called Madelines.. yeah..$3.30 frm Starbucks.. go n waste ur money on 3 pieces of baulu for $3.30. hahahahahahaha!!!!

to self;
Yul, what thinking you.. go think straight can.. dun "belek belek".. hahaha!

I'm currently having this question in my hed. yes normally im the cool dude who's usually fast at solving my stupid inquisitions.. but not wen it comes to these situation of 1, 2 and 3. Ive yet to tell anyone abt waht shits in my head n waht im feeling abt these shits coz, well.. i jus dun wish to. Coz im unsure abt these dumb questions myself. I dun wanna b the laughing stock at the end of the day. Im supposed to meet my girlfrens now.. but idk man, im stil at home.. still not showered.. and im stoning.. listening to falling out over and over again.. and at times.. striptease.. n just before this flirt by the PCD.. i noe, and i dunnoe wad im thinking abt.

Had a chat with someone yest nite.. yeah, the usual chat. i like talking to the person. I mean, simple things said will make me laugh. But i know.. deep inside i'm unsure if we're u noe compatible. And the person once said, i belong to someone else.. soo what am i? who am i? where do i belong and to whom. hahah!! fcuk la eh!! i don seem to care..

BUT;
thts not it.. this heart beat yet another rythmn. no im nt being a flirt im nt a flirt and im nt even gd if i try to be one. however, this another person.. well... out of the ordinary lah eh. can;t talk mcuh about it as well.. i dun wanna raise suspicions and rumours.. coz i hate it wen ppl try to intrude my privacy..

i'll think about it when i have time..
period.. i think i better meet my gfs.. i better go get my shower now..

tarrah ppl...

to self;
does it matter if we have our differences? but im trying to put u out of the picture, coz its just not right.. but im trying but i din say im hating u.. n i never did say i loved u.. but i din mention i don like u. =)

Theres alot of things i'm gonna talk about, but let me get to a point to which to type up ferst. Lalalaa.. 1 week oni, many things happen; from my super bad flu + sore throat + fever + cough shitness.. den the Hip-Rock Affairs performance.. to politics at wrk, yes yes.. i'm jus the listening ear.. and the upcoming marriage of a friend.. ohh the sad demise of a friend.. it's all over.. niwae let's go G-O GO!!!

Demise of a friend;
Well, in simple words, we can't do anything, God loved him more and he's in a better place den Orchard road. trust me.. For at least he does not need to deal with ugly singaporeans who well.. hog a seat in a jam packd (since when its not) NS Line train, not to sit on it, but to put her bag on it, while she stands.. -_-"
R.I.P Bro..

My Illness;
Thank God; everything is fine.. i'm left to only take my phlegm tablets.. yes yes, some yellowy orange color small pills.. no no.. not the flu ones.. its some diff abit ar.. i think the cousin of the flu pills. soo sealed for now, i'm 70% gt my energy...

Dance Performance;
It was a good show.. nuff said. I love my crew, and i will forever love the ones in it..
i've owaes treated them like siblings n nothing lesser then dat..
ohh dat includes the F'Up people.. yes yes..
the Cina Old Man, the Keling Belek belek (as quoted from shahrul where its supposed to be belit belit); i oso mi Aimm and Ching a Ling Ling... Ohh and last but not least, Mat Police kitorng.. Fir Luncai.

Politics;
wadsup with managers nowadays? managers sama managers pon nak carik pasal. lol!! and wadsup with people acting like mutes? if they have a problem at wrk, y cant dey u noe.. settle it by telling or talking it out? rather den SMS-ing the person of his/her wrong deeds? mind you, both of them are less den 5metres away.. ohh yes it involved manager(s) as well.. and what abt me.. i jus pretend i dunnoe ath..

K, im tired need my slp..
Been hanging out with the dance mates n Kimmie Knowles n Alepo Sanchez lately.. crashed over at Alep's place for 2 days str8.. lol! kecoh!
hahaha!!! k buhbye

to self;
its always the same old situation of confused paranoia dealing with a string of unfathomable thoughts which leads me to a junction. So to go or not to go for it.. Question..

p/s: AKU TAKOT LARH!!! no confidence.. haha!

1 Minute of Silence for a fren,a colleague and a good senior.
His bdae just pass, yet God loved him more.

Dearest Azli,
better known as Ah Beng, may you rest in peace, be in paradise by 'his' side. You know God love you more then us. we're gonna miss you.. omg! i'm kinda tearing..

FYI, this is a ferst that a fren of mine passed away.
I'm still clueless on how u left us, ive yet to get the details from zarina as i was resting the whole day. But whatever it is, beng; if u happen to be reading, which reality check of coz not. You know we love u, you noe SG/BREEKZ AMK really missing u. Its gonna b diffrent raye outing without u.

Al-Fateha..

to those who knows Azli,
he was an NYP student..
he was wrking at Seoul Garden/Breekz AMK.

let's jus hope he rests well..

p/s:
i'm in no mood to have any notes for today, maybe.. just maybe.. you readers may hate ur life now, hate ur parents, hate almost evrything, but god gave u the gift of life, treasure it before youre called back home. ur time is ticking.. do what u have to do in life, never have any regrets.. evrything happened for a reason; and lastly, if you happen to move around on 2 wheels (motorbike), please.. i beg you guys.. please ride safely..

Before i start this entry, those below the age of 21.. ok la.. thosebelow the gae of 18; don read kae.. mature content and explicit form of literature la. hahaha!!!!

K i'm sick now.. fever, sore throat, cough and flu. Not wrking today.. going doctor.. i cant tke it oready. Niwae dat's side story. main story is ryte. I think nowadays im like horny like dat. No no serious.. i think humans gt mating season la.. jus dat we dun open or broaden up our animal instincts sia.

Hmm.. alot of funy thots in my head sia. lol!!!
and simple things i see outside ready att times turn me on; but oh wells i always pretend like im not. hahaha!!! i call that self-control. lol!

Ohh, soo i dunno la.. dun tell me dirty jokes for da tym being aite. Danger la...
Lol!!! i noe dis post is soo random la..
haiz.. btw Xtube is boring.. coz..
1. I prefer home made clips; but their home made clips r low quality.
and ryte, i prefer to see full body action; not jus the uhuh uhuh part. lol!!!
and i prefer gt sound one.. ok shut up. hahahahaa!!!!
tak perlu sak..
k dah, im soo drowsy now.. n i wanna cleeps.. chalo!!!

to self:
i know its harder than it is.

I noe, random kan wdlands. lol!
haha, suddenly thot of wad i fi stay at wdlands? most of my current frens as well as dance mates stay North West area, and im stuck over at Punggol. Kentalan binawe sungguh!!!
But then again, over at Punggol, the housing estate is not kental as wdlands. lol!!!!
Infrastructurily better.

Anyway, i owaes hope i can lepak with my dance mates esp Mas, but theres dis clear line tht shes gt to skool e next day, n i gt to kopi2 the next mornin. And i agree dat fasting month dis year wld be boring. Skool.. im well servin the nation. Meaning no more late nites hanging over at CWP. a.k.a Titanic, this is bad..

i love those times la..
All of us down dere.. haha!!
the un-fasting.. we break our fast at the break of dawn.. lol!
played with shadows.. eat nuts.. lol!!
go Mustafa ctr late night.. haha!!!
n eating Strbucks food.. lol!!!

haiz.. ok.. reality check..
its gonna be soon.. n im like talking abt it,,
idk, im somehw proud im servin NS soon..

ok la.. NORIZAN, siao ting tong girl.. wanna webcam with me..
SHES THE BEST TEACHER!!!
well she wans ppl to noe dat...
shes a mly dancer on wkends.. n shes a clubber by nite.. hw ironic..

BYE LOSERS.. smell ya later..

note to self:
maybe i got reasons.. my own reasons eh? hohoho gigolo!

Ok, i'm updating my blog just soo that dearest shitty fcuk head TAAA Massytura wun nag at me for not updating my blog. To tell you the truth kan Mas, u dun need to read my blog la coz u noe evrything abt my life u shit. Same for me nt reading the blog of urs coz i noe all abt u. hahaha!!!

Niwae, Standard procedures of blogging.
Life's been good.. Not dancing actively.. helping out only. Im gonna miss Starbucks soon.. yada yada!!! and i'm goona adapt to botak hair soon.

Ohk, spoo latest events.. Last friday.. store meeting, new promo. .,same old faces, same ole stuffs dey gonna talk. N trust me.. im slpy during the meeting. Kept cutting the meetng with my nonsense. hahaha! Aftr tht went off to do some shopping for Shim's cousin. End up we spent an hour in Toys R Us looking for toys. hahaha!!!
Ohh Shim bought me Pokedex Book. I love love my BBs laaaa!!!!

Soo ya, aftr meeting went to Khatib, coz the crew's having prac. Halfway thru, Shim came down as she heard voices while reading book. hahaha! Shes soo funny, controlling herself frm luffing soo loud. hahahhaa!!!

Arnd 5am. slept. I guess i slpt ferst as i was readin the tons of pokdex.
Woke up next day. All muke busuk. den watch Chocolate, den go comp.. den gt in semi-finals.. n den watch movie!!!

DARK NIGHT is awesome. me n mas was like debating aftr the show and all. hahah1!! How joker is nt administered in Gotham. hahahaha!! farnie la.. n ok i jus cme back frm work, and im tired. And i kept thinking n thinking.. ok shut up!

to self:
Hmm.. i donnoe myself.. think think think.. kept thinking.. and ketekuk!! fall down.



K, i'm bored. yes, gila girl Fish touchd down to S'pore oready.. soo most prolly im gonna meet her dis Friday or Saturday. hahahaha!!

Hmm.. my computer is being such a pussy. It needs to be manual jump-start.. and soo is the net modem. Fcuk.. wad a -_-". Ohh DS wise..
PEOPLE!!! i finally have tons of games on my DS.. yes!! BE JEALOUS... BE VERY JEALOUS!!! ohh my DS boasts an iPod too.. soo to those mutha fathers hu thinks dat DS suck coz it cant play music etc etc.. IT CAN!!! hahahaha!!!

ohh thanks to over the weekend, i splurged on my DS..
Its new Silicon Earpiece.. yes, its red color.. such a sexbomb.. the design of it..
the R4 thingy.. yes.. i got it somewhere.. ask Niki, mayb she can tell u the shop..
Bought a 2GB memory card..
to top it all, found a website tht has the latest games available for download..
yes, im totally happy..

soo currently, i ditch my pokemon diamond.. but losers who wish to battle me, u can still do.. hahaha!!! my team is ever ready..
soo top list i'm playing now..
1. Ninja Gaiden - Dragon Sword
2. The World Ends With You
3. Cooking Mama 2 - Dinner with Friends
4. Pokemon Batonnage
5. Pokemon Mystery Dungeon - Explorers of Time

Well this is the top 5 games i'm playing at the moment.. but still tons of other games in my DS.. yes yes.. dumb dumb mario kart.. Cartoon Netwrk racing shit.. as well ask MK3.. hahaha!!!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST..
FROLICK frozen yoghurt is a die die must try!!!
5/5 tastebuds..

p/s: i love things tatsting oso soo yummy and fresh!!!
the price is worth the taste of it..
somethng i dun mind splurging on.. ok tarrah people!!! im off to play as Ryu Hayabusa!!!!

Let's not talk abt my show at Youth Park. lol!
coz seriously, i can sae, we're nt focused on the show but the event after the show.
Jim Beam All Stars was hot. Yeah, i did transformd into real me in the club. I know, its just funny. Haha..

Ohh yeah, we partied like crazy. 9 jugs.. haha + stealing others' jugs tht goes for Eddy. hahaha!
I dunnoe, i can't say much yet. I'll re-update these posts once im nt soo tired. and.. once i gt the pics. The pics and pics n pics.. lol!


I choose to be oblivious to my surroundings, that is why i managed to gt a grip on myself, and whenever i feel like losing it, i put my mind elsewhere. That is the reason why i'm getting stronger day by day. Sometimes, things don't go your way, but you can always make the best of come what may.

Sometimes, i really wander into the realm of the song "Soulmate"..
how does it really feel? Any true lover couples free to enlighten me? Tagboard is on the right side of this blog..


WAIT?! what am i saying..
i'm not a believer sia.. i choose not to.
3years now.. yeay!

this heart beats one rythmn.. maybe its yet to change.. but its beating softer..
and why? coz i choose it to be this way. I got to, for the best of us..
Take care my friend..
i do miss you, but at the moment.. i no longer see me in you.. its like it never happened..

Question;
ure only a teenager, soo is love a need or a want?
Its love in general.. yes BGR thingy.. (BBR or GGR in some cases)..
Issit a want or a need? i've been blog hopping lately, and it all ends up with lots of blog posts abt hw seet their other half is.. or how stupid dey are.. hw hurt some felt and all.. sheesh..
Me? ohh don't ask me this question, i'll jus reply with an i dunnoe.. coz seriously i dunnoe myself if im in love. Maybe, i dunno e meaning yet, for all i noe nw is the love of my mom who brought me up (tho spoilt i am) i still love her too bits. And i love my friends alot tho hw some of them are shitty..

Soo wad issit? ohh ive heard of lines of guys using girls as a part of accessory, ohh vice versa.
Soo y do we need dat other half? issit or comfort? issit for show? issit for support?

now enlighten me people.. i'm always lost in this subject.

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