Ah-Yul Blogspot; Serial Confessionist

yeah, pat aku sumer jahat..
aku kan yang jahat slalu.. im the bad guy..
aku baik salah, aku jahat pon orng buat cerite..

kutuk la.. aku dah tk kesah.
trust tk trust. gasak uh.
aku hidup sorang mati pon sorang.. sakit jln gi medical centre.

ape korng kisah kan..
aku dah cukup.. dah lali with all these attitude arnd aku.

macam nak bantai bantai pon ader...
nk ckp tk pekik.. everyday aku pekik pat toyol2 pat tekong..

aku ni actually gelisah...
and im wondering why

Saturday, February 06, 2010

Issues 12:36 AM

theres times i blame myself so as not to cause further damage to situations..

Labels: when ure stuck in an island with a pmsing mood

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

I Need To Find Myself 9:11 PM

I need to find myself. pronto..
I know i'm different but what's the different thing...

u left me wondering..
you made me become an ignorant person...

u mkes me wondering, wishing perhaps hoping..
you made me annoyed anguish and at times pissed off..

i'm tied down by ur ropes..
i swear your own your own this time..

Friday, January 29, 2010

I'm Being Myself 3:12 AM

Truth to be told. I think i'm a loser, a weakling a piece of trash.. evrything bad in the world; but im glad i'm also the type that doesn't give up. To be thinking why i'm still single, it never once crossed my mind. sometimes i feel im a loner; sometimes attention seeker. jeeez. wad am i?

I hate being alone tho, and thats for sure.

If possible, i wanna own a giant mansion, and den have the entire house filled with my frens. wouldnt dat be soo nice? hahaa!! we can call it our summer home..

*imstillmissingapartofme*

deres smethings i hve in mind.. but i just cant seem to type out..

noone cn understnd dis thots except those involved in it.

and i cn foresee those involved wun even b bothered, or least pretend to b bothered. haiz..

i miss you girl..

i feel weird fr not talking to hilton.. ure missed bro.

i chose to b alone fr the time being till i see myself needed.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Mixed Feelings 2:12 AM

You didn't need to tell your fren abt me man. serious.. my frens noe becoz dey noe abt me. Yeah, i noe uve apologised bt part of me always bear grudges. Yes countless times i always say im ok.. but do u think i am? i think u noe me well enough tht i wun b ok. I thot it was just btwn us. Nw shld i continue trusting u or not. Babe, it sucks to put hopes on u as a fren really.. yea, mayb u r dis way.. part im beginning to gt this aura of u being plastic. sorry babe, its not oni u dat cn b plastic, my other frens dun call me mystique fr no reason.

Its ok if ur fren dun stare at me or give this "isnt this tht guy" kinda look. i swear im nt the hahah!! look at me kinda person. Im the type of person hu confrnts.

N im beginnning to have a bad feeling abt ur abscence. im just gonna kp mum abt it..

call me too emotional.. i dun give a fuck.

to b honest,

i thot u cld b of a listening ear,

but i just realised.. apparently i was wrong.. im so sorry

i really am..

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Another Week Long Off 12:26 AM

Tuesday - Friday!!!
Clearing of the off days before the batch comes in. Am I ready fr it? lol! idk la!
k actually im a bit moody but im happy, hard to explain uh.
Work, can be a tad tiring at times, but hell yeah. a few more months, and no im not counting.. coz when im not counting time flies faster..
okok. i wanna go lie down n rest.

ps: i cant stop looking at that particular picture...
how its near picture perfect.......

Labels: gt well soon bro, wadever thts bothering u

Monday, January 25, 2010

Wondering 12:09 AM

At times, i realised that i happen to think too deep about the slightest things. Sometimes causing unnecessary trouble and problems. geez..

seriously, idk what to blog about? oBar? hmm.. was ok uh.. i gt tipsy n i slept.. lol! i lost $10.. lol! i nearly nvr collect my bag, luckily Pockett was holding the stub.

and SHEYDEMA!!!

i realised when i'm tipsy i tend to be too honest. lol! fcuk! paiseh man!

ouh man.. im kinda worried abt a fren, bt im leaving him in his own space fr the time being; hope i can be of help soon. Mas n fa2, im seriously wondering if u guys are ok.. i swear i hate to see couple fight... im still missing Arif, Ayeb n Fizah tho...

ok la.. i wana smoke den slp.. ciao

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